Help, I don't know what to do! I've fallen in love twice . . .

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They, whoever they are, never tell you that you can love two people simultaneously. But I have . . . I do! My boyfriend/fiance and I have been going out for the past three years, give or take six months. We couldn't be happier. A mutual friend jokingly tells us that we are a match made in hell (he's a metalhead, what can I say). We like almost all of the same things--movies, music, etc. And we are intimate at least three to four times per week, sometimes more. The problem is his sister. He and his sister, while there are not twins, are like the same person. It's almost as though the two of them are halves of a whole. The three of us hang out quite a lot and do just about everything together, especially on the weekends. The problem is, I've fallen in love with her . . . I mean, ugh! I'm so embarassed by all of this, I'm contemplating deleting the whole damned thing. Okay, I've fallen in love with her, and I don't mean in a sisterly way. She has no idea, at least I don't think she does. I do silly things just to be close to her, to touch her and I hate myself for it, for every little thing. The other night, for instance, I suggested that we paint each other's toenails before a night out on the town . . . things like that. I don't know what to do. I don't know if she would even be interested in me, in that way. Is something wrong with me? I AM ENGAGED TO HER BROTHER! I'm so torn apart that I don't even want to get out of bed in the morning, let alone go to work and have to face an office full of people who keep asking me how my wedding planning is going. I know I must sound like a silly little girl, but maybe someone here has gone through something similar. Please . . . please, help me.