Finding so little meaning

@raydene (9871)
United States
June 29, 2008 11:50am CST
I am sinking farther and deeper into God only knows what! I am making myself do what needs doing everyday. I just don't seem to find pleasure in anything. I feel at a loss...I just don't know what to do. I know the answer and I have given advice to others in my frame of mind but I just can not seem to snap out of it. The last thing is I feel alone.. Never in my life have I felt so utterly alone.. even in a crowd before! I am hoping this is a passing thing. Thanks for being my friends. xoxoxoxoxo
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• Indonesia
29 Jun 08
hi raydene, be present wherever and whenever you are. just enjoy your "now". don't think or bother the past and the future. they're not yours. yours is only now. good luck and have fun
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@raydene (9871)
• United States
29 Jun 08
Thanks Sweets You sound like me what I would say to others but I just can not seem to pull out of this mess. I really appreciate your response. xoxoxoxoxo
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• United States
29 Jun 08
I was told that when you can't find pleasure in anything that it could be depression. I am not ashamed to say that I have depression and I always feel better walking with a portable music player. It helps me lose weight, and I get to listen to my favorite music.
@mac1946 (1602)
• Calgary, Alberta
29 Jun 08
I suffer with servere clinical depression and have all my life,this is one of the main syptoms,having no feelings about what you are doing or will do. I am a locksmith by trade,and have found that getting interested in something that is constantly changing,helps a lot. find something that is new and changes,try to build something or try new cooking projects from scratch,see if that will help. I of course am on medication and will be the rest of my life,but it does help,I would talk to your doctor and see if he can figure out if this is your problem as well. I hope the best for you. Many Blessings.
@mac1946 (1602)
• Calgary, Alberta
18 Jul 08
thank you for the BR,I hope I was of some help. Many Blessings.
@Darkwing (21583)
29 Jun 08
Those nasty old negatives are rearing their ugly heads again, my friend. I also hope you can pull out of this soon... my prayers and energies are with you, 24/7, my friend. When I get blue, I take a walk into the countryside. I'm never alone there... I am at one with nature... the birds, the animals, the babbling brooks and the wind whispering through the leaves on the trees. I even stop to talk to the animals sometimes, and listen to the trees' whispers. It's great therapy, my friend. Maybe casting off the negatives, and being at one with nature would help your mood? Brightest Blessings... keep your chin up, my friend. xxxxx
@Darkwing (21583)
1 Jul 08
Awwww... thank you for your kind words, Kash, my dear friend. Brightest Blessings for a great day! xxx
• United States
1 Jul 08
If you should listen to anyone Raydene, it's this lady. Her thoughts and ideas are always for the best if you can follow them. It is great therapy (nature, animals) and helps you be at peace within. I completely understand how hard it is to throw off negatives when you're feeling down and low. I hope all goes well for you....this won't last forever I promise. Keep talking to Darkwing, she's a miracle worker. Take care and Bless you.
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@faith210 (11224)
• Philippines
2 Jul 08
Hi raydene! I hope you are feeling a little bit better somehow today. I know how you feel. We may have different experiences but somehow I can relate to you. I know the feeling for I am always hanging on a thread each day. But I do try to fight my sadness, my despair and my fears each day. Iyt is rally difficult to actually drag myself off the bed and hope for a beautiful day. I have my family who depends on my strength and I can't really afford to show my weakness even though I am really crumbling inside. I try to find my strength within and have always prayed that God never let go of me. I am trying to survive it all and I hope and pray that together, we will soon be able to overcome all our weaknesses, trials and problems and soon we will see a truly brighter day my friend. I believe that we will soon have that my friend! Take care and God bless!
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@judy43 (299)
• United States
29 Jun 08
I am sorry you are going through this and I am sure it want last long. I have had times like this and it is no good. Maybe you should talk to your doctor. He maybe able to help
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• Canada
30 Jun 08
There was a time that I felt like this. I was on anti-depressents for a while, and eentually I just realized I needed more ligh. I am seasonal affetive, and my basement apartment drives me nuts for too long. I felt a lot better onc I startd spending my days at the local coffee shop.
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@winterose (39887)
• Canada
30 Jun 08
gosh hon, I am too be worried about you, this does not sound so good.
