Do you know how it feels when your dying of cancer?

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When blood starts coming out of your mouth and you have to go too the hospital. When you can't drink or eat anymore and have to be put on machines. When your dad is oversea and maybe won't come in time to see you. Yeah, i know! I'm 15 and have blood cancer. There's nothing the doctors can do for me, i'm gonna die in 2 weeks. My boyfriend doesn't know yet and im not planning on telling him. Even tough it hurts so much, i know if i tell him he won't be able to handle it. Every night in the hospital, i sing to myself and comfort myself, telling myself everything will be okay. I'm going to a better place know. I just want 1 last wish... I want my boyfriend to come and hold me in his arms, telling me he won't leave me. Kissing me on the forehead like my mom does. I wrote this in the hospital on my laptop. Yeah my mom bought it for me. She's really sweet! To everyone out there, i would rather cry every night and be depressed over some guy than have to go thru this pain. Coz you have the pain of life. I have nothing left, my body is being eaten from the inside. I have no more dreams and no more hope! Everything i ever worked for is going down the drain. Well i just wanted to talk to someone and tell them how i feel before.... Just remember, life really ain't that bad, at least you guys can live your life.