Did you try to suicide?

i have tryed it so many times since i was a small kid after my parents split up and my moms boyfriend raped me and mom beat me for it I use to sit in the middle of the road waiting for a car to hit me or sit on the tracks waiting for a train i have od on tylonal but man you get sick is all i almost got by with it once by taking sleeping pills but somehow i woke up in the er i went from that to cutting on my self anf switching back and forth between the two but now i just think of dying havent tryed anything for a couple years came close but just was able to get my head on right soon enough i guess seems like once you try it once you almost become obbsessed with it and it takes a lot to quit trying

no i haven't tried doing it although i wanted to do it many times already

thought about it... but never have and hopefully never will try push through with it...