Life is hard
By scorpiobabes
@scorpiobabes (7225)
United States
May 8, 2007 8:20pm CST
It seems that bad things happen in threes to me--this time, it's really bad. Friday I go to court to find out who gets custody of my daughter--my ex is trying to cut me out of her life and I'm tired of trying to fight this. Friday afternoon (maybe Saturday), if I decide to speak to him, my boyfriend will make the decision of whether or not he wants to continue our 3 year and 8 month relationship (not feeling too confident about this, just like I'm not feeling too confident about the custody thing) and Monday I go back for a second Pap smear, to determine if it's just weird or if it's possibly cervical cancer. I've been doing a lot of praying lately for the strength to just keep going each day, but lately it's getting harder and harder....my friends have been supportive, but even this much garbage is getting to them. I need some cyber hugs, please!
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@4cuteboys (4099)
• United States
9 May 07
I'm sorry to hear about all this, but I wanted to let you know that I had an abnormal pap before and then the next one was normal so hopefully it's the same for you. About the relationship, i'm going to think good vibes for you, maybe he does want to continue the relationship! As far as the ex I can relate. My ex during our divorce was very nasty and wanted to take our two kids, but I wouldn't let it happen, and although I have full custody of them and he only see's them once a year, I am sure later on he will try again, and I am sure he will lose again too.
Big hugs to you! Keep your head up, things will get better!!!
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@scorpiobabes (7225)
• United States
9 May 07
Thank you! I have already had one abnormal, one normal before, but now she (my gyno) says I have an extremely high HPV count, so I may have to get my IUD removed. I spoke to the boyfriend before and he said he'd be there for me, so it's possible...but he did tell me last weekend that he felt I "should find someone else" (something he's said in the past). I'm hoping he wants to continue it--I really want him forever! As for my kid, she's continually hitting, kicking, punching me but I can't keep going through this with her--she needs help and so far, everyone I've spoken to doesn't feel the need to address that part of the situation! Thanks--the hugs are greatly appreciated!
@makingpots (11915)
• United States
9 May 07
((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))
I can't even imagine the stress you are under.
Stop right now and change the way you are thinking about all of this. Begin to expect the best!
What you think about you bring about.
Remember that and say it to yourself several times a day. Take each of these things causing you stress and decide how you want them to play out. Then spend 5 minutes a day on each item..... hear/visualize the judge saying exactly what you want to hear him say.
........ hear your boyfriend saying exactily what you want the outcome to be.
........ hear the doctor telling you that you are cancer free.
The power of positive thinking starts attracting everything into your life that will bring about the results you are looking for.
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If you can not find it anywhere then you can find in on my website at the bottom of the 3rd page. I do not benefit from you visiting it and I promise I am not just trying to drive you to my website. www.carolcsmith.myarbonne.com
Finally, (((((((((( hugs )))))))))) again. You will get through this and be a better person for it.
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@scorpiobabes (7225)
• United States
10 May 07
OMG, thank you! I've been considering getting The Secret (suggested by others in my business), so I believe I'll go out and pick up a copy tomorrow night (wish I could tonight, but I've got to take care of some business first!) I feel more confident about the doctor, although I think I'll have to change a few things (like a new form of birth control) and I'll check out your site later (you have to check mine out though...www.slumberpartiesbysandrawallace.com, it's only fair! ;) Thanks again sweetie and take care!
@makingpots (11915)
• United States
10 May 07
I have checked out your website already. Nice job. I will go back and bookmark you.
Thanks for the best response. And for adding me as a friend.
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@Darkwing (21583)
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9 May 07
I'm a great believer that everything balances, and for every bad thing there's something good. So, think positive... want to win custody, want to be found negative with your Pap smear and think to a happy future with your boyfriend. Thus, the bad things you're experiencing right now, which are sapping your strength and will to fight, will have been balanced out by the good.
All the very best of luck with these trials of life. Things WILL come good if you stay positive and fight for what you want. Brightest Blessings.
@scorpiobabes (7225)
• United States
9 May 07
Thank you...I asked my daughter how she felt about mommy fighting for her and while at first she said that made her feel better, she spent the better part of the evening screaming at me like I was a child! Kinda hard to stay positive with that happening! I am hoping that the boyfriend and I can work this out--just there's so much NOT being said on his end, so of course I wonder...I'm trying not to think too hard about the pap--I will work myself up and I don't even find out the results for at least 2 weeks! I appreciate the good thoughts!
