How to struggle to change life when was born in poor family?

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Things were not going easy when anyone was born in a poor family.Unfortunately,i was born in a poor family, and remained poor until now.Working hard to overcome various tribulations on the way,i gradually found that there were quite a few overwhelming things that i can't bear or deal with. My mother left me to another province five years ago and she remarried with a local resident last year.I exceedingly saw her few times in the last five years,which made me feel so disappointed.Living with an alcoholic father and bad-tempered grandfather was really a torture,and i had nowhere to escape when everytime i saw my father hobbling and abusing after drinking much ,what's the worse,on one was able to make him quit alcohol despite we paid much efforts. I feel like that i am a hobo with no warm home to be back.The scene of my grandfather frequently beating and scolding me when i was a child often flows across my brain,and emotionally and mentally,i just can't deal with it,even until now. Attempting any methods to change my situation,i still feel so lonely and helpless now.I miss my mother though i know that she will never come back to me.And she is also a victim in my family and she has good reasons to leave. I can't control life as i don't have enough money to afford something and change my life,say actually,i always complain about my fortune and i think that it is unfair,though i do realize that complaint doesn't work. I have no choice but to continue working hard to change my life and i do belivee that life will be under my control one day.In order to leave such family and live my own life,i still have a long way to go.But i will never forget my mom who left and abandoned me and my father who abused after drinking,to tell the truth,i love them all and i never want to part with them,but this is life that i am unable to choose. I am still very lucky as i am one the way to change,though i was born poor and grew with a war family, and even remain tough now......