Do you feel as though you are different from those around you?
By Shannon
@visitorinvasion (7709)
United States
July 7, 2007 6:18pm CST
Do you ever feel like the odd-man/woman-out?
I do, always have. As a child I was literally tormented by most other children and the only reasons they ever gave were pretty lame: "you're redheaded" or "i heard you called me a btch" ...oooooooo-kaaaaay
Anyway, I used to hate being me, going to school or even leaving the house. I eventually outgrew that, and most of the other kids in the small town where I grew up outgrew their nonsense too by the time high school rolled around.
But my individuality never left me, and the ridicule I endured made me stronger than I ever knew I could be.
Not long ago, I was in a waiting room reading the local paper, and ran across the "For Better or Worse" comic strip. Apparently April is all grown up now and has a friend named "Shannon" (heller coincidence that it's my name too!) who stutters (I gathered this much from 3 frames, cut me a break). Shannon had apparently given a speech, and April and another girl were congratulating and praising her for it. Frame 2 shows a couple of other girls apologizing and saying they were out of line for things they had previously said to/about Shannon. Frame 3 shows Shannon lisping out these words in reply to April: "Maybe God made me different so that I can make a difference."
Talk about having an epiphany right there at the crack of daybreak in the outpatient surgery waiting area!
A simple message from a 3 framed comic strip contained a lot of wisdom.
If you feel different or persecuted, there is a reason.
You are being toughened up for something much bigger than unmannered rantings from children, coworkers, or whatever.
Please share your experiences with this type of thing.
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21 responses
@EvanHunter (4026)
• United States
12 Jul 07
What a boring and lifeless world this would be if we were all the same. I am proud I have always been able to stand up for what I feel is right and say what needs to be said.
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@visitorinvasion (7709)
• United States
15 Jul 07
Bravo, Evan!
Boring and lifeless...can't think of a better way to describe it.
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@aninspiration (346)
• United States
12 Jul 07
I was always the shy one at school but also came from an abusive home so I didnt have many friends I couldnt have friends over or go places either so made me an outcast but I have always been a very caring person and a lot of love to give I want for people to feel the love I didnt growing up I want them to have someonme to turn to I always felt sorry for the oputcast people and in return made me an out cast also to day I am still the same I have worked in day cares, baby sitting, humane society, nurses aid and all along was told I was one of the best they have had and my people I cared for was always happy to see me it made me feel good I just finished a class in Vet assistance and hope to do someting wioth that knowledge also tho I also just had a sput in my back and was told my disability in permant so we will have to see tho I just put my reseme in at a pet store I am out to show them I can do something still but yes I am different and an outcast but I also know why God made me this way to do his work
@visitorinvasion (7709)
• United States
15 Jul 07
You are an inspiration, aninspiration :D
Thank you so much for stopping by to share your story, and also thank you for making a difference.
Hope you get that job, hon. Good luck :D
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@visitorinvasion (7709)
• United States
15 Jul 07
Are you glad to be different from "them" though?
I know that I am, and have been since I realized who "they" really are on the inside...if that makes sense.
Your sn reminds me of a friend from kindergarten that I had forgotten all about. Her name was Lucy & her parents were old and very, very religious, thus making her act and dress differently from the other kids. I really missed her when her family moved away. It's a shame that cruel kids grow up and teach their kids (indirectly, I HOPE) how to be cruel to those who are different the least little bit.
Thanks for stopping by & I hope your difference makes a difference :D
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@Jaytech (2251)
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8 Jul 07
As large as I am (Height wise)I was always the one that got picked on & bullied, simply because I was very shy & quiet, I still am.
Like yourself I despised school because I hated being among crowds & once again I'm still the same, so although in your case these things helped you become stronger I'm not sure I can say the same has happened for me.
@visitorinvasion (7709)
• United States
8 Jul 07
You have gifts and you have strength.
I can see and feel them in you, what it's going to take to evoke them tho, I'm not sure. You have God on your side, that right there is a lot more than what most people have nowadays.