@chertsy (3798)
• United States
9 May 07
(((((scorpiobabes)))))
I pray that everything goes in your favor during the custody hearing. If you don't get full custody at least try for half so that you will be able to see your daughter. Try your best to talk to the judge to see that as a mom, that she's your life and this will destroy you if your not able to see her.
With your boyfriend, just lay everything on the table with him. If he's still not wanting to continue with the relationship then there isn't much you can do. But it will be sad to waste three years and 8 months of being together.
Most of all if God forbid that you do have cervical cancer that it's caught early and can be taken care of. My sister had this and was able to go in and have the cancer cells frozen which killed the cancer cells.
True friends wouldn't care if you had problems that went on for infinity, they would still be by your side no matter what. So keep your head up and know that a lot of people are thinking of you.
Good Luck with all three matters and keep everyone updated on how everything goes.
@chertsy (3798)
• United States
10 May 07
Your welcome.I will be praying that the judge gives you more than just 24 hours, and that your ex will follow the guidelines of the custody hearing. If your boyfriend does throw away 3 years and 8 months, got to remember there are a lot of guys out there that's more than willing to take his place. I will also be praying that you don't have cancer at all.
Keep everyone updated on how things go.
@scorpiobabes (7225)
• United States
9 May 07
Thank you! Right now, my ex has her the bulk of the time but will 'allow me' to see her 24 hours--ridiculous! I will speak to my boyfriend, but we'll see how that goes...I know what you mean about 3 years & 8 months and he's ready to throw in the towel? My best friend went through cervical cancer at age 30 or 31 and she beat it--I just want to make sure we catch it early enough! Thanks!
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@whiteheather39 (24403)
• United States
9 May 07
As you know I had already PMd with you and you have my support all the way so I send you all the hugs I can give you.
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@scorpiobabes (7225)
• United States
10 May 07
Awwww...thank you! My cyber friends have done an immense job of cheering me up--being hugged in any way is good enough for me right now! :)
@scorpiobabes (7225)
• United States
10 May 07
Thanks Terry--I've almost made it to the day (tomorrow). I'm taking consolation in what I've gotten done as well as let my daughter know that no matter what, I do love her. I'd just love for this to go away though--this nastiness is not doing anyone any good!
@lingli_78 (12822)
• Australia
9 May 07
i'm sorry to hear that you had to go through so much... i agree that life is hard but rest assured that God will always be there for you to give you strength and comfort you... He will never leave you nor forsaken you... not even for a second... and i believe that all things that happen to you have a good purpose at the end... so just be patient and keep on praying to Him... i will pray for you as well... and i will give you a big hug now... hugggg..... take care and God Bless you...
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@scorpiobabes (7225)
• United States
9 May 07
Hugs and prayers are greatly appreciated--I've been doing a lot of praying, but every one helps! As for hugging--it gives me a warm fuzzy feeling that doesn't work as well hugging myself!
@recycledgoth (9894)
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9 May 07
Oh hun, I wish I could be there to give you a great big hug in person, but I am sending this little guy with great big cyber hugs. My thoughts are with you and I truly hope that all with be settled very soon.
@scorpiobabes (7225)
• United States
9 May 07
Thank you hun--it makes all the difference in the world! :)
@vashstampede992000 (2560)
• Philippines
9 May 07
Yeah life is hard, but come to think of it if our lives is not hard to live with?
isn't boring?
Life is getting hard as it helps us to be strong and learn how to live in this world so meaningful.
Actually life wouldn't be that hard if we would not let it to be that hard, you know?
Make your life so meaningful and useful to others and start to live your life up to the fullest.
That's my goal.
Have a nice day ahead from Francis.
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@scorpiobabes (7225)
• United States
9 May 07
I agree--right now, I'm happy that they caught the men that were planning to blow up Fort Dix (a military base about 40 minutes east of my home). These guys lived minutes from me, which is ever scarier. So I'll take the little things and rejoice.
But when you figure that Friday will be six years since I've been able to celebrate Mother's Day (the last time my mom was alive--she was the only person that made me feel like a mother) and I may be losing that title, I'm a little down. Perhaps I'll go back outside and smell the flowers I bought yesterday--they brightened my day!
