This is a very bad month for me.

@tammyr (5946)
Etowah, Tennessee
May 2, 2007 2:26pm CST
Today, May 2nd was my mother birthday.=o{ Mine is the 12th. Mothers day is the 13th, and my mom died on May 17th. The year she died mother's day was on the 13th and she died on Thursday, the 17th. This is always a bad time as I get very depressed at this time and have lots of stress with all that I have to do right now with Girl Scouts also. This will be the first time the days are aligned the same since she passed and I am having a hard time with it. I am have dealt with her death the best I am able to it is just this month that gets me down. I may not be able to respond to as many as I have been, so do not feel that I have forgotten you. I hope that those of you who pray, will say a few for me. I rarely ask for prayers for myself, but I really feel that I will need them very badly in the coming month.
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@byfaithonly (10698)
• United States
2 May 07
I'm sorry to hear this, I can understand why it would be a difficult time for you. I will certainly keep you in my prayers. Dear Heavenly Father you know the pain our friend is going through with the loss of her mother. I ask you Father to please put your arms around her and let her feel your comfort and strength as she once felt her earthly mother. Let her remember the good times they shared together and to not dwell on the bad. Father please show her joy and happiness, and peace with the special days coming. I ask these things in Jesus' name, amen.
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• United States
3 May 07
That was beautiful Faith. I prayed it too. God bless you.
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@tammyr (5946)
• Etowah, Tennessee
3 May 07
Amen and thank you Faith. You are a very special person to me. Thank you for everything you do!
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@byfaithonly (10698)
• United States
3 May 07
You are very welcome dear and I thank you - sometimes I feel like I do nothing at all but I do try, you bless me by your compliment.
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• Canada
2 May 07
I will pray for you Tammyr , I feel for you . I hope you know Your Mom is looking down on you and loving you ... The month will be over sooner than you think ... Don`t worry about responding I understand .... I just wanted you to know my Prayers are with you during your hard time ... Maybe the Scouts will keep you busy enough that you won`t have much time to think ... OH By the way Happy B-Day ......
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@tammyr (5946)
• Etowah, Tennessee
3 May 07
Thank you keeper, for ALL your kind words. I am sure she is near, I feel her some times, watching over me. I am usually okay when I am with my girls, they do keep my mind occupied!
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@Fishmomma (11377)
• United States
2 May 07
I'm very sorry that your having a hard month. Best wishes to you and my prayers. Hope the girl scout troop events go well.
@tammyr (5946)
• Etowah, Tennessee
3 May 07
Thank you. I am sure that the girls will have fun and that will go along way to lifting my spirits.
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@AmbiePam (93757)
• United States
2 May 07
Oh, girl. I'm going to be saying some prayers for you. I will not forget to do so. I can't imagine my life without my mother, so I can't imagine how to even put the sadness into perspective. But a lot of MyLotters pray to God, so I know there is prayer chain going on for you.
@tammyr (5946)
• Etowah, Tennessee
3 May 07
Thank you, so much. I am hoping to deal with it better because of my friends here.
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@yanjiaren (9031)
2 May 07
I will definitely pray for you and hold you dearly in my little heart. No one can compensate for your loss but if this is any consolation, try to remember all the lovely things your Mother did for you and maybe you can write a little mini book about the life you shared together so the memory of your Mother stays fresh and beautiful and you can always cherish the good things you shared. This may be a good therapy for you. Take care and God Bless you.
@amydawn11 (906)
• Canada
2 May 07
I am so soory to hear that. I haven't had to deal with anything like that so I can't say that I understand but I do feel for you. I don't normally pray too much but I'll say one for you. I really hope you feel better.Take care.
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@tammyr (5946)
• Etowah, Tennessee
3 May 07
Thank you, and I hope you do not feel a huge loss like this for a very long time! Treasure your loved ones, and treat every visit like the last. PS I am having trouble keeping up with you! I had to look twice to see if it was you or someone with a name close to yours!LOL I liked the pup, but you are not hard on the eyes either, I'm not complaining at all!
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@tammyr (5946)
• Etowah, Tennessee
5 May 07
I also feel that we will be good friends. I have some that are on my list just so I can respond and others because I really feel that they are friends. I wish we could divide them in to two different list, but then some would be hurt by that so ?I do not see it happening. Have a great day my friend. You are doing so great on her!! I see you are in the 500 club now!!!WAY TO GO!
