Am I sinning?

June 1, 2009 9:19pm CST
I want to ask a serious question. This thought has been going through my head for sometime now. And I want to know if you think it is a "sin" For some time now I have been really wanting to be free from this life. This life feels like a shackle around my neck, suffocating me with it's weight. I long to be free of all this earthly wonder. I am not contemplating suicide, I do not wish to kill myself, only that I desire for this world to be over for me. So am I sinning?
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23 responses
• United States
2 Jun 09
I dont see it as "sinning" the only sin you may be guilty of is the sin of being human everyone feels the way you feel at some point in their lives many wont admit to it though and everyone feels it to different degrees but we all feel it to some degree at some point we dont want to kill ourselves but we want to be free of earthly limitations, dogmas, stereotypes, thought processes, etc
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• United States
2 Jun 09
I certainly understand that... Cool...
2 Jun 09
Yes, yes free of the earthly limitations, I want to go back to the limitless light.
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• United States
2 Jun 09
there are endless possibilities within the light no restrictions total freedom oh to be a free soul again!
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• Thailand
3 Jun 09
I think you need a shrink. You only get one shot at this life thing, go for it and give it your best shot.
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3 Jun 09
Obviously you have no idea what I am saying. Why would I need a shrink?
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• India
3 Jun 09
You are not sinning and not you, but your soul yearns to be free from this shackle. You should go towards meditation and yoga...it will help your soul to acheive its goal.
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3 Jun 09
yes!
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@meandmy3 (2227)
• United States
2 Jun 09
I would say no, Why do you think you feel this way, and have you thought of talking to someone about your feelings. I know that life can be difficult at times and I am really sorry that you are going through such a hard time. I hope that things turn around for you. Good Luck and God Bless
2 Jun 09
I feel there is so much more waiting for me out there, out there in the light.
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• United States
2 Jun 09
I dont think it is sinning, but it can technically be sinning if you think about it. As a christian, you should love everyone.. that includes yourself. I know it is hard sometimes, and disappointment can be harsh. God wouldnt want you to think about not living. Each and every one of us brings joy to him, so with that, be glad. We all have value in this world, and we are more important than we think. Hope all goes well bud.
3 Jun 09
Why would you believe I didn't love myself?
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@mama_bear (1118)
• Canada
2 Jun 09
i understand what you mean, it is kinda like wanting to be an ascendent being that is transcending your earthly form and your physical body that is shackling you to the earth. there is nothing wrong with that, you do not want to die you want to continue to live just not in an earthly form. sadly for you unfortunately this is not the star wars universe where you can exist in another form. you should not feel bad about the way that you feel and i do not think that you are sinning at all.
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3 Jun 09
exactly!!!!
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@joeydy (10)
• United States
2 Jun 09
I don't know if you are a believer or not, but if you are , every christian is to look with anticipation for the glorious apperaing of our saviour Jesus Christ, In saying that while we anxiously wait for his coming ,in the meantime we are to be busy serving others and keeping the faith Joe
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@Citychic (4067)
• United States
2 Jun 09
Amen Brother, I have to agree with you 100 percent. I was feeling kind of bad myself the past few days then I called a relative and they were feeling even worst. They might even have to go into the hospital. But I am praying that all will go well with them. We truly do have to make the most of this life and be thankful for what we have. Things could always be a whole lot worst.Your words carried whole lot of weight Joeydy.Hope you have a nice life.
• United States
2 Jun 09
I really don't think your sinning I do think on the other hand you have some deep issues weighing you down. I know this life is hard because there are times I wonder how it would be if it was all over, but at the same time I am greatful what I have the trails and the good times. I look forward to after life I look foward to meeting my maker God almighty. but I also love my husband family and friends.
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@Adoniah (7513)
• United States
3 Jun 09
If you were Jewish, you would be sinning. You are supposed to learn in this life and enjoy it. You are supposed to spend your time preparing yourself for the next life not pinning for it. You are wasting this life. That is sinning. You should be studying Torah and learning every spare minute, instead you are whining about being here. You are not ready to go to the next life. You better work harder. Shalom~Adoniah
@apples99 (6556)
• United States
2 Jun 09
Well life can be very difficult sometimes, and I thank we all have felt a little sad or maybe unhappy with our lives from time to time, but I think that its not really a sin, but its not healthy to think about whats on the other side or after life so much, I think god gives us life for a reason, and we should try and focus on living this life and making the best out of what we were given, and if there really is an after life, we will be rewarded when our time comes naturally, you should try and think about all of the wonderful things that are here in this life it might not seem so good right now, but you have to get through the bad things to get to the good things, and if you always think about the after life you'll miss the good things in this life. Believe me my life hasn't been perfect and sometimes I feel awful, but it dose pass and then I finally see why I still have so much to look forward and to why I love life, and I'm sure you have some good things in this life too.
3 Jun 09
I am not sad.
