I am terrified...

@Marie2473 (8512)
Sweden
June 4, 2007 5:16am CST
When I went back for a checkup after the nonsucessful pregnancy they took a smear-test at the same time (atleast thats what I think the english word is) Today my doctor called and I immidiatelt knew that something was wrong since she had said when I was there that IF you dont hear anything then there is nothing to worry about. I only heard the words changes, doctor, hospital and then I started crying and I still am. I will get a letter home with a appointment to go to the hospital to check it up more closely. I would not be surprised, with everything happening lately if it is cancer. There is just so many bad things that has happened lately and I am starting to loose hope. I havent told my bf yet, he will be even more worried than I am and I hesitate in telling him, although I know I have to and I will.... tonight... Just needed to get it off my chest..
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@sacmom (14192)
• United States
7 Jun 07
Wow Marie, I don't know what to say. It's hard not to worry when the doctor told you "IF you dont hear anything then there is nothing to worry about", and then they call you. I would be worried too. But TRY not to jump to conclusions as you don't even know for certain what is going on yet. Then again this post is 3 days old... I hate to ask, but did you find out what is going on? Sending virtual hugs your way. You deserve some.
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@ESKARENA1 (18261)
7 Jun 07
you certainly do need to clarify exactly what has been found, i do wish you well blessed be
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@Marie2473 (8512)
• Sweden
9 Jun 07
No not yet. I will have to go back for additional testing since they found something wrong and they need more tests to find out what it is. I am waiting for the appointment still..
5 Jun 07
sorry to hear about the pregnancy do not worry marie,it sounds like a routine call back, you would need to go to the hospital for further tests...this does not mean cancer, many many women have cervical changes without it ever leading to cancer, you must be calm and listen to what they say to you....take someone with you...i have to say that if the changes were very worrying they would call you to the hospital there and then...not make you wait for an appointment
@Marie2473 (8512)
• Sweden
9 Jun 07
Thanx alot.I am trying not to worry to much, but it is hard at times. My bf will go with me for the additional tests. I am glad to have his support in this.
• Philippines
5 Jun 07
okay, it is true that worries will not be very helpful here. it can only worsen the situation. you are right about your views. it is best to be calm and deal with hte problem at hand calmly.
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@smacksman (6053)
4 Jun 07
Courage, Marie. It is understandable that you freaked out but what you need to do now is to call the doctor back and explain that his words went over the top of your head because you were so worried about it and could he please tell you again what he said. When you really take in what he is saying it may not be as bad as you think. Also, they often ask you to come in for a chat if it is really bad news. It would be rather cruel to give bad news over the phone.
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@Marie2473 (8512)
• Sweden
9 Jun 07
I have calmed down a bit after speaking to friends and family, however I am still worried that it might be something bad. I will know that after the 2nd test.
@kareng (59050)
• United States
4 Jun 07
Take a deep breath and try to relax. When you get your composure call the doctor back and ask to speak to him and get the details again. He will understand and the more you know, the less to be frightened of. I hope your tests/biopsies come back normal. But in the meantime, don't worry yourself too much. I've had 3 daughters with abnormal cells and 1 which had to have several surgeries and everything worked out. She had to go back for testing every 3 months but today she is back in the normal range, thank God! Hugs and good luck hon!
@Marie2473 (8512)
• Sweden
9 Jun 07
Thanx. I am trying to stay positive, but I am so worried for the upcoming tests. I hope that they will come out fine, but still there is a doubt in my mind that I guess is normal.
@rsa101 (38148)
• Philippines
4 Jun 07
The best thing that you can do right now is to clam down and wait til the results are revealed to you. There are many possibilities that may happen and it could just be simple problem that you need to know. You are right by not telling your BF yet as you do not know yet what it really is. Don't think of it so much and relax and wait for your time to worry if that would be the case.
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@easy888 (10405)
• Australia
4 Jun 07
Hello,marie,sorry to hear that,but at this moment,you should be positive as you have not had the check yet,everything is fine at this moment,I hope you will be fine and your boyfriend and family will give you full support. Take care of yourself.
@maryannemax (12156)
• Sweden
5 Jun 07
well, it freaks me out a little, too since marie had been good to me and to many of us here. i am staying positive just like you, too easy. and i hope that everything will be okey for marie. her boyfriend and family will surely be there for her to give her support. and i hope we get to hear good news soon.
