Maybe I don't want to get back!

You are not wrong, you are right life dishes out a lot of crap and how knows why some people seem to end up with more crap than others. It hurts, its hard and yet we all have to go through it. You have had more of your share of hardship and you have passed through each and everyone of those hurts and you still will, because you are a strong woman and you have a family who loves you and needs you.

Raydene - there's that old saying that God doesn't give us more than we can handle, I just wish he didn't trust me so much. There is also reason to believe that what trials you have on this earth will make it easier on you later. I know most people don't believe in purgatory these days, I'm not sure I do, but I do believe that what trials I have here, will make it easier to get into heaven.

Sweet Raydene I have no words you have been through so much The only thing I can do which might not be any use to you at all right now is my Strength and my Love to you I wish I could be there and just hug you I really do I love you dear Friend and I just wish I could do more for you xxxx

((((((Hugggggs)))))). My dearest friend, you have to be extra strong now and fight once again through the pain, for two reasons. 1. You've been chosen, because you have been gifted with a life which has outlasted a lot of those around you. You're a shining star, and we don't want you to lose your glimmer... you're extra special to us all, my friend. 2. Your children, and you friends. Ok, your son had a boating accident, but he survived! That's surely a sign, my friend. You are blessed by the Divine, and your friends here in Mylot are beside you all the way, holding your hand and trying to guide you through. Go find a hill to climb... be closer to the heaven you hold in your heart and yell, at the top of your voice... get rid of the anger, my friend. Let them hear you in heaven as well as here on earth! Then, when you've dispensed with all those hurtful feelings, come on back here to Mylot and the support of all your friends. We all love you so very much, and it hurts us to see you this way. There's a big circle of energies and prayers coming your way, my dear friend. Keep the faith, and Brightest Blessings. xxxxxxxxxx

My lovely, loving Mom I know that you will come back from this! You are one of the strongest people I know and you are loved and needed by so many that would be lost without you. You are in shock and grieving now - I know you have been through all of the pain, grief and shock many times and that it now feels unbearable and that your grief makes you see things this way but you know as well as anyone when the grief starts to lessen you won't feel this bad anymore. We are holding you in our hearts and prayers and send love to the whole family! xxx

I can see why you are feeling the way you are. You've been through more personal stuff than most people and although I cannot imagine how you feel, I can imagine that you are feeling pretty lonely.

Oh Raydene sweetheart, my heart breaks for you. I have tears in my eyes as I type this. I am so sorry, I wish I had the answer for you. I don't know why some people keep having such tragedies happen to them over and over. Its not you, you do deserve happiness. Are you alone or do you have family around you or close by. Just know that your mylot friends are here and we do care about you. I wish I could give you a hug in person. Hang in there.

Hon, I know how your feeling, there is NOTHING in my life that has ever went right for me, it does not matter what I try, what I do, it is wrong and it seems when it rains on us, it comes down in buckets.I could never understand why, what did God have against me, oh I know that will cause a fuss on here, but it seems god or someone does not want me to have a life at all, if I work hard to get something it is somehow taken away from me. I have lost many people in my life that I loved, my father when I was 12, I never had a sister, but is is like a black cloud hangs over your head, someone said it is generational curses, why should I have to pay the price for something one of my past relatives done. I have come to just not care about anything, why so I can lose it again. Yep as soon as you think life has made a change zap bad news again. I broke when I lost my home for the second time in less than a year, you get tired of being beaten down. I guess we just pick our selves up and start over, it doesn't make it any easier, but life does go on,I tried just staying in the bedroom all day and not coming our.That only depressed me more. I try to get up every morning now thinking I won't let what ever the devil or whomever bring me down, sometimes I get through the day well, others it falls on me almost immediately. I just say NO NO NO you will not take my joy away today, I won' t allow you to do this to me. They say god won't put on you more than you can take, well I wonder about that sometimes, I sometimes think he is seeing how far he can push us before we break. I have always thought that some of us was put here to suffer while others have the perfect life. I have 2 friends that I can go to when things are bad and they keep me going. If there was something I could say to you to make it all right believe me I would. But you got to pick your self up and know that you may be the rock for all the others that are having all the pain in their life. I don't even know that this makes sense anymore. I just know that you are not alone in this horrible world. Good luck to you I am here any time you feel the need to talk.

Hi raydene! You are very a strong person and I do admire you. I know that the pain and hurt and loss you have been continuously suffering somehow makes you think of why life is doing this to you. I really don't know my friend. All I know is that our life here is temporary and we are all being prepared for an eternal happiness. But we have to go through sufferings just to make us better persons so we can be worthy of such eternal happiness. I am no expert nor am I a saint. I also get weak and most of the times, my faith is shaky; however deep in my heart, I know that with all the pain and heartaches we have, God is with us. I just want to share this with you dear friend.... Footprints in the Sand One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord. Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky. In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand. Sometimes there were two sets of footprints, other times there was one only. This bothered me because I noticed that during the low periods of my life, when I was suffering from anguish, sorrow or defeat, I could see only one set of footprints, so I said to the Lord, You promised me Lord, that if I followed you, you would walk with me always. But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my life there has only been one set of footprints in the sand. Why, when I needed you most, have you not been there for me? The Lord replied, The years when you have seen only one set of footprints, my child, is when I carried you. My dear friend. I love you and you always remember that God loves you so much. Take care always.

If you have a loss. Understand where you have gone wrong and the mistake you have did it. Then come back and start it. Then you will be able to make profit. Else you are again going to loss.

I understand what your saying yea you have lost many people in other ways you have lost alot of happiness but you have to look at the bright side even when it looks like there isnt a bright side. When you feel as if all is lost just pull yourself us and try it again yea I know that I may not know exactly how you feel but I have lost things in differents ways sometimes I feel as if things aren't worth it but Than I think about it and theres a reason for everything that happens yea they might be gone but they are all looking over you watching you. You do deserive happiness so dont ever give up U will find happiness you just had alot of bad turns in your life.

you will be luchy one, every distress will be gone away.