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@nzalheart (2338)
• India
4 Jun 09
Hello freethinkingagent!!! I don't believe that is a sin. No matter the whole religion will argue on this point, I say it is not a sin. Everyone to be free from life. And I also want to free from this life, the feelings I have. How good it would have been if there was no feelings at all, no mind at all, nothings, no vacuum, no heaven, no reincarnation, just everything senseless. You wont be wanting for the happiness and consequently there is no sadness either. Just totally non existent. "If there is no bamboo, there is no sounds of flute" hehe...don't suit in english, it's the conversion of a local proverb.... happy mylotting...
5 Jun 09
no I don't think I am sinning either. I feel their must be something else.
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@britt_200 (1226)
• United States
2 Jun 09
i wouldnt think so...there has to be something better than this world...there is so much pain and anger in this world. i would hope to someday be somewhere more peacefull..but while im here i hope to at least impact as much as i can
@britt_200 (1226)
• United States
2 Jun 09
i fully agree with this mentor
• United States
3 Jun 09
I honestly don't know if it is or not, thing is I feel the sameway, I have just my thoughts and knowledge left on this earth. I wonder if it is not time for me to pass to the next to take that with me for I feel I am not that useful here. I still help others some say more than I should, its just the way I am. With that I have lost almost all that I had, to me it was worth the journey. Now I wonder if my journey is ready for me to pass to the next. So to answer you question, is it a sin, I don't believe so, we are looking into the next future like longing for the next step, so no I don't believe that is a sin. I could be wrong, its what is in our hearts, and souls that guides us if we truly listen we will know if it is or not. I say no.
5 Jun 09
Yes I must first Finnish what ever i am here to do. Afterlife, not reincarnation, I do not want to return to this world. I want to ascend to a higher life.
@bird123 (10643)
• United States
6 Jun 09
We all have the power to choose what we deem important in our lives. Man also has a narrow vision. Seems like you can only see yourself. People are meant to influence each other in a million ways. You can not do this til you see others. Life is about learning and growing as people. Eternal bliss, though it has it's place, is not the GOAL!!!!
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• Portugal
2 Jun 09
oh don't worry, you are not sinning at all. at some point it always gets too much for us to handle and we all wish it would just end and everything could go beautifully... so, you see, it's not sinning at all, it's all part of being human. just try to see the small pretty things that exist on your daily life and that we usually tend to forget when we feel that way. a small flower, the sunset, the breeze on the leafs of a tree... all of a sudden the world doesn't seam like such a bad place anymore.
3 Jun 09
It's not so much that it is too hard to handle, it is only that I want more from my existence that I can not have in this world of limitation.
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@lingli_78 (12822)
• Australia
2 Jun 09
well, i can't say whether it is a sin or not because i don't like to judge people... but a definition of sin is missing the target that God wants us to do... and i know everybody wants to be free... who doesn't??? but trust me... true freedom can only be found and enjoy in God... nowhere else... all the other freedoms that this world offer to you will only be temporary and won't make you feel happy for long... only when we are in God and doing His will then we will experience true freedom and happiness as He is our Creator and He is the only One who knows what we need... take care and have a nice day...
• Philippines
2 Jun 09
You know whenever I feel sad their is this demonic whisper in my ear that said just kill yourself. When I feel sad I feel alone and no one seems to listen to me no one seems to care, I feel that most of the time. I even feel that in my family but I know deep inside they love me. I want to kill myself because of loneliness and unsatisfaction. I have many regrets and I am always looking at the past. I am all over negative, the world is being unfair to me, that are my thoughts. Yeah I agree its suffocating but there are only times I feel like these. When we have thoughts of that, I believe we are sinning. God has many plans for us but sometimes we don't see it because we are waiting for him to give us what we want. They say God give us what we needed sadly we don't see it. Me, what I do is to ask God what I am feeling, I have the thoughts that I am useless. I am asking him to give me my assignment, to let me feel I am have importance on earth. I just talk to him when I am sad to avoid doing anything bad to myself. Until now I am suffering from these and still unresolved.
3 Jun 09
I do not feel sad, and no demons are speaking in my ear.
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• Philippines
7 Jun 09
I don't think you are sinning.. Because you are not thinking of ending your life.. I also feel that way.. But I have learned from my listening to one of the preaching in our church that man will never be satisfied on earth because the true home of man is in the kingdom of God.. that's when he feels the satisfaction..
• Norway
3 Jun 09
No it is not a sin,but if you do it then its a sin.
@mathss1 (1181)
• United States
8 Jun 09
Desire is not a sin
@tashakau (131)
• Canada
2 Jun 09
I do not think that you are sinning. However, I do think that you feel that there are no solutions to your worries or problems. I beleive that everyone in life goes thru difficult phases and everyone sees the solutions differently. You may feel that you did alot to make yourself feel better and maybe it has not workded for you but try maybe reading self help books or volunteering and making a difference in someones life. You seem like a very smart person and I am sure that you have alot to offer. Think positive thoughts and I hope things will get better for you.