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@maryannemax (12156)
• Sweden
5 Jun 07
i am so sad to hear this. please... i hope the doctors will not say it's cancer. you had been a good friend to me here and it will make me sad and others, too if you'll be suffering from it. i and others will stay positive for you that it's not what you thought of. and you'll give us good news later. oh, i really hope it's not cancer. take care marie.
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@maryannemax (12156)
• Sweden
9 Jun 07
good to know that you have a boyfriend to draw strength from. it's not easy to be on your shoes. and so, knowing that he's there for you can make you a little better somehow.
@Marie2473 (8512)
• Sweden
9 Jun 07
Thanx alot. I hope that it will turn out to be nothing too. I am still waiting to have the next tests done and I am scared even though I try to stay positive, I did tell my bf and he is - just like I knew he would - a great support.
@pinklilly (3443)
• Australia
21 Jun 07
Get well wishes for you - Get well soon
Don't give up Hope I'm sure things will work out for you and things will be fine... I wish you all the best with everything...
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@Marie2473 (8512)
• Sweden
23 Jun 07
Thanx alot. I too hope it will be ok in the end!
@ESKARENA1 (18261)
7 Jun 07
i have also had the dreaded phone call and the following letter seeting out the need for a further check. The words the dr used would go on the lines of changes have been found and/or abnormal cells have been found. IT DOES NOT MEAN CANCER. One of the things a smear can pick up is signs of infection, another can be pre-cancerous cells that can be quickly treated. It really is a good idea to call the dr back and get him/her to explain what it means i wish you well blessed be
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@Marie2473 (8512)
• Sweden
9 Jun 07
Thanx. I am waiting for that letter right now. I am hoping that it will turn out to be nothing, but I am scared and nervous about the whole thing.
• United States
4 Jun 07
I don't know what it is you have but it's probably nothing. Sometimes doctors just want to be sure and do further tests to make sure it's nothing serious. I had an abnormal pap smear and it was like what you described. The doctor himself called me (usually, it's just a nurse) to ask me to go back to the clinic for further testing. They did further tests, then referred me to a gynaecologist to do MORE tests. But it all turned out to be negative. I was really worried too when this was all happening to me. It took almost 2 months of testing before they confirmed that is was nothing serious. Now, I have to just go back for regular check-ups. I hope yours will also turn out to be nothing serious.
@charms88 (7538)
• Philippines
5 Jun 07
Hello marie. I already said my piece on my PM for you. I can understand how terrified and scared you are now. Like what I said, there is nothing definitive yet. You will always be in my prayer and once again, have courage.
@Marie2473 (8512)
• Sweden
9 Jun 07
Always a sweet bunny =) I will try to stay positive and just wait for the next test. I have my bfs full support and that feels nice =
@sjohnson628 (3197)
• United States
14 Jun 07
Hi Marie! I realize this discussion was posted a week ago but I have been away and am just getting to responding to my friends. I hope by now you have found out some good news. Keep the faith honey and think positive. I will be looking for an update on your health and I will continue to keep you and your family in my prayers. ~Sherry~
@Marie2473 (8512)
• Sweden
15 Jun 07
I will have surgery and I have decided to sleep during it, so I am now waiting for a new appointment.
@Swtrose (3385)
• Canada
5 Jun 07
Hun relax! Having an an abnormal smear does not mean that you have cancer. It may just mean repeating your test a bit sooner than normal and further investigation at the hospital.
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@Marie2473 (8512)
• Sweden
9 Jun 07
Thanx. I do know that it does not automatically mean that u have cancer -. but it is an indication that it can be - and that is what scares me. I will try to stay positive until the results come in though,
• Canada
10 Jun 07
Believe me I understand your fears! Two years ago I went in for surgery so that the doctor could determine if she was able to fix the problem so I could have a baby. Not only could they not fix it but 4 months later I had a complete hysterectomy. I was devasted. Having said that the worst things you can do when fighting cancer is think negatively and go it alone, tell all your friends and family so that they can support you! Even though I know you are scared you have to be strong and positive and believe that no matter what you will beat it. Besides get the facts first before you panic so that you will know what you are dealing with, everyone always thinks the worst when they get called.
