Death Wish

Hi trinidadvelasco! Oh I am really sorry that you went through such moment in your life. I wouldn't lie to you my friend that I have felt the same way too and more than once in my life that I felt I wish that when I sleep, I wish I will never ever wake up. Those were also the times that I was pushed so hard against the wall and I am begging God that I can't take it anymore. I felt I have no more strength to fight and face the battle of life. I have a lot of problems, as if I am drowning and I can't even breath without choking in tears. I still don't know how I have survived it all and still don't know how I am still surviving it now. Have a lot of problems but I am relying so much in God that He will make a way for me and all those whom I hold close in my heart. take care and blessings to my friend! lovelots..faith

I trully believe everybody goes thru those kinds of times, in different levels. To be honest, a very long time ago, the burden was so heavy for me that I did wish that. Thankfully, I pulled thru. Pulling myself up from the pit, remembering those times & difficult circumstances motivates me and strengthen myself to overcome the next battle. just want to leave you a quote from the movie evan almighty. This was when their marriage was having troubles: "Let me ask you something. If someone prays for patience, you think God gives them patience? Or does he give them the opportunity to be patient? If he prayed for courage, does God give him courage, or does he give him opportunities to be courageous? If someone prayed for the family to be closer, do you think God zaps them with warm fuzzy feelings, or does he give them opportunities to love each other? " In my opinion, I think those difficult circumtances pushes us to be better, to be a strongther person, to be a more faithful person, to be a more positive person, etc..

I understand there are such situations in life, when we feel that we should not have been alive to face this, but we have to move on...there are many other things to do in life and not to keep sticking to that one particular pain, but i know it needs too much courage to face such situations,may God keep u happy alwyas and keep u away from such difficult situations....

Hi there, thanks to Alice, I've reached you finally kapwa tagaDavao... KAMUSTA UG MAAYONG ADLAW? (HOW ARE YOU AND HAVE A NICE DAY?) Yes, for once I have done believing that the only way I can further go was getting myself out from here. It was exactly 5 years ago that I considered myself 'unforgiven'; that I was afraid to face my family, friends and teachers and the only way to hide them all was killing myself. I realized that everybody has all the chance to start a new day, emptying himself with the burden of the past after my second life. Today, I value life more than I did before, pain and sorrows are everywhere, on every corner, on every direction... but if we are going to look straight ahead... there lies HOPE and Joy that will fuel us to pace with HEART STRONG determined enough to reach that GOAL. "Children, don't stop dancing."

Yep I've been there. And to be honest with you the only reason I'm still here is my kids. If I die that means my Mom raises the kids which let me tell you would be the absolute worst thing to happen.