She is tired
By carpenter5
@carpenter5 (6782)
United States
October 17, 2007 10:39pm CST
It has been a long week. I am tired, physically, emotionally and spiritually.
Our son moved out, after my husband asked him to. It was heartbreaking, but he'd made some choices that we just couldn't have in our home. It still hurts because I'm still a mommy.
Our daughter is fighting me almost daily, begging me to let her drop physics. I want her to stick it out, and get help. If she were flunking it that would be one thing, but the child has a B! I would have killed for a B in physics in High School!
My oldest is hurt, because she's broken up with her boyfriend. He seems to be moving on quite quickly, and she's moving a bit slower. The decision was hers, after much prayer and conversations but it doesn't stop the hurt.
Mike and I are both so busy at work that by the time we get home, we are exhausted. forget doing anything but collapsing. I need some time for us, and it looks like it may be mid=November before we get that.
I guess I just needed to vent more than anything. You guys are some of the best friends I've got! Say a prayer for me would you?
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15 responses
@mi2ok02 (406)
• United States
1 Nov 07
Unfortunately, I know how something like that is with having a child move out from less than favorable circumstances!
I went through something like that las June. Now she's back for a short spell until we get her somewhere else. She's back because of poor decisions and bad behavior again.
I'll say a prayer for you and please pray for my oldest daughter. Her name is Krissy.
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@carpenter5 (6782)
• United States
6 Nov 07
I will do that friend. we have another friend, whose daughter graduated the same year that our son did, and they are going through the same thing with their daughter. she went to college for a year, decided it wasn't for her and then came back here. But now has no phone and is having trouble paying her bills. It is making her mom and dad sick
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@mi2ok02 (406)
• United States
12 Nov 07
well, here's an update on my daughter.
She had her 18th birthday and decided to leave the state! Her father came from Michigan to get her and so she'll be staying with him for a while. I hope at least until she finishes high school and gets her G.E.D.
The economy in Michigan is terrible and I am told by my friends who still live there that it is hard to get work. I know that she is going to need a job too. I just pray that God will provide and just trust God to help her in reaching her goals and in making good decisions. And I also pray that God will protect her from herself! LOL!
@terri0824 (4991)
• United States
23 Oct 07
Lifting up a prayer for you! I know exactly where you are at with it feel like there's not enough time to give concentration on one thing before something else happens. I never understood this for the longest time. But finally realized that God doesn't want me to dwell on one thing for very long, he wants me to keep moving, so therefore always put something else there to distract me and move on....I too am facing having to put my oldest daughter out and it is a very tough decision. At least you have your husband to help support this decision. I am a single mother which makes it just a little bit harder, I think!
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@carpenter5 (6782)
• United States
6 Nov 07
I can imagine that not having someone to fall back on when the times get tough can be so hard. I can't imagine not having Michael to lean on when I simply can't go any further. I will definately pray for your daughter, and am so glad that God has brought friends...even internet ones to lift me up when times are down.
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@terri0824 (4991)
• United States
6 Nov 07
Above I had wrote, my oldest daughter, but I meant my youngest daughter. I did finally have to tell my youngest daughter not to come back home. God helped me use tough love and also made it easy on me, since I know she is at my brother's home 35 miles away from the environment that she created here for herself. She is detoxing off of m-e-t-h. And is getting her life together. I thank God and give him all the praise.
@GardenGerty (160696)
• United States
20 Oct 07
Yes, Paula, a prayer for you now. Any one thing could do it, but you have several things happening, and you have to be "ON" when in public. That is wearing, too. I will pray for your son. Your daughter in Physics will live, and eventually will be glad you insisted that she keep the class. Is taking it preventing her from getting into something else she wants. or does she just does not get it? Moving on from a relationship is always hard. I hope your and your hubby can steal a quick moment or two. Sometimes a breath or two of fresh air, and few seconds of quietness, can really lift your spirits.
@carpenter5 (6782)
• United States
6 Nov 07
We spent a couple of days away two weeks ago. I was at a conference and he went with me so that we could spend time at night together. We are able to do that when the other one travels and it's great.
