So... they tell me I have trust issues...

I'm sorry you have to go through this hun... It's hard, i have a few trust issues myself, i'm always wondering if my husband wants someone more than me, asking how on earth he could want me, because i just don't get it, i feel like i'm just not worth him staying with me.... But i've learned a lot to try and harbor it in myself. I think the most important thing is to work on yoruself first. If you love him, and you want to be with him, then maybe the best thing is to first sit him down and talk to him about what's going on, the reasons why you feel the way you do, and the reasons you think it's effecting your life and relationships. If he understands and sticks by, there for you through anything you decide to do, then he's a keeper, and he'll be better help for you then you could ever imagine. I know how hard this is. I also have this thing where i'm always tempting my husband to hit me, because it's just always happened, and i know that it's not the right thing to do but in the back of my mind, i keep thinking well if one's done it they all will.. In the 5ish years my husband and i have been together, he's never hit me (Not outside the bedroom, and even that doesn't make a red spot, and it's not out of mean, if you know what i'm saying) he's never even gotten mad enough to yell at me, or walk out of the room... No matter what i do... And i know he won't, but at the same time, i test him.. Relax, the worst enemy of a person, is their mind. Tell him what's going on, talk it out, and make your decision from there hunni... Take care And if you decide to marry, Congradulations!