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@student7 (1002)
• United States
9 Jul 07
I always feel different from those around me. I feel like a sturdy lumberjack woman while others around me are dainty and petite. I always felt this way from the time I entered grade school to the present.
I always wanted to be the status quo, blonde, blue eyed, smart. Instead I got handed brown hair, hazel eyes, and so so in the smart category. I just tend to ignore it now unless some rude person comments about someone else in front of me.
I had that happen two weeks ago. I was with my mother at her doctor's appointment and this mean old lady told this girl that she was beautiful. I felt like I was just an old hag with a wart on my nose. I felt like telling this lady up yours but I knew better than to.
Now I don't really care. I am myself and sometimes I like it and other times, I wish I could just be some one else.
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@visitorinvasion (7709)
• United States
15 Jul 07
You sound like a very strong willed individual. Stay that way. In the long run, it really is what is inside that counts. Thanks for stopping by :)
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@BeachLover (520)
• India
8 Jul 07
Common people would remain common always. I don't give much importance to physical appearance at all. It is good to have good face and charming personality. But, it is not the only factor, which makes you human. If you see around you, you would feel many good looking and smart people are not really that good to be praised.
I am having a friend, if you see him you would not feel impressed. He is not good looking at all. But, when you start speaking to him. You're gonna love him and bow before him. All because of wisdom, knowledge and personality. He is a management consultant.
So, personally I feel I am ok and it doesn't matter too much how I look. Your personality, wisdom and knowledge speaks for you.
@visitorinvasion (7709)
• United States
15 Jul 07
BeachLover said: "Common people would remain common always."
Here's a big, loud AMEN to that!
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@KrazyKlingon (5005)
• United States
8 Jul 07
Well - no two people are alike. maybe a few or more things in common, but that's it. I was always different in that I was always saying something that just tossed people into an uncontrollable fit of laughter. I'm still like that.
The one time someone else became the laughing stock of the workplace, it was from a mistake he made. Someone even said something about 'taking that glory away from me.' I mentioned back that at least when I'm the one being laughed at, I do it on purpose, & that he did it by accident.
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@visitorinvasion (7709)
• United States
9 Jul 07
It is different being the oddball when you planned it that way. Kind of goes back to that old saying about the difference between being laughed at or laughed with.
Those that proclaim to be "normal" are the ones I have always kept my eye on.
Bundy was "normal," or so everyone thought until he was found out, ya know what I mean?
I'll be you are a friggin' riot to hang out with, tho.
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@visitorinvasion (7709)
• United States
9 Jul 07
It would be funny to see the look on your face after you hear me try to screech out a note...
@KrazyKlingon (5005)
• United States
11 Jul 07
If it is REALLY that bad, it can actually be used as the ultimate weapon in a hostage stand-off. Get you on the scene, & oh yeah - some way to record it, you sing to the bad guys, & then when you're done, just keep playing the recording over & over again & see if they'll surrender.
The actually hard part is us trying to sing it in perfect harmony. I probaby don't sound that great either, so don't feel bad.
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@angelface23 (2494)
• United States
14 Jul 07
oh yeah, all through elementary and highschool I was teased and unliked because I was different. I have red hair too and I was just a weirdo. Since highschool people have pretty much accepted me for who I am but there are still people out there who don't like me because I am not like everybody else.
@visitorinvasion (7709)
• United States
15 Jul 07
i totally feel you on all that.
thanks for stopping by, angelface.
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@Lydia1901 (16351)
• United States
13 Jul 07
I think that I am sometimes and I do not find anything wrong with that at all. I think being different is always a good thing in my book.
@visitorinvasion (7709)
• United States
15 Jul 07
Nothing wrong with being different whatsoever.
