I think I've figured out why I'm fat

OH YES!! I have been soul searching for months now and still haven't found all of the answers. I was NOT a heavy child until I hit puberty. I was never a skinny child but definitely not chubby. I was perfectly medium. But I blamed it on hormones. But really, maybe hormones played a part in it but.. I was also never accepted by my peers and ate for comfort and continued to the addiction (and yes I am an addict). I eat to soothe myself and to prevent myself from feeling any kind of pain. I have yo'yo'ed too a lot and a few years ago went on Jenny Craig and lost over 50lbs, was 20lbs away from my goal but when I had to face the fact that my son was under the autism spectrum and was backstabbed by so-called friends who I thought were friends and who I did everything in my power to help them, I fell into a huge depression and the weight came back on. Now I am trying to lose and have lost some of it.. but have been battling a depressed time too, rumors lately have been being spread about me but I also attracted some of that I admit. I have been having a hard time BECAUSE I have been having to face some of those demons lately that I have stuffing down with food to avoid feeling all of those years.. and it has been a difficult thing to do, but if I don't allow myself to feel it and even accept that I may have to go through more hell, then I'll end up 600lbs... don't ever want to get that big!

I understand how you feel when something bad happened to your life. I've been through that kind of situation when my bf leave me after 4 years relationship. I know it's nothing compared to your 20 yrs of mariage. But still it's hurt me so bad. I dont see that being fat is a problem as long as you are comfortable with that and stay healthy. The things that you only need to change is the way you look at yourself now, change the meaning of your life into something better than what you've had before. Fill the emptiness and the hole in your heart with love to others, like friends, family, children, pets, etc..

see a omen of 40 pound is ok and if u wanna loose eight u can eat ayurvedic medicine or u can even try homeopathic ok

I dont think women should feel bad for being 40 pounds unless your eating to hide another feeling then its unhealthy. I believe people can overweight and still be healthy as long as they active. Some men find some woman beautiful at all sizes and not all men are buttheads just because one is doesnot mean they all are. I always chose the wrong guy to and then at the right moment in my life the right came along, believe me that took some adjusting. But I think you will get thru it.

If you feel that this is the reason why you've gained weight in fat, then I believe you've got underlying self-esteem problems. You're allowing your emotions and your avoidance of men to affect your physical body, and then your emotions also respond to any thoughts you have about your physical appearance and weight gain. It's somewhere along those lines of "I eat because I'm unhappy, and I'm unhappy because I eat." Men can be so horrible- believe me, I know. However, you're allowing men to dominate your life by altering your physical body. The fact that you contribute rational thought to this is proof that you're letting men rule you to some extent. You may be choosing the wrong men, but you can't find the right person for you until you're comfortable with yourself. If you don't know who you are, then you don't know what you want, and you'll continue to choose the wrong men. You just need to take control and become comfortable with your body. If you're unhappy with your weight, focus on getting to a healthy weight- NOT a weight that you feel would make someone else happy. Again, it's about becoming happy with yourself, and healthy people are generally happier.