• Canada
3 May 07
yup that would be me in the pic. First time I have posted one of myself. Thank you very much, you are too kind :) I really hope you feel better, i only know you on here but already care for you like a good friend. So take care and have a good night or try too :)
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• Canada
7 May 07
tammyr, please know that I am carrying you in my thoughts... I lost my mom a couple of years ago, too (November 2004). Her birthday was May 31st and, with Mother's Day in the same month, I too find it a bit of a rough one. I remember how we used to tease her that she just wanted to have a month with two presents in it! :) I still feel kind of empty when Mother's Day comes around and I don't have mine. I guess, being 42, I thought I'd still have a parent for awhile yet (my dad passed at the age of 53 and my mom at the age of 63). Just remember to take the time you feel you need. Cry... yell... slam a few doors... or smile in her memory. Whatever emotions come to the surface, be at peace with them. And don't hesitate to ask for what you need -- people do understand ((((((tammyr))))))
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@tammyr (5946)
• Etowah, Tennessee
7 May 07
Thank you thinking. I am feeling so much love here from my friends at mylot. I really do think it is helping. Even my sister stopped in just to leave a response. She was not a member then I sent her a link. I know she has even less time than I do so that REALLY meant a lot to me. I just opened a thread about motherless mothers. If you have not seen it here is a link. I think it may be worth looking at. http://www.mylot.com/w/discussions/1060881.aspx Thank you for your kind words. And please know that even though we do not cross paths here often. You are still one of my dearest friends here and I think of you often. (I still love LUCAS!!)
@charms88 (7538)
• Philippines
3 May 07
Sigh, I can understand what you are feeling, tammy. My mother passed away on May 24, 16 years ago. The years that passed by didn't diminish my yearning to see my mother again. I remembered I gave three red roses and a Mother day's card for her before she left us forever. I am a very prayerful bunny. You will be in my prayers always as well as everyone else here.
@tammyr (5946)
• Etowah, Tennessee
4 May 07
I don't remember what I gave her that year, but I still have the card I gave her. It was one of those great big ones. We did have a wonderful day that Sunday. A cookout with my best friend my Bf his two kids and my two kids, me and my mom. That is a wonderful memory to hold on to. Thank you for being a kind bunny, you will be in my prayers as well.
@mrbranan (1012)
• United States
3 May 07
I will pray for you. I hope you will remember that god gave you the best memorie of all when he gave you one more Mothers Day with her. God bless you.
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@tammyr (5946)
• Etowah, Tennessee
3 May 07
Thank you for your prayers and for reading the other responses. ((HUGS)) to you.
@mamacathie (3928)
• United States
4 May 07
I hurt with you during this month. I will be praying for you. I lost my mom last Sept and it has been really hard for me to deal with this but with friends on MyLot and their prayers, we will make it thru. You just keep your eyes on Jesus and keep on keeping on and you'll make it thru this month. It is going to be so hard but those precious memories really become more precious. Don't be afraid to cry, it is a good healing process. If you need to talk more please pm me and I am here for you. One friend to another. God bless you.
@tammyr (5946)
• Etowah, Tennessee
4 May 07
Oh Cathie, I am so sorry for you losing your momma. It will get better, but the bad times do come for some. I will be think ing of you and I did request your friendship. Welcome to mylot, I hope we become very good friends.
• United States
4 May 07
IT is great having friends that have gone thru the same thing to help one another get thru these trying and sad times. We will uplift one another to God and help each other thru these times.
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• Singapore
3 May 07
Hello my friend, don't think about this. The more you think it is bad, the worse it becomes. Try to make something lucky to happen this month. Change it such that instead of a bad month, it will become a good month. God's blessings be with you.
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@tammyr (5946)
• Etowah, Tennessee
5 May 07
You bet ya I will!=o}
@tammyr (5946)
• Etowah, Tennessee
3 May 07
Maybe I should try the lottery? THAT would be a lucky thing!! I am feeling better today than yesterday. One Day at a time, right? May God Bless You too!
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• Singapore
3 May 07
Try it! Slip some money my way if you win, alright?
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• India
3 May 07
Hello Tammy i would def be praying for you. I hope you get through this month anniversaries are really a bad time if you have lost a dear one ...God will help you thru this just remember He gives you only those problems that He know you can handle......so if He thinks you can you better beleive YOU CAN!...also this is totally away from fact n sceince and stuff but i beleive when we loose someone close they become a star and you can look upto the sky when you are lonely and the brightest one you can is the one who loves you....i always do that b'cos i lost my dad 2 years back and i still 'talk' to him in my heart i also speak out loudly to him when iam watching the night sky....so dont worry your mom is always with you..the people we truly love never leave us they live in us and show thmeselves the most when we need them the most...God bless and i will keep you in my prayers :)
@tammyr (5946)
• Etowah, Tennessee
4 May 07
Thank you so much for your beautiful words. That is a good way to stay close to your father. Bless you and I will say a pray for you also.