Lauren gets physics...she's just a senior and getting lazy senioritis...that's according to her english teacher, where she has an A in his class
@carpenter5 (6782)
• United States
6 Nov 07
thank you friend. How are things with you? I haven't really had the opportunity to be on much lately. Just a quick post here and there. Last night was the first time in weeks that I'd been able to spend some time just trying to catch up!
@carolscash (9492)
• United States
19 Oct 07
I understand what you are feeling and I sure can sympathize with you. I will say a prayer for you and your family. Please keep your faith in tack and know that thinkgs will get better. I am sure that you know that but it is nice to be reminded.
I will say that I am sure that your son will be okay. Sometimes we just have to let them stand on their own and if they fall we can be there to help pick them up and get them started again. It seems as though it is harder for us than for them at times.
If your daughter wants out of physics, you need to find out why. Maybe there are reasons other than the class that she wants out. I would sit down with her and have a long talk as to why she is so adimiant about leaving that class.
I hope that you and Mike can find some quiet time together and I will continue to pray for the two of you. It sure is nice to know that there are still married couples that support each other and that look forward to the time that they can find to spend together.
@carpenter5 (6782)
• United States
6 Nov 07
James is doing well. he is living with my brother and sister in law and surprisingly enough, following the same rules there that we had set down at home. It just isn't mom and dad doing it, so I guess that makes it ok. Hm...I wonder why that hurts my mommy heart?
@Dee351972 (743)
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21 Oct 07
Hi, sorry you had a hard week. My oldest son is 14 so i am getting the mouth and stuff to. He dont understand why we upset he got a E in english. I think it is hard cuss he dont like to read.
I know it must hurt to have your son have to leave your home, but if he is doing unsafe things or not smart things or whatever then i guess you have no choice. They have to learn on their own. They normally learn by theri mistakes. I did. And i made a lot of them.!!
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@carpenter5 (6782)
• United States
6 Nov 07
Oh I did too! My daughter makes good grades, has mostly A's in fact. I think that's why she is so upset about having a B in physics, is because she's always been able to squeak by with an A and not have to work hardly at all.
@AmbiePam (92820)
• United States
18 Oct 07
I will be praying. Problems come in multitudes don't they. I can't see any good coming out of my life right now, but ultimately I know something positive will come from all of it. And we both know the same is true for your family. I just hate waiting, don't you? : ) I'm not a mom so I have no idea how hard it is so see your children suffer. I'm so very glad you and your husband stick together. A united marriage always makes it easier to make hard choices. I'm grateful my parents have that. I'll start the prayers right now. : )
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@carpenter5 (6782)
• United States
6 Nov 07
I am not a patient person, so waiting is not my best effort! I am learning that all things must come in their own time. I just appreciate all the prayers. it was amazing how refreshed I began to feel almost immediately after posting this. I think it was just getting it out and sharing with someone else...but also I felt the prayers being sent up!
@DJ9020 (1596)
• United States
18 Oct 07
I totally understand where you're coming from. I'll pray for you, and you pray for me! Letting a child go can be the harderst thing. When our oldest daughter was seventeen, she had three rules: keep her belongings picked up from the main house, keep her room clean, and don't go in or out between the hours of 11 pm and 5 am (we'd already given up the battle about be home by 11pm - if she was out, she stayed out!). She decided that was too much and left to go live with some friends. She spent a year just lazing around, didn't go to school, worked only marginally. Then she got a decent job, got a nice apartment, and began to stand on her own two feet! Now, unfortunately, she is pregnant. She is moving home, but she has a solid two years of work behind her and is determined to spend a year at home, taking care of the baby and taking some college classes. So, even though your son left, that may be the best thing for him at this time.
As to your daughter and physics, you might think about letting her drop. Even though she is making good grades, that just may not be where her interest lies. Unless she is planning a career in a science field, she might be better off spending her energy elsewhere. I have found that children, both mine and my friends, seem to grow up in spite of their parents! I have a friend whose son was hooked on heroin when he was 14. After 5 years of battling the addiction, he finally graduated high school at 19 and got a job with an office supply company. Today, with no college education, he is their top seller pulling down close to 6 figures a year! That's not to say that having a college education is useless, but that is only one path to success. You have to let your kids find their own way, loving them and supporting them where you can. And where you can't, you love them anyway even as you try to help them find the right path.
