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There was this girl i liked. I found her to be quite attractive. Her hair was not very long, about shoulder length. She was fair, had full, pink lips and angular features, which almost made her looked elfin. I met this girl and we exchanged hardly a few words, but she stuck in my mind somehow, even though i (at the time) thought that she would not have noticed me. Anyhow, it had been a while since my last girlfriend and i felt that maybe i could make friends with this new and (seemingly) interesting girl. So I found her number and started to call and message her once in a while.All the while it seemed as though i was the one who had the interested and though i talked to her often, i found no interest in her. One day, to my pleasant surprise, she invited me along with our mutual friends to a place out of town. My curiosity was piqued. I wondered why she and not my other 'friends' that came along with us invited me. Either way, i felt in my pessimistic mind that even though i was invited that nothing would happen. On the trip things started to happen between us, things that gave me some hope yet did not give me conviction of anything. She would sometimes make excuses to sit with me, but sometimes she would seem to not take much interest in conversation. Anyhow, one night all of us went out for dinner. All of us were drinking. Somewhere in the middle i walked off and was having a smoke when she came after me. We talked for a while and finally, looked interested in me. I was so excited! After such a long time of hanging on to nothing i found, a little confirmation that she had at least noticed me.We spent most of the time after this together. We were together at the place we were staying and we talked a lot.She was drunk and wouldnt cease her chatter to take even a breath. We kissed and she told me that she liked me and asked if i liked her. At this point, you can imagine, how dazed i felt at hearing those words. The morning after and days that followed were strange. She seemed decidedly distant though i could tell with what might have been incorrect judgment that she felt at least something for me. She resisted my advances and resisted conversation . I felt sad at having lost or having done something that might have potentially f*u*c*k*ed up what little we had. a few days later she told me its not going to happen between us, get over it, i never felt anything for you... I was, again, though for a different reason this time dazed... I thought since i was a lazy slob and didnt do anything immediately after the first time anything physical happened i f*u*c*k*e*d up all chances... but why to guys have to make all the moves? I wondered, why should such a weird thing like this happen at all? Why couldnt the two of us at least give it a try?If you have any ideas about what i should do or any theories as to what the f*u*c*k it is that i did wrong or simple have any comments, please reply...