My girlfriend died of cancer yesterday.
By cynthiann
@cynthiann (18602)
Jamaica
April 27, 2009 2:12pm CST
She has been ailing with cancer for a few months and there was nothing anyone could do. She was only 40 and left a 13 year old son - her only child. Her husband also has cancer but is responding to treatment.
We visited her frequently, prayed, laid on hands, had services with her and I have been sad all the time by the fact that she was tormented by leaving her son. This is natural I know, but she was so angry and bitter at God.
In the end we were praying that if it was not God's will to heal her then please would He send His Holy spirit to take away her anger and for her to know that God will take care of Michael, her son.
A friend called me today and aid that she died peacefully and was talking to other members of her family who had died before she died. her fear was gone. This happened to my husband too. His fear was taken away as we prayed together before he died.We have a wonderful loving God who does remove fear. Have you experienced anything like this? a person who is angry and then received the grace to die in dignity, free from pain?
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@shell2784 (752)
• United States
28 Apr 09
As soon as I read this - about your hurts your fears your pain, as well as your girlfriends pain, her son and husband... this poem came to mind.
God watched as you have suffered, and knew you had your share
He gently closed your weary eyes and took you in His care
Your memory is our keepsake, with that we will never part
God has you in His keeping, we have you in our hearts
Nothing could be more beautiful then the memories we have with you
To us you were someone special, God must have thought it too
All our lives we shall miss you as the years come and go
but in our hearts you will live forever because our hearts love you so
God saw you were getting tired, and a cure was not to be
So He put his arms around you, and whispered "come with me"
With tearful eyes we watched you suffer and fade away
Although we loved you dearly, you were not meant to stay
A golden heart stopped beating, hard working hands put to rest
God broke our hearts to prove to us, He only takes the best
.... I have no idea anymore who wrote this... but it has helped me, as well a lot of my loved ones get thru these times. Its called "He Only Takes The Best"
I hope it comforts you and your loved ones as much as it has me ane mine.
God Bless love.
Send my regards to her family.
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@cynthiann (18602)
• Jamaica
1 May 09
Many thanks for your best wishes and thank you also for responding
@dreamweaverjan (3471)
• United States
28 Apr 09
HI Cynthiann: I'm so sorry about the loss of your dear friend, I am however glad to hear that she made peace before she passed away;
Its sad that many do not though, I pray her son will find the strength to make it without her guidance and love, and that her husband will recover from his cancer as he needs to be here for their son Michael;
Wow that's a lot for that family to bear and get through right now, I will send out a prayer for your friend, her husband and for their son Michael!!
May God Bless all of them and you too for your friends loss;
Love & hugs to you
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@cynthiann (18602)
• Jamaica
28 Apr 09
Thak yo so much my friend. We need all the prayers we can for Michael and his dad
@Mikaela_taz25 (1842)
• Philippines
28 Apr 09
My condolence on your lost friend cynthiann. but of course, hating God is not the solution for people who are ready to meet him(god). I have to say that we are not permanent in this world, there's always the afterlife and the eternity, but basically, the body is not with you. I have agree too that they are free in pan when they die. but id rather die an old age rather than getting sick.
@cynthiann (18602)
• Jamaica
28 Apr 09
I am old but would like to live a bit longer so that my grands will remember me!
@Vaddiba (190)
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28 Apr 09
I'm saddened to hear about your loss.
Established Cancer research has been a SCAM for many years. It's BIG business.
If anyone wants to find out about effective alternative treatments for cancer they should do searches on the web for "World Without Cancer" and "vitamin B17".
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@hmike_d (1529)
• Philippines
28 Apr 09
Sad (with rolling tears aside) about what happened to your friend, that's absolutely painful. It's like how we feel when we were rejected to stay and join the team inspite of our willingness and eagerness. Your friend really wants to stay longer but God did not permit her to do. Going through such a kind of situation would tend us to be even resentful to God.
But whether we like it or not, we have the best option to try to reiterate to think about the reality. That includes (like a song) "the art of letting go" where we are ensured about what we call "the better way". There we realize that there is indeed God who is omnipotent. Instead of staying in darkness of the room because of the thing that arrived in your life, why not try to peep for even just a small ray of light.
I believe that God knows absolutely more than what we know. I know How much he loves us and how he is confident about our strength and that's why He too is confident that we could overcome all challenges in life we are facing. If only we could realize how God plans for our life, there would be no pain and fear in our hearts.
And so that's why, it is very important to utilize time in an efficient way. Any means of intentionally making people unhappy and things worse is a waste of time. Better to think and compare in anticipation as to how many would CRY vs those who would LAUGH during the day that you're gone! How terrible my life would be when people laughs and be happy when i die... it means to i have live a life completely incomplete.
@moondancer (7431)
• United States
28 Apr 09
My condolences to you and everyone on your loss. I don't know anything like that happening to anyone that I know. I do know that he sets our minds at ease if they are not.
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@cynthiann (18602)
• Jamaica
28 Apr 09
Her son, Michael is still in shock, but when this has passed he will realise that he has a lot of 'mothers' who will be there for him. She was so much younger than me.