@maple_kisses (2156)
• Philippines
9 May 07
Oh dear, I can find no words to comfort you... except that I'll be praying for you today, you've been through a lot lately (and I thought I have problems). Be strong hun, just trust God, He'll never forsake you... Here's a warm hug for you... uhhhmm! God bless!
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@scorpiobabes (7225)
• United States
9 May 07
Bless you...I'm praying for the strength to get through the court case first, because until that's decided, I can't move on with anything else. I appreciate the hug--I feel better! :)
@collstarx (1177)
• Indonesia
9 May 07
It is the life, my friend, sometimes was happy sometimes not happy, I hoped you will get the strength to struggle in your life and it is hoped you would got happiness.
Best regards
@superfarmer2008 (11)
• China
9 May 07
firstly, i am very sorry for your things! do not know why god gave you these things ,do now know what he wants to do ! then i think over it ! then i know the result ,maybe he just want to exam you ,to find whether you have a strong heart ,whether you have the ability to live ....and so on!and this bad things what happened in threes maybe are just a kidding ! and the final result is that eveything is well, and the weather is sunny ! believe yourself ,love you life ,you will succeed .and from this day i will pray for you every morning ! god bless you !
@scorpiobabes (7225)
• United States
9 May 07
Thank you, I'm a firm believer that God only gives you what He feels you can handle--obviously God thinks I can handle an awful lot since this is all coming at once!
@msjigga (864)
• United States
9 May 07
I can truly relate. I too feel like I have the worst luck.I have been through 2 custody battles with my 1st childs father in 5 years. He sued me once in 2002 and again last year while I was pregnant. I was pregnant by a guy who I really did not like had questions about his sexuality. I did not have a job my unemployment ran out everywhere I turned for help I was rejected my child's father already had shared custody of my daugther he decided to move out of state and instead of him giving me support he dumped my daugther on me and sued me for primary custody. I was stressing so bad I had no money my Attorney from 2002 withdrew me because I had no money to pay him. I was able to get an Attorny through an agency he was an excellent attorney Thank Goodness, My childs father had so much on me and I had nothing on him simply because I thaught he had moved on he had remarried had a new baby. We were cordual he would make agreements with me outside of the custody order and he went to the police and created police reports claiming I wasn't at the custody exchange location to pick up my child I did not know he was doing this until he sued me. I also had a bad papsmear last year for adnormal cancer causing cells, luckliy everything worked out for me the cells were gone after I gave birth to myy child and I went to in July and I won primary custody and he gets my daugther in the summer. I send you lots of hugs and prayers. Stay strong!
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@mugzy528 (800)
• United States
9 May 07
Keep your head up we all have Bad times. I have been waiting 2 years for ssi went to my hearing a couple of weeks ago now get a Letter saying that I have to go to another Doctor When I have 4 Doctors telling me and them That I can no longer Work. Duh.
As for everything else going on I will Pray with you and also Good Luck
Have a Great Day
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@mari123 (1861)
• China
9 May 07
the bad luck will be goen ,and good luck will be around you,i am also have a bad luck this days,yesterday my mobile telephone and burse was thieved by thief,so i can't contact with my friends,and today i am tumbled by a bike,and my shoulder pain so hard.
@Savi_la (33)
• India
9 May 07
"Life is Hard brings together two areas of enquiry which are seldom linked: intimacy and revolution. This is a study of a popular revolution . . . based on the daily lives of the urban poor. . . . At the same time, it is a modern work of ethnography, incorporating the insights of Foucault and Derrida in posing some searching questions about sexuality, racism and gender identity in modern Latin American society
"This brilliant ethnography is an important contribution to the study of the Nicaraguan revolution, and may become the definitive analysis of the country's complex extra-economic social relations."
@scorpiobabes (7225)
• United States
9 May 07
I'm not exactly sure what you're getting at here...but thanks for answering!
@evangsegun (34)
• Nigeria
9 May 07
Every day of our life,we all re face with alot of troubles ,trials etc. but one thing i want u to is, that troubles" re channels to ur success and the ability for u to conquer your troubles or hardiness make u outstanding in life. so u can't escape trouble or hard time they already, part of life. thanks.