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It may be your condition that prevented you from having 100% trust on him. Well, you may want to carrying on with the friendship and built more confident along the way. If he is the right one, he will go through thick and thin with you even at friendship level.

From what you say here I assume you have some type of medical condition. Since I do not know that condition I do not know what limits on you and relationships it makes. I can say I gather from this you have in the past been hurt or let down probably due to this condition. This is probably the reason you are having difficulty trusting your boyfriend. It is hard to trust once you have been hurt. The more you are hurt the harder it is to trust. I suggest you take your time with the relationship. As you both get to know each other better that trust will begin to form. The only way to overcome fear of trust is time and getting to know the person you wish to trust. If the guy really cares about you he will understand your situation and know that it is nothing personal. You do need to talk openly with your guy to allow him to know what and how you are feeling. The best case scenario is you will work through this thing together.

Honestly, I have MS and I have the same problem. I believe that part of it stems from I don't want someone that I love to have to deal with my illness on a daily basis like I do. I figure I have a hard enought time with it, I don't want to add the burden onto someone else. The very first time I spoke to my husband, I said, I have MS. He said he found that very endearing and honest and thought to himself, this a person a need to get to know better. My husband says it is not a burden to deal with my illness, he gladly does it because he loves me.