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@carpenter5 (6782)
• United States
6 Nov 07
She definately wants to go to college..and major in education and missions. the problem is not that she can't do it, or even that she doesn't like it, because she will even admit that the class is fun, and she enjoys her teacher. She just has self-proclaimed senioritis and wants to goof off half the day. I told her I didn't think that was a valid reason to drop it.
@ElicBxn (63594)
• United States
18 Oct 07
I'm sorry you are having so many problems at home.
I think you are incredably brave to make your son face his choices & move out. I wish my roomie's parents would make her youngest brother leave, but her mom is like "but he doesn't have any place to live."
IF he'd stop DRINKING he'd have the MONEY!!! He should be PAYING for the privilage of living in their house, but NOOOOOOO.
He and his son are there & he may grudgingly give them a few bucks now & then. I think they need to kick his butt to the street, get custody of the son & get child support from that 43 yr old idiot!
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@carpenter5 (6782)
• United States
6 Nov 07
James isnt drinking thank goodness. he just didn't want to get a job and follow the rules! But, he is doing better now. he's living with my brother and sister in law, renting a room from them...we couldn't even convince him to give us gas money....and following many of the same guidelines that we set for him without even blinking an eye. That part kind of hurts...but I'm getting over it.
@mamasan34 (6518)
• United States
18 Oct 07
Yes your body and mind will wear down after going 250 miles an hour every day living in a whirlwind, sounds like you guys need some desperate down time! I hope all will come together for you. I know how difficult it is to find time for yourself when all the craziness is going on around you.
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@carpenter5 (6782)
• United States
6 Nov 07
We have a trip coming up at the end of this month. It is a working trip for the first half of the week and then we will settle down and spend some time for our anniversary. It is the big #21. I can't believe that I've now been married to this wonderful man more than half my life.
@carpenter5 (6782)
• United States
6 Nov 07
Why is it that daughter's seem to think that mothers are speaking to hear their own voice. My two will look at me and go right on doing what they were doing before as if I didn't say anything at all. That is usually when I go in and begin to unplug stereos, televisions and computers and gather them into my room to stay for a few days.
@islandrose (686)
• Philippines
18 Oct 07
HI!
Going against the flow always give us the feeling of being consumed, tired and unfulfilling. Dear mom, remember the story of Jesus when he was a teenager, he too wanted to be given his freedom to decide what is good for him. This also is happening to your teenage kids, they have grown up and wanted to taste what is life...Just be cool and feel what they feel..If you let it go from you, you will feel relieved and entrust them to God because God is their real parents. We parents on earth are just care takers of God's children. Do you believe that?
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@carpenter5 (6782)
• United States
6 Nov 07
Oh i certainly do, and I have had to just put him in God's hands and step back. I've done that with my oldest daughter too, and she is blossoming into a beautiful woman right in front of my eyes. I just need James to grow up. He is still a little boy in a man's body and doesn't really know how to handle that. He is brilliant, but too lazy to follow what he can do.
@definitelyarun (210)
• India
18 Oct 07
Its a bunch of problems you have got there.But keep your faith alive.Pray and keep your children closer. They are your treasures. Sorrow is not permanent and if your heart is inhabited by god then happiness will soon be knocking on your door.Good luck!
@carpenter5 (6782)
• United States
6 Nov 07
Oh God is still in my sights! It is times like this that I turn to Him for help and guidance. He has given me so many friends both here at home and on the internet. I could feel the prayers being sent my way. that is what continues to amaze me in times like I was having back then.
@coolKalai (70)
• Singapore
18 Oct 07
I'm so sorry to see your problems.. just have faith in God and pray.. He will help us to overcome all the troubles.. I heard my friend saying, only if gold passes through all kinds of acid tests, then only it will get all the shine and worth.. so have faith in god and trust him wholeheartedly.. he will save us..
@carpenter5 (6782)
• United States
6 Nov 07
The refiner's fire! That is such a great analogy for the christian life. God molding us into what he wants us to be! A beauriful masterpiece for HIM. I have to just keep reminding myself of that. Thanks for bringing it to my mind!
@flowerchilde (12529)
• United States
6 Nov 07
Hope things are going better! Saying a prayer anyway!:)