life is unfair.......

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sometimes, no matter how hard you try to win people's affections or to just belong, no matter how low you've stooped or how humbled you've become, you can't just seem to fit at all. and even if you've finally found an opening and you're pretty sure that this is it, people still tend to have a short memory. my in-laws never did like me. for what reason, i really have no idea. it has been like this for the past 13 years that i've been married to their brother and even long before that. i tried so hard, oh i just tried so hard to get into their good graces but nothing worked. lately, i was tasked to organize the debut of the the daughter of the eldest bro because there's no one else to do it. (both parents are already in the US). i worked so hard for the success of the event and sure enough, it was a resounding one! it was just beautiful! and everyone seemed appreciative at first. but then, when the dust has settled and days have passed, they conveniently forgot everything i've done and i'm back to square one. you just don't know how hurt it made me feel. in a country where family, even extended ones, matter a lot, i really feel the alienation deeply. now, i just learned that my other 2 sis-in-laws (there's only three of us) were enjoying a night out together and nobody thought of inviting me. God, i know i'm past the age of jealousies, but i do feel this way now. why can't they ever accept me?