Thanks, Lydia :D
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@twils2 (1812)
• United States
8 Jul 07
Hi Shannon, I was always singled out when I was young. Back in the sixties and early seventies we didnt have things like ADHD. But when I look at the symptyms, I think that caused me alot of trouble. I had serious problems consentrating on class, I would daydream alot. Anyway, sorry to get off topic but because of this I wasnt very well liked by the other kids in class or the teachers. I got beat up alot, kind of made me not ever want to leave the house, but I survived, dropped out of high school and after a few decades I'm finally breaking out of my very hard shell. I dont know if there was a greater purpose for all this or not, I guess we'll see. Take care, Terry
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@saivenkaat802003 (4823)
• India
8 Jul 07
Ya, I am very straight forward and i used to out things staright out, immaterial it is, whether it is my boss or my dad, or my teacher,..
This quality many of them dont like it,, and they even stop talking to me.... Initialy i was worried about it.. but now i have got accustomed about it..
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@visitorinvasion (7709)
• United States
8 Jul 07
I hear you. I'm like that too, I say what is on my mind, and often people, including my dad, don't like it...on the other hand, many people seem to admire it. Kudos to you for having your own mind & tongue.
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@jess_d_blue (385)
• United States
8 Jul 07
Ah well - growing up I was always the odd girl out. For one reason or another that kind of just built up on each other. My mom would dress me in her remakes of fashion from magazines which we NOT the fashion in our area. So this got people to look at me more when I wasn't playing the games or watching the t.v. shows that they did. I was one of the few girls in the gifted and talented program at my school and in almost every organization possible. As a result I got made fun of because I wasn't the best at everything and of course - being kids.. they made fun of my nose. Oi
At a young age I went through more than most people go in a life time. As a result I was very much mature compared to my class mates. As a result I have always felt out of place because I never understood their antics. I still feel like the odd person out because I work hard when no one else does and I still don't understand why people my age - do what they do
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@visitorinvasion (7709)
• United States
15 Jul 07
Being older than one's years is apt to make one feel different from the herd. I hope whatever trials you've had have made you a strong person, Jess.
Thank you for stopping in to share your story.
@Perspectives (7131)
• Canada
15 Jul 07
I have always felt like a round peg in a square hole...sometimes my spin on things does make some people think I might be a little 'crazy.' Then I also read something that fit for me...Being 'crazy' also gives one a great latitude for behavior.
I am at a point in life that I know I am a free spirit...and now that I accept that I am truly free to fly with my own wings. That is why I chose it as the slogan on my site.
Other people's opinions...are just that opinions. They only become a problem when we allow their opinions to define how we feel about outselves. I refuse to allow anyone to be the authority in my life. I have my own relationship with Source...and I live by those teachings... and not humankind's judgments. We have the right of free choice...so I choose my own way and strive to live my best life on my own terms. Works for me!
Although I admit...it took awhile for me to establish my personal 'perspective.'
@visitorinvasion (7709)
• United States
15 Jul 07
Perspectives shares HUGE chunk of wisdom with VisitorInvasion and other interested Lotaholics:
"Other people's opinions...are just that opinions. They only become a problem when we allow their opinions to define how we feel about outselves."
Well said.
Too bad I can't give you kudos along with your plus & best response :D
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@Perspectives (7131)
• Canada
17 Jul 07
Ahhh, thank you for your generous, supportive feedback my friend. I am sure my owl adds some assistence to my perspective in the wisdom department. Your vote of confidence brightened my day. Nice to know others appreciate my perspective. I annoyed somebody a few days ago through..my reputation went down 3 points overnight. Odd scoring system..I don't get it. Anyway I respect you, the way you state what you think and feel in a strong voice and value your comments on that basis.
You are a valued on-line friend..thanks.
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@sid556 (30960)
• United States
8 Jul 07
I have always felt a bit of an outsider especially when I was younger and in school. Kids can be so very mean spirited. I was never allowed to wear the more popular clothes until I was 16 and my mom made me wear the most ridiculous hairstyles. i was the kid that didn't talk...didn't get boobs....did get lots of zits. It is true, what doesnt kill you does make you tougher. I used to go home and cry. I so much wanted to be accepted by these kids. Now, much older, I look back and wonder why I really wanted to be a part of such a mean group of people. Thankfully they were a small group but at the time they seemed dominant.