@eagle_f15 (1827)
• Malaysia
28 Apr 09
It is devastating to loose a friend, a love one...but I am glad that your friend knows God. I believe God has His reasons and we human beings most of the time cannot understand the whys and how comes. By the fact remain is that he is God and He is sovereign and he has his reasons. I guess we will never fully understand till we ourselves meet Him after we leave earth...but one thing is life must go on.
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@cynthiann (18602)
• Jamaica
28 Apr 09
No we will never fully understand but then we are not God. I know where she is right now and this gives me happiness even though I will miss her so much. Many thanks for responding
@dropofrain (1167)
• India
28 Apr 09
Hi Dear,
It was really sad to hear about your girl friend. I think it is more of a downfall for the son as he is just 13 and needs parents for his future. I think the person goes away but the near and dear ones are the one who suffer the most. Just boost up your morale and take care of the son too.
@cynthiann (18602)
• Jamaica
28 Apr 09
We promised her that we would always look out for her son so he will be looked after by us.
@vivianchen (2646)
• China
28 Apr 09
Hi Cynthiann,
I am really sorry about your friend, i think she was brave that she fight with the cancer till the end of her life. I never have the experience like this so far, but i do think a lot sometime how will i choose to die? The best answer i can think of is just like you say, die in dignity, free from pain, and before i die, i will tell my loved one and my family, don't cry for me, cheers for me, i will go to antoher new world to start my new life, so cheers for me!
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@flowerchilde (12529)
• United States
30 Apr 09
God is able.. His grace is so great, yes? so sorry to hear of your loss.. but so happy you have the comfort of knowing this is not the end.. and you shall see her again and shall rejoice together in a world restored to perfection/life/God..
@suspenseful (40192)
• Canada
28 Apr 09
I have never known anyone whose attitude did not change because he was dying unless there was a struggle in his life before hand. We have to distinguish between unable to fight and yet still resentful and willingness to accept Christ at the end of life. I have known those who were struggling and that God was finally able to open their hearts and it appears your friend was struggling with "why does God let bad things happen to good people," and in the end, she realized that God took her away so that she would not suffer any longer and that HE would also find someone who would look after her son.
@handsomeitaliano (1050)
• United States
29 Apr 09
Suspenseful
I'm sorry but that makes zero sense. God took her life so she wouldn't have to be in anymore pain??? Ummm why not just HEAL THE PAIN IN THE FIRST PLACE???
Seriously, if I was a supreme being like him that's what I would do. That way the son wouldn't be motherless. Come on think about it, its as stupid as a puny little human being taking the stairs when the elevator is working and in good condition.
What kind of powers and LIMITS does our God have is definitely something to question here.
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@Springlady (3986)
• United States
30 Apr 09
Sometimes God takes the cancer from us and sometimes he takes us from the cancer. God is perfect and we (Christians) know that He takes care of us and we need not to worry. God is still good...ALL the time!
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@goriomoriones (97)
• Philippines
29 Apr 09
it's sad to live in this world of "disease and decease". Especially when we believe lies about God. That He is responsible for those disease and decease. The truth is, God is love. And He does not want us to live this way. He wants us to have a good, healthy, blissful lives. But He can't because we are still on temporal time and space. But i believe God is DOING EVERYTHING, even sending His Son to die and break His own heart, to give us the best of life. If we only believe at all times that God is love, and that He is preparing a perfect place for us, then we will not be angry, bitter and painful at all times even disease and decease are present! God is really active through His Spirit who is OUR COMFORTER.
@Wolfechu (1193)
• United States
28 Apr 09
Many dozens of times, and far more than I'd rather have liked to. I can say with certainty that in none of those situations was God involved, however.
@cynthiann (18602)
• Jamaica
28 Apr 09
I am so sorry for you that you have faced this many times. Many thanks for responding
@bodhisatya (2384)
• India
29 Apr 09
Oh, I am so sorry to know abut your friend. My friends' mom passed cause of cancer, he was devastated. But he his parents bellieve in God and He gave them all the strength required. Yes I do agree that He gives us the strength, he has plans for all of us. I have felt too weak at times on the verge of collapse, but His faith has restored all, really.
@jambi462 (4576)
• United States
7 May 09
I'm so sorry to hear about your loss I too have lost some loved ones due to cancer. It kind of makes you really question why we are spending so much money on worthless things such as war and how to come out with the latest and greatest cell phone instead of working harder on coming up with cures for diseases such as cancer. There are a lot of nasty diseases like cancer but cancer is a terrible one. You can watch your loved one literally whither away into nothing and it's heartbreaking to see that. I'm very sorry for your loss and I do hope that you can hopefully find things that can heal the pain in your heart.
@cynthiann (18602)
• Jamaica
7 May 09
Cancer is awful and I agree with your sentiments. so much money is being spent on weapons to kill other people and not enough for research. I am sorry for your loss too. Thank you for your kind words and I so appreciate you responding to my post.