Subconscious and dreams

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First of all a little bit of background: I lost a pregnancy almost six months ago, due to it being ectopic. I had to have surgery and ended up losing a fallopian tube in the process (it had ruptured). Therefore, had it not been ectopic, I would still be pregnant right now. I was due in July. Another thing to keep in mind is that a very close friend of mine just gave birth less than two weeks ago, and I was present at the delivery at her request. Now, with all that said, the dreams I've been having lately have felt like pure torture. I have had three dreams in the past two weeks or so that all involved my being pregnant or having a newborn. I had a set of newborn twins in last night's dream. The pregnancy dream was scary and brought back bad memories, because although I was pregnant, I was bleeding. The dream before that one involved a newborn as well. I'm really not sure if my subconscious is trying to tel me something through these dreams or I'm merely still trying to work through my feelings at losing a baby. But like I said, no matter the reason for these dreams, they feel like torture to me, especially right after I wake up and recall the dreams.