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@Marie2473 (8512)
• Sweden
15 Jun 07
Yeah - it is horrible. I will have surgery soon though and I am nervous, but trying to stay positive!
@icequeen (2840)
• Canada
5 Jun 07
I know it sounds scary, but don't worry yet. I went through a similar thing...unfortunately I had cervical dysplasia stage three...which was very bad. I had to undergo laser surgery. However...I had regular paps after that and so far I have been fine. I was having some pain so I went in today for a scope and exam...so now I wait for the results. You have to tell your boyfriend...he will be the support you may need. However...wait and see..and try not to worry.
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@Marie2473 (8512)
• Sweden
9 Jun 07
I did tell my bf. Actually he noticed that something was wrong and tortured it out of me *lol* I am glad that I told him coz he is a great support. I am waiting for the next test still and I am really nervous and scared. I hope your testresults were fine.
@cipher2004 (1183)
• United States
5 Jun 07
First off I don't know how doctors are in Sweden.But when I webnt for a pap smear here in the U.S. and something was wrong they made me come in right a way and discuss what was wrong.Then set up an appointment.I had cervical cancer and was taken care of the very next day.I am fine now because it was caught early.If you go to the doctor on a regular basis I am sure if it is cancer you will be fine.I had cancer when I was 23 and I am now 44 and have no signs whatsoever.You might want to call your doctor and ask what is wrong.I know you are in a dae right now with worry but it might not be as bad as you think.Please stop crying you don't know what is wrong yet.Be positive and strong,that is the only way you can get threw this.Please let me know what happens in a private message.My mom had cancer since she was 34 she had only 1 year to live.I got her on hemeopathy and she lived until 72.I can ask my hemeopahty doctor what you should take.I am here for you as so many other my lotters.You are my friend now so pm me when you want.
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@Marie2473 (8512)
• Sweden
9 Jun 07
Here it doesnt work like that. u get a 2nd test but not the very next day. i do not know how long it will be thouhg, but i have heard that it can be anything from a week up to 3 months. If I have to go around beeing scared for that long I will probably go crazy as well...=(
@tinamwhite (3252)
• United States
4 Jun 07
Oh, Marie, I am so sorry that you are terrified..it is completely normal feeling right now....try not to panic...your imagination will run wild if you do not try to stay calm and wait to find out what the results really were...it does not sound like you really know at this point.... I think that it is human nature to always think the worst possible scenario first....... Once you truly know...although it will be scary, my friend....it will truly be easier in the sense that you will be able to educate your self about all of the options that you have at that point.... Please try to take care of yourself...let us know what is going on because many of us will want to know...you have a support system here.....You will be in my prayers, my friend....
@Marie2473 (8512)
• Sweden
9 Jun 07
Thanx alot. I am still waiting for the next test and it is nervrecking. It is hard to stay positive even though I am trying. I am so scared that it will turn out to be something serious.
@makingpots (11915)
• United States
4 Jun 07
Ok, take a deep breathe! I am sorry you are feeling so terrified, it is understandable, but don't create things in your mind that aren't there. Doctors often just want to be extra careful which is likely the case here since you had the problem with your pregnancy. Better safe than sorry, just keep telling yourself that you are double checking to be safe. What you think about you bring about - the law of attraction! Sit down right now, take several deep breathes and start imagining yourself as a healthy, vital person. You don't KNOW that anything is actually wrong so don't attract those thoughts to yourself. Be strong, and keep us updated. Be well, sweetie.
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@Marie2473 (8512)
• Sweden
9 Jun 07
Thanx alot. I am trying to stay positive while I am waiting for the next test but i find i realy hard at times. I am so scared that the next test will show that it is infact serious.
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@wachit14 (3595)
• United States
5 Jun 07
I know you are very scared, but having to have an additional test in no way means that you have cancer. Try to calm down and take it one step at a time. Hopefully, the doctor is just checking to make sure that you are okay and she will find nothing further. Think positively!
@Marie2473 (8512)
• Sweden
9 Jun 07
I am trying to be positive but i admit that it is hard since i am really scared. I will go back soon for a 2nd test and then we will see.
@saierchok (1294)
• United States
19 Jun 07
:(((( why did you get terrified??? just be calm and relax and even if there was something then think of the pisitive side.. that you've discovered it soon enough!! and don't look at the bad side, it'll only do you more harm.. Good luck...
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