Failed my IVF treatment : No baby for me

Malaysia
July 10, 2009 5:40am CST
Hi to all my friends, you must have noticed that i was not around for a long time ... just got out of my depression mood .. actually not fully cured, i may look ok and well to all the people around me .. i am moving around like nothing is wrong .. i was back to work within the week they said i had failed ... But .. the ache in my heart, i bet only god knows, but even then he did not pity me and make me go tru a successfull treatment .. I had 5 embrios and went tru 2 cycle and none survived ... We are still paying the bills amounting to 16K ... we will still have to pay until the end of year to our credit card centers It is pain physically and mentally .. My husband .. i guess he feels the same way, but if he were to show his weak side, i could break down bad, so he was supportive along the way ... I have been eating alot lately and have added a few more pounds on myself ... i will be starting my diet by this monday ... So friends ... if you ever got pregnant and do not want the baby ... do call me I will welcome with open arms cheers
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9 responses
@Sreekala (34312)
• India
10 Jul 09
Hi Sanjana, I was about to ask you regarding this when saw your first discussion after a long time but my net disconnected and could not respond to that. I am really sorry to know your disappointments. I was thinking about you and noticed your absence, even thought that you must be preparing to be a mother. But your discussion is really a heart broken and I don’t know how to pacify you. Hope your dreams will fulfill in the near future. Be confident dear GOD is preserving something Good for you.
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• Malaysia
10 Jul 09
hi sree thank u
@doryvien (2284)
• United States
11 Jul 09
Hi, Somehow I can relate to what you feel because one of my closest friends went through the same ordeal. She and her husband tried IVF treatments and failed 2 times. She was literally torn, like it's the end of the world for her, for long while. But she was determined to have a child, so, she and her husband didn't give up, despite the staggering expense that went with it. They were successful on their 3rd try, now she's pregnant with twins, and the babies are due in two months time. Who knows, your time will come. Don't lose hope, maybe it's not yet for you, and you never know what God has in store for you.
@Celanith (2327)
• United States
11 Jul 09
I can feel your deep hurt and pain and disappointment but you did mention God and God is a healer and restorer of the body. He made us and he can give you the child you desire no matter what medical miracles or doctors say otherwise. The bible has more than one account in which a woman could not have a child and she prayed and prayed and God took compassion and gave her the child she desired. You have to believe it and ask and keep asking then accept whatever way God chooses to give you a child. I will pray for you and your husband. I have been the reciever of miracles and seen them when everyone says it was impossible. NOTHING is impossible with God.
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• Philippines
10 Jul 09
I can understand your feelings Sanjana. That is really emotional, mental, physical and financial struggle for you and your husband. All of us wants to be a wonderful mother someday. Just don't lose hope. I know it is easy to say but i guess nothing can help us more than ourselves right. I am also wanting to have kids. Although I haven't visited a Gynecologist yet, i will if I have the time and so is my hubby. We've been married for two years now, although we tried for one year and 4 months already. Anyway, we don't lose hope. It's only a matter of timing for us. God will grant us our hearts desire as long as we will seek Him first in our lives. We will try our best after i finish all the paperworks i needed here so that I can stay at home and relax so that conceiving moments will be achievable for me. I hate long travels here. Although count me out about giving a baby away,because I would never give my own . Adoption is another option, but you have to think of it very well before deciding.
@doggyhouz (548)
• United States
10 Jul 09
I am very sorry to hear that. I have a very good friend that found out last year that she is infertile. I believe that is not able to have babies at all. She was struck hard by it even though she planned to never had kids. But the irony is that when she found out she couldn't have kids it hurt more than accepting she never wanted kids. I would like to feel your pain but I do understand it. We are very attach to objects we totally cherish and want. Especially a child or a baby. The attachment comes from accepting it and wanting to understand it and care for it. If we shift to something less dramatic like a hobby we tend to learn faster about it when we show interests or even passion about it. So I know how you may feel because you SO wanted a child and SO wanted to be a parent and that helped you learn about how to become one or how to obtain one. I can tell you that you should feel proud about yourself learning all these things about IVFs that I have no clue about. Learn how the cycle of birth is; something again I know totally nothing about. I wish the best for you in the future and I know you will be a great parent one day especially show how much you want something and how you probably took extreme care of your body so that you can give the birthday enviornment for the embroys to develope. I hope you can start cheering up. Maybe when you start feeling better you can try again so that you once again give a more positive enviornment for the embroys to develope in. Belief and trust is a very powerful tool for our mind. Use it and God Bless
@candy2306 (576)
• India
11 Jul 09
Oh I'm so sorry to hear about your IVF. I believe in miracle and someday you'll experience it yourself! I really don't know how to comfort you as I can understand your pain that you're going through. Just don't loose hope, God is there, He'll protect you!
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@daryljane (3406)
• Philippines
10 Jul 09
Sorry about that dear. Thats why it breaks my heart when i hear people commit abortion because a lot of other couples tried everything just to have one and these people who have had or wanted to do abortion is just throwing it away. Other reason why it breaks my heart is because my best friend and her husband has been going through diff treatments, i mean anything, like quack doctors and healing session and all that, name it! Just to have a baby, but until now, still nothing. his husband is one of the acct manager in a huge company here and he sometimes think that if he can use all the money he have in the world just to have a baby. Few years back, a very pregnant lady approached them and wanted to give the baby just as long as they support everything, from her medication to hospital bill when she gives birth. So, they made that arrangement with their Ob-Gyne and made it appear like hers, because during the time when the lady gave birth, shes using my friends name on the records. After that, the mom went away and didnt hear from her since then. The baby is now 7y/o No worries, if i know someone who doesnt want their baby.
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@agv0419 (3022)
• Philippines
10 Jul 09
It is so sad but don't lose hope because there some others option if you are not blessed to have a child of your own. You can adopt a child and there are so many abandoned children now a days. Sometimes life is not fair many women are very blessed by having children but they only abandoned them or they can't support the needs of them. In our neighborhood there are many children here and some them can't support their needs by their parents.
@meandmy3 (2227)
• United States
10 Jul 09
I know that you are trying to help and that is great, but from someone who has been there one of the hardest things to hear when you are going through this is "why not just adopt" We know our options, and we accept them yet sometimes we just need to vent about the pain and heartache we are enduring without being told to just adopt Best wishes and happy mylotting
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@meandmy3 (2227)
• United States
10 Jul 09
I am so sorry for your loss and understand what you are going through, I did not make it to IVF but did have to endure over a year of treatments before I was able to become pregnant with my trio. It is hard, it is difficult and I know that you feel as if you are all alone in this, but you are not, there are others that get the pain you are going through and that know the heart ache you face. There are no words that I can say that will make you feel better about all of this. My heart breaks for you and I am here fo ryou if you need a friend.
• Malaysia
11 Jul 09
so hwo did you get your trio if not ivf cheers