Why on Earth Do I Have to Always be the Better Person?????

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I have two beautiful daughters and one REDICULOUS ex husband. My ex husband is 10 years older than me yet somehow I am always the one wishing he would grow up! He hasn't paid me child support since December. His reason? Well he had another child, his mother got divorced and he got fired. Now, his mother lives in another country, he does not support his other child and he was the idiot who got himself fired from his job of 7 years. I have filed through the state child support office and was awarded a decent amount of child support, the issue is collecting it. My problem is this, my ex is always telling me how it is so hard for HIM to get by (even before he got fired from his job where he made almost 3 times the money that I do a year). The crazy thing to me is that here I am struggling to get by and not have my children go without or notice that anything is different, and he sits oblivious to what is going on. This I'm sure is because as he has said before "I know you will make sure they are taken care of". What kind of jerk says that when it comes to his kids? And still as much as I hate him and he makes my life miserable, he still gets to take the kids once a week with little to no complaints from me about money. Most of the other mothers I know think I'm crazy for still allowing him to see them. I just know that they love him dearly, and it doesn't matter how hard he is making my life now they are still going to love him, and I will never purposely tarnish his image in their eyes. Hopefully one day when they are old enough to understand all of this they will know what kind of a man he really is and think "wow, I never knew" But still be smart enough to never allow someone like him into their lives. Whew! That felt great to get that off my chest.