@stephcjh (38473)
• United States
30 Jun 08
I feel like that alot too. There are very few days where I feel like I am actually enjoying any part of life. I have felt like this for a very long time. I hope it does pass some day though. I know how you feel. I always feel alone in a crowd. I am never noticed to alot of people is why I feel like that. I hope you feel better soon and can get past it. Keep trying and don't give up on it. I am right with you.
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@susieq223 (3742)
• United States
30 Jun 08
Raydene, my dear one! Please get yourself to a counselor or doctor and get some help! You were doing great there for awhile. All of us have our down times, but this sounds more serious. Lord knows you have had enough reasons to be depressed, but I don't want you to stay that way! Please do something about it. You are too sweet to suffer!!!
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@mummymo (23706)
1 Jul 08
Mom I wish there was someway that I could make you feel better and feel the love that is directed your way! I wish I could wrap my arms around you and make you feel safe and loved. You have been through so much in the last few years and you will get over it - it is just gonna take a little time. Remember I love you loads and always will! Hugs to you Mom xxxx
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@Deea48 (1166)
• United States
18 Jul 08
Hi Raydene, I am sorry to hear you are still struggling so, really though with all the loss you have experienced, I am not so suprised. You need to to process and grieve. But if you are finding it so hard, I think a trip to the doctors wouldn't hurt. I have been where you are, and sometimes it really is so hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I did go get some help, took meds for about a year. They did help pull me back to the real world, got me out of my negative head. I hope this finds you better now. From what I can see you, you have loads of people who care for you here. Take good care Raydene.
• United States
30 Jun 08
I'm sorry to hear that you are feeling this way. If you keep feeling like this, it may be best to see a doctor. You sound really depressed. You may not want to talk to anyone, but that may be one of the better things to do. Alot of times things happen that cause us to be depressed. Other times, we may get depressed and we just don't understand why. If this is the case, you may have a chemical imbalance. I hope you feel better soon
@Juduka (118)
• Finland
30 Jun 08
What has caused you to feel this way?
@lingli_78 (12822)
• Australia
29 Jun 08
i'm so sorry that you are feeling so down at the moment... just remember that you are not alone... God is always be with you and we are always here to help and support you if you need any help... take a break and please cheer up... take care and have a nice day...
@gabs8513 (48686)
• United Kingdom
29 Jun 08
I am sure it is a passing thing as I can get like that to very often, I am feeling down to today But just remember you are not alone as all your Friends are here that is including me I wish I lived closer to you as I would come right over and give you a big Hug and sit with you I love you and a big Hug to you
@GardenGerty (161216)
• United States
29 Jun 08
Raydene, it will pass. You might benefit from some counseling. I actually found myLot to be very therapeutic when I first started here. You are not alone. Keep showing up, we will keep talking to you and listening. Do something that you used to enjoy, you may find it pleasureable again. Just hang on, we are here for you.
@Hatley (163776)
• Garden Grove, California
30 Jun 08
raydene you need something to get you out of yourself, and I am suggesting that you do some volunteer work say in your local hospital or old folks home. once you have seen the appreciation in the eyes of a patient when you bring them a bouquet of flowers, or a new magazine you will be feeling something other than depression or loss of lifes meaning.There are a zillion other types of places where you can volunteer but choose something that has to do with helping someone else. I have done this and it did help me immensely. also you will not feel so alone. do you have a close friend with whom you could make a standing dinner date? my best friend nelda takes me out to dinner every other week as she knows I get house bound and lonely after have worked all my life and now being forceibly retired. we just go to burger king and have burgers and fries and talk our heads off but it makes me feel so good .hope I have helped in some small way. good luck and God Bless.
@paid2write (5201)
30 Jun 08
I don't look for meaning in life. I do know how life can seem hopeless and full of despair. I'm just grateful to be alive. I never look for happiness but I do try to enjoy life and sometimes I find I am feeling happy for no reason at all. What you are feeling now will pass. It's up to you if you want to seek medical advice, because it could be caused by a chemical imbalance in the brain which can be rectified by medication. You may just find some hope and encouragement from the fact that other people do care about you, and you can always tell your friends at myLot how you feel.
@djhybrid (94)
29 Jun 08
You need to experience something new in life. Think of something you have never experienced before, be it big or small, and set out to achieve it. Even if you don't succeed, the journey getting there can be the fun part. To give you some ideas: * Go somewhere new - doesn't need to be big like a foreign country it could even be something small such as a shop you've never been in before. * Learn something new - language, instrument, sport or hobby * Meet someone new - invite your friends out to the bowling alley, bar, music venue