What do you do when your bored?

Lol your post was pretty boring until I read the last line of count the stars or find a chick. haha. Yeah, I kno. Maybe I'll do both of them at one time!

Technically, I'm not exactly 'bored' as much as I say I am. I only say it soo much for when I am not highly stimulated. I mean I can always come on the computer, watch television, etc.. I refer to this as being bored because inside of me I really want to be in some other place at that point in time. For instance, I could play chess games all day, but if I didn't hang out with one of my friends in awhile I could be wanting to do that. I'm glad you speak highly of yourself in that you think you are never bored. I find it really interesting that you pose mental challenges like that to yourself. Yes, it is nerdy! You shouldn't be sharing info like that! lolz shhh maybe I will try it sometime. Except one of the lines I live by is that reflection and speculation can only serve to obsercure reality. For instance, say you wrote down an entire conversation with someone you like because you secretly have been wanting to see them. You'll end up thinking so much, and reaching conculsions about them that you, even yourself would have not thought possible. I suppose it is not all that bad just that you will obsecure the true nature between you and that person. To what level is, though, a variable. I got this from quotes from Joseph Stalin. I'm not sure how out of context I take the concept of what he intended.

I've given up trying to be cool. I figure I can be nerdy if I want to, and anyone who doesn't like it can just go live their own life instead of messing around in mine. =p "Except one of the lines I live by is that reflection and speculation can only serve to obsercure reality." That is very interesting. Actually I'm a pretty big introspection person, so I'll have to think on this one. I suppose I can see what you are saying about thinking about someone too much can skew your perception on what's really going on between people, but at the same time contemplating and categorizing relationships is part of what helps me keep my life straight. If that makes any sense. As for the memory thing, there's actually a specific reason I do this. I have memories missing from earlier in my life, because of trauma, so it's a way I work to actually hold on to the things I do remember. Therapist-recommended originally, when I was 12 years old or so.

It makes perfect sense. The quote I was talking about doesn't always apply. You just have to know when to use it and when not to use it. I suppose I only use the reflection part in relationships with people. When you reflect on some conversation or relationship, the next step as follows is to speculate something between you and that person. Say I reflect on a relationship with a past girlfriend N then I start to speculate that if I had done things this certain way things would have worked out N I am certain I know exactly what caused everything. I start to hate myself for it when in reality the past is the past, and it doesn't change. Or this the example the one I truly was trying to think of say in the present someone hates you. Then you start running through ten things you could have done to have caused this. Was I not funny enough? Was I not polite? Was I being too nice? Is it the way I look? Should I try and change because of it? Then for some odd reason you remember when you went out with this person N you were wearing clothing that was not impressive. It was just your typical attire, and you begin to speculate this indeed was the trigger that caused everything, and you are certain of it. At this point your only confusing yourself. Or if I reflect back on my sports career in high school N say only if I didn't get injured. Then I start to speculate that I would have went all-state without a doubt. I continue on with this, and say I would have been admired by the community, I would have the hottest gf just like John Doe, and I would have gotten a scholarship to the school of my dreams. You start to deem the impossible very possible and really get nowhere. It doesn't apply say if you reflect on a relation that you were a complete d*ck, and you speculate that if you were nice then things may be different. Well, then you are most likely correct on an easy one like that. :).

babykay! haha! funny! haha! yeah, how about I get a girlfriend first then I will have many babies. N yes I have been trying!

Code of Conflict eh? I want to hear more please! Oh you play during class sneaky one. lolz! you do experiment with food. This is not a bad idea though as you will learn from the very high amount of mistakes you probably make. Tell more ab this experiment you speak of. Are you a crazy chef up in the kitchen?

Thxs those 4 words improved my life.