@xParanoiax (6987)
• United States
17 Jul 07
I've always been the odd duckling out lol. "The weird one". The girl who asked questions no one else thought to ask, or wanted to lol.
And lets face it, my interests have always been somewhat out of the mainstream. And I'm happy being different, it'd get on my nerves if I was a cookie cutter person..just like everyone else. Because..gah, that's annoying.
Sure, some people don't like me 'cause I'm different and proud of that. But that's their problem, you know?
And we all have our differences for a reason..sometimes I can't help but feel that when we forsake our differences in order to conform..we're forsaking whatever purpose we were given in life. Forsaking ourselves.
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@visitorinvasion (7709)
• United States
23 Jul 07
More wisdom...makes me glad to be alive actually.
You handle your differences with "them" way better than I used to. Glad to be different? That is SO refreshing to hear in this day and age. Seems like "individuality" nowadays is just choosing a new group to conform to other than the common "norm."
...and I don't see you forsaking your self to conform.
Nope. Just can't see that happening.
On another note, I often wonder about those who did forsake themselves for whatever reason they felt was worthy of that loss at the time. What I wonder is if it was still worth losing themselves years down the line...
@visitorinvasion (7709)
• United States
30 Aug 07
I've done it, lol. It happens.
I've not been as active as I would like either & I have been getting your messages. Doing some soul-searching on this end & can see you've been quite busy at your end.
Hope you're managing to squeeze some fun in between the serious.
@xParanoiax (6987)
• United States
24 Aug 07
Ah, crap. I replied twice. Just shows I've been way from mylot for too long..and that I'm too tired.
People do it because they've been misled. Somewhere deep down they regret it. But for some its too late..others..they've more chances ahead. I just hope someday..they take them. Become themselves. Take their purpose in life back.
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@xParanoiax (6987)
• United States
24 Aug 07
I've pretty much assumed that it's all been leading up to something. The crap I've had to go through my whole life -- not just being sought after, to be persecuted..because I really am different, unique even.
I've never gotten along with "the mainstream, popular opinion"..so you can get how I've gotten bad attention for years. I wish it was something as easy as my looks -- but there, I've always gotten a different kind of unwanted attention. I'm just shark bait like that I guess. Especially since I look like a child half the time -- I'm the fountain of youth, as my best friend says. Old in th head but youthful in appearance. No matter how I age..I seem younger than I am when you first meet me. It didn't help that I was very shy when I was younger and had something of a stutter. I've retained my quitness but most grown out of the stuttering thing -- which only attracted more sharks to begin with.
To toughen me up. Make me a fighter..not a victim. Not that I would've wanted to be anything different. But life's always been like, "Hurry up! Fight back! Be prepared for anything! Be fierce and gentle too!"So I suspect had life been different I probably would put it off longer than I should've, otherwise.
I'm the outsider -- always. I'm the person you run to, confide in..not the person who tends to be allowed to confide in or run to others. Useable, recyclable girl as far as most people are concerned. To be noticed when it suits you.
And my problem's always been..I care too much, more than happy to lend my services when it'll be of use to others. A help.
So sometimes..my goodwill comes around to bite me in the butt. It did ALOT before..but in this case I believe it was jsut a test. Testing my strength of character. To be this person I am now.
Who I've more or less always been.
I think it's kinda like this for everybody. We get tested and prepared for different things..its just up to us if we actually take what life's taught us, or bothered to learn it..and take the final step when it arrives. It just all happens in diffrent ways.
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@visitorinvasion (7709)
• United States
30 Aug 07
It's all just a test only there's no re-takes.
Hindsight is always 20/20--sometimes freakin' x-ray--but the most we can do is learn from it and grow a thicker skin. I know I could look back and say that I failed many of life's little tests, but I don't feel as though I did in most situations. Every time my temper or need to stand by what I felt was right has cost me something, it actually brought me something better not so far down the road.
