i just feel like dying
By anjikim105
@anjikim105 (21)
Philippines
March 16, 2007 9:50am CST
i dont know what to do anymore... im so locked up with situations that i dont know which one to attend to first. no one understands me but myself... people around me really dont care... i tried to tell them but instead of comfort and care they just try to show me that they too have problems to deal with and that they really dont have time to really understand how i feel and what i need. im living with a partner right now and she dont seem to care at all... ive got financial crisis and now my kid is really sick. i cant help but cry but instead of comforting me she will do the exact same thing like she also misses her family and show that that is a bigger deal than mine. yeah i understand her cuz she came from another country and she really dont have anyone here but the thing is why would she always do that everytime i have problems with my kid. sometimes it feels like shes trying to divert my attention to her instead of my kid... she doesnt understand how easy it is to go away and lie to your folks compared to being away from your kid specially if their sick... its just driving me crazy now i onlly wanted her to comfort me but i get nothing... i think i talk to our dog would be a better decision... im just so disappointed
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@34momma (13882)
• United States
16 Mar 07
I am very sorry to hear about you child being sick. as a mother of three it brakes my heart when one of mine are not well. but let me tell you something that i pray will help.
HOPE, FAITH, SELF LOVE.
that is what you need to get through this. here is something my grandma use to say to me. "when you depend on others for your happiness, you will always be disappointed." i didn't understand that until i was older. you have to depend on you, you and your higher power. you have to know that you are as strong as you need to be to get through this right now. you have to have total faith that this to will pass. that your child will be fine. you have to know it and not doubt it.
I have been where you are. if you don't know how wonderful really is, it can brake you down really bad. but it is up to you honey. you have to think and feel good and positive. you have to feel deep down in your whole self that you are going to be ok. don't worry, worry is doubt and you don't need doubt. just know. and be around people who are going to lift you up. if not just know, you are all you need. I know you are stronger then you think! be Superman for you child, and you.... save your world
@anjikim105 (21)
• Philippines
16 Mar 07
thank you so much... faith, self love and hope is what i dont have being a single mother i think it took evrything away from me... i love my kid so much and im not with him he is with my mother in a city 4 hours away from mine... im working and im suposed to see him this week but now instead of using the money to go home il just send it to him for his medications.... oh its really hard