@Swtrose (3385)
• Canada
2 May 07
Anniversaries, birthdays, Mother's Day are a hard time. I lost my Mother five years ago. Don't keep these emotions bottled up inside you. Share the memories of your special times spent with family and friends.
@tammyr (5946)
• Etowah, Tennessee
3 May 07
Thank you swtrose. My mom has also been gone 5 years now. I try to talk to people, but sometimes it is hard. At least here ya'll can't see me blubbering! Congrats on hitting 500. Be careful with the new tricks, I do not want to lose you know that you are a regular part of my life here!!
@Swtrose (3385)
• Canada
3 May 07
Thank you Tammy and I hope not to any where.
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• United States
3 May 07
You may want to set aside a day to celebrate your mother this month. Perhaps even on Mother's Day. Get together with friends and family and share your memories together, and your tears. I cannot say I know about your loss. I have lost loved ones, but not my mother. I am sure nothing compares. You will be in my prayers. Give it to God and He will carry you through this month.
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@tammyr (5946)
• Etowah, Tennessee
5 May 07
Thank you. That does sound like it may be a good idea. And you are right, nothing compares. I guess the only thing worse would be losing a child or spouse.
• Australia
3 May 07
Tammy I feel for you at this time. It is only natural you will feel down, but there is one great compensation. You evidently had a loving mother and a great relationship with her. That is something you can feel extremely grateful for. Remember all her love and kindnesses to you and it will help take the edge off the pain. Know that she wouldnlt want you to be depressed. Be assured of my prayers and take heart from a great promise: Deut 33:27 "The eternal God is your refuge, and underneath are the everlasting arms" He will uphold you.
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@tammyr (5946)
• Etowah, Tennessee
3 May 07
Thank you cloud. My relationship with my mother was a strange one, but yes we were close. She lived with me or next door to me for most of my life. It was very hard for me and my son, as she had as much to do with his rearing as I did. He is already depressed over his 4 year relationship breaking up, and I can not talk to him for fear of getting him more down. I do not even think he realized it was her B-Day and I am not about to be the one to tell him! Thank yo very much for the verse and you rkind words, you have touched me greatly.
@denden (802)
• Philippines
3 May 07
Oh,i will pray for your common good dear.It is just a trial to your life all i can say is be strong and have a strong faith in God,u hope everything will be okay for you.I will pray for that.Me,also i am very stressed this past few weeks but i will try to cope those time wasted.Hope things work out for us.
@tammyr (5946)
• Etowah, Tennessee
3 May 07
They say God will not give us more than we can handle. I believe this is true, only if we have him to help us through it. Do you know the peoms footprints in the sand. That is a inspiration to me.
@Woodpigeon (3710)
• Ireland
3 May 07
It is going to be a tough month for you and my prayers are with you. I know it is an old chestnut but it does get easier as the years go on. Take each day as it comes and I hope you fiond the strength to get though this. I know it must be very difficult.
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@tammyr (5946)
• Etowah, Tennessee
3 May 07
It is worse this year because the days fall the same. With all the prayers from here and friends out side mylot, as well as my own, I should be just fine, thank you!
@kumar27 (129)
• India
3 May 07
it seems you ave beenanguished too much by the demise of your mother actualyy what happens in the month of may 9s that the planet mars rules this month i.e. May. and it rules our mind and the activities are so hectic or tensive u feel uneasuness and bad. u can see those who ar May-born are active in brain and laborious some of them feel this month bad. for u my advice is come closer to u and be cool.
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@tammyr (5946)
• Etowah, Tennessee
3 May 07
Thank you for that info. I did not know these things. I will take time for me soon.
• Indonesia
3 May 07
i'm sory to hear that... i think everythings has been arranged by God so we can run from God's decissions we just pray to make our soul near the God.
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@tammyr (5946)
• Etowah, Tennessee
5 May 07
Thank you. I believe prayer is always helpful
@Viralg (66)
• India
3 May 07
ma exams started on 24th!!! first paper was damnnnn hard so i coudnt earn marks thn.. in the second paper due to over studying i slept in da class so left 10 marks paper.... thn the laste paper due to exitement of vacs i goudnt do well.. before that all the vivas were onin that i was the person who was asked all tough questions in a was all month went really bad.
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@tammyr (5946)
• Etowah, Tennessee
3 May 07
Sorry you are having trouble also. Get lots of rest and try to relax! I will pray for you.