More and more as each day passes, I am starting to view minor adversity as challenge to see how I'm going to fare against the inevitable mother of all adversities to come...it's already been established that I can't keep my mouth shut, so I'm mulling over a different situation, but that is neither here nor there atm.
Glad you stopped by & very glad to see that adversity has made you tough. Tough is important...nearly as important as individuality...and any friend that treats you as a disposable isn't worth wasting time on. Their loss.
@juliemarie84 (642)
• United States
8 Jul 07
I always kind of felt like the odd person because of how quiet I was. I never really had a close friend and the close friends (I thought I had) I lost because I never did the inviting for people and never made plans, I only occasionally went when I was invited, so eventually new people came into their life that always wanted to do more. I always thought I was kind of different too. I liked to observe a little more than being the talker. But I did feel like I was meant to do something big in this world too, just dunno what yet. I still don't have a lot of friends but I am a lot more outgoing. I never was teased growing up too much, cause I was quiet and didn't bother anyone.
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@visitorinvasion (7709)
• United States
8 Jul 07
You sure can learn a lot by being quiet and observant.
Kudos to you for coming out of your shell.
...whatever that something big is, you'll be able to handle it.
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@vitekfdr (647)
• United States
6 Sep 07
Well i would have to say that it is doesn't matter if you are feeling a bit different. In my opinion thothing really wrong with that.I always kind of felt like the odd person because of how quiet I was. I never really had a close friend and the close friends (I thought I had) I lost because I never did the inviting for people and never made plans, I only occasionally went when I was invited, so eventually new people came into their life that always wanted to do more. I always thought I was kind of different too. I liked to observe a little more than being the talker. But I did feel like I was meant to do something big in this world too, just dunno what yet. I still don't have a lot of friends but I am a lot more outgoing. I never was teased growing up too much, cause I was quiet and didn't bother anyone.
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@visitorinvasion (7709)
• United States
14 Sep 07
Thank you for your insight, Vitekfdr.
I agree that it is okay to be different, even when it's painful to be that way. It seems that so many are eager to go with the flow even if that flow is dragging them down. I'm not a big plan-maker or party-thrower either, and I didn't become more outgoing until I was old enough to get out of my hometown to meet a different crowd of people. I wish I could say I was quiet, but quiet is something I have never been...I had a teacher that I loved so much as a child, she was wonderful. She is the one who nicknamed me "Shenanigans" hahahaha
I guess to some people, an outspoken child doesn't necessarily make a bad child.
Let me know what that something big turns out to be, seriously.
Nice meeting you & take care,
Shannon
@Ken_Smith (240)
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8 Jul 07
i was tampered with at school because i had temper problem. i fight at school very quickly and hit many people. they pick on me to see what response they get. i not let them down! i break one or two.
i spend time with doctor and now have a job in tax office. i like numbers. i like a girl partner but never had one.
i will one day.
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@visitorinvasion (7709)
• United States
8 Jul 07
Good for you for not taking any crap.
When I graduate college, I'll be looking for work in the tax field while hopefully continuing my education into law...I'd LOVE to be a tax attorney.
You'll get the right girl, don't worry. You're young, and there's plenty of time for that.
Thanks for stopping by.
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@evanpoe (122)
• United States
21 Aug 07
I've felt that way most of my life. I think it's mostly because I don't hold anything back and I say what I think which comes off on a lot of people wrong. I used to do it without consideration of tact, but I've gotten better at it as I've gottten older. Still, though, I'd say people consider me quirky or even eccentric in my behavior. It works to my advantage though since the people who can actually relate to me and get close enough to me to know who I am are some of the greatest and most genuine individual personalities I've ever met.
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@visitorinvasion (7709)
• United States
22 Aug 07
Sounds so familiar!
Seems as tho we have a lot in common. I have just sent you a friends request.
Thank you for stopping by and speaking your mind.