Ayu has lost hearing completely in her left ear!

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On her Team~Ayu blog, Ayu has written two messages. She has told us that she has fully lost hearing in her left year, and that there is no hope not even for surgery to help her. I am very sad about this.. Here is translated to english texts that Ayu wrote.. "My Frank resolution for this year. the truth is, last year, I had an ear check-up. My diagnosis being that my left ear has completely lost all function and that there is no treatment. Even so, I want to keep being a singer. that's why I'll keep singing as long as this remaining right ear works, to its limit I won't quit. I won't make ecuses. As a professional, I will sing the best songs for you*. I don't really like the word 'ganbaru,' but... I will ganbaru** !!!!! At all costs!!!!!!!!! until that day, someday..." * Here she uses the word for "everyone," tbut I think it is better translated as "you." Also, the literal meaning is "I will definitely deliver the best songs to you." for reference. **ganbaru means persevere or try hard, and it is a word very commonly used in Japanese. For example, as well as being used to mean "try hard," it is used in the same situations that "good luck" would be used in english. This is the one she wrote next, after getting many messages from her fans.. "Umm.... No.205 January 5th, 2008 (Saturday) 1:13am The volume of messages from you all is amazing, I decided to post again.* "Mhmm" .... "Hey," ... "Yea..." I have always, as much as I can, meant to keep honestly conveying my own feelings with my own words. I think you all definitely understand this. Yes...right, I believe. That's why... I write. I write things I keep only in my heart, not even telling my beloved family members nor my staff. Actually, no... strictly speaking, that's not true. I only told Mama (I mean Mika John). That my left ear cannot hear anymore. I thought of going to the hospital because I felt distinctly that something strange happened to my hear. I thought it was the earphone monitors and told the people around me I wanted to switch to new ones. Honestly, when the doctor told me that there is no treatment and that it's too late, my mind went blank. In my heart somewhere, I sincerely felt that if I just make the time necessary for surgery, my ear would be able to hear again. But I was wrong. I remember the doctor's eyes even now. They looked regretful and apologetic. So, I laughed. I don't know why, but I said "I thought so", and laughed. Surrounded by my beloved staff inside the hospital room, everything returned to silence. But, please, I don't want you to read this with pessimism. I have accepted this reality. And, I want you to understand somehow that I'm not despairing, but that the light of my hopes shines forth. Because, you've told me that you will become my left ear. You've told me that, so that I'll be able to hear more and more, you'll shout out for me. Hey... So, with my remaining right ear, I'm gonna do this. I'm not at all straining myself. To me, it's my happiness. Worrying is useless!!!!!!!!!!! From here on, I'm going to keep running forward like this~~~~!!! But, let's keep running together~~~~~~~~!!!!!! I want to show you my dreams. unending, unfading. I want to show you that kind of dream. That is my wish Thank you, everyone, everyone, everyone... Thank you, Mama Thank you, My beloved big sister. Let's do it, 10th year anniversary!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" .. I'm so sad to hear the news.. she has been having hearing problems since 2001, in her left ear. And now, she cannot hear from it at all. :(