A Lost Talent

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At a young age I was taught how to play chess with my playmates in our neighborhood way back in our province. At first, chess for me was like a boring game. Then suddenly, I found out that chess is an interesting game. Why? Well, because of how you got to have to figure out on how to to beat your opponent by squeezing your mind and eventually you'll find yourself like demonstrating heavy mental gymnastics. It's like figuring how to solve a puzzle and when you get find out how to solve it, you become invincible. I know I kind of exaggerating myself but believe me I feel like a very dominant person whenever I play chess. I got the chance to improve myself when I was a kid and I was matched with old fellows in our town as well as in the whole province. That time I was very certain of myself that I had the chance to show myself to people that I could be on the same breathe as with the Chess Masters of our country. I only have to play and play more of chess and battle with different chess players at different level (of course higher level of players than me). But there was a hindrance. My grandfather always discourage me to play chess. He hated the game as hell. So ironic because he judged the game as if he knows how to play it. He always tell me that Chess is like a game for stupid. He told me that instead of me playing a lousy game, I should be studying my lessons for my class. In fact, I was excelling in my class despite the fact that I was also more focused of studying the chess. I even buy more books about chess than books regarding my subjects in my school. Come the time I entered highschool, I was still playing chess back then but I am no longer studying the game. I still attend to matches and games against different opponents of the region however that time I only consider playing against opponents as my hobby. Then I find myself already going away from the game. It's as if I was fading away with the love of the game. As a result I am no longer playing chess anymore. I was no longer attending any matches. Even the chess clubs are already inviting me to compete with the competitions, I no longer attempt to think if I'll attend. The love of the game just suddenly vanished. I knew it back then that I should have mastered the game in time. Now I only compete with other players in the streets whenever I find people playing the game. It's just so sad on my part because I still keep asking myself what if. What if I still play chess regularly? What if I didn't listen to my grandfather? What if I stopped studying and just play chess for the rest of my life? Maybe I would have been included in the roster of players representing my country. It's just a possibility of course. I'm not bragging myself. But I know that deep within, I have a shot that I can prove to the world that I can excel to the game. That's just a possiblity. You could think of million things when we speak of possibility but for me, I know I can reach my goal with my mind set to move to success. If only mastering chess was just set in motion for me to be in a place wherein they could could consider it a story of success. Too bad it just didn't happen.