I wish 2012 is true
By mstriguna
@mstriguna (418)
India
December 17, 2009 10:58am CST
Yes, I really mean that. I have a lot of problem in my life that I am frustrated and want to die. But I dont have guts to go for suicide, dont have any idea to go and meet with accident as I am scared of being half death. So if 2012 comes then I will die without my notice. hmmm.
There are solutions to my problems but it is plenty and I am confused which one to go for. Even when I give decision to my heart or my mind, not able to figure out what I should do solve my problems.
My problems are with money, money, money and only money. hmmmm...
I have been told by many people that if I run behind money it will never come to you. But I have left with no choice but to run behind money. The reason I joined mylot is to earn money but then I started using mylot as my mood creator.
Anyways there is no end to my problem but thought if I share it with you guys I may get it solved myself.
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17 responses
@my4tunes (64)
• New Zealand
17 Dec 09
yes - money is a problem with me too and i also joined mylot for that reason, however, i have learned so much about money and the problems that seem to loom up about it..i used to worry worry worry about paying my bills and i discovered that worrying is a complete waste of energy and resources...i have money problems so that i can learn how to cope in other ways and it is amazing what other ways have appeared..for instance, the creditcard companies have agreed to reduce my payments to an absolute minimum amount, one of them gave me a 'holiday' where i don't have to make any payments at all, family members help me with food etc, if stop focussing your mind on poverty or lack of money and instead think about different ways you can help yourself without depending totally on money then your life starts taking off in a more positive direction - we are given choices every minute of the day - we have the opportunity to decide which way to go and to consider the consequences of our actions - always focus on the good things in your life, give sincere thanks for those good things and think about the good things that are just waiting to come to you if you will only let it come...
@my4tunes (64)
• New Zealand
17 Dec 09
you are the same age as my son and i would do everything i could if i knew that he had the same worries that you have...i know how it feels to watch your money disappear on creditcard companies and their high interest rates so choose to speak to them and tell them you cannot afford the high payments and you can only pay a certain amount each payday - you have done really well to cut down on many other unnecessary things - i have not had much luck with the internet and making money so i look for part-time work as well as my fulltime job or i try to find something to sell that i dont need anymore...
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@ZeroZiat (36)
• Uruguay
17 Dec 09
Woah, get a grip on life, man, you are just desperate, what's wrong, work troubles, excessive bills, etc.? I don't believe you want to just go and die, and as I see you got a big glimmer of hope by telling us myLotters you aren't doing well right now, as for your situation, if you are just being left by money, I recommend cutting losses, extra work hours, second job if possible, less consuming car... etc etc.
Tell us more if you feel you want to, but thanks for sharing, I hope we all can help you.
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@mstriguna (418)
• India
17 Dec 09
Thanks for the response.
I would love to put more efforts but I will not get enough to complete the tasks. I know many websites which pay me for doing extra work but now I have a lot of work at office which does not allow me to work offline here at home.
About less consuming car, I do not go anywhere else apart from my office and home in car and I have cut down my shopping, extra eatings which I use to do before, stopped going to cinema halls, stopped making excessive calls - use only freae chat or wave accounts to talk to friends.
I made a mistake at early stages of my life by using credit cards and a lot of loans. That made me mad. I have been trying hard to save but saving does not meet all my requirements. :(
Every opportunity I see something like wow I will get more money here, no not here may be there and then I stop myself doing anything. I am behind money like mad guy. :(
@mstriguna (418)
• India
17 Dec 09
There is a different story.
My father is retired and I cant ask him. My brother just started his carrier and I cant ask him too. My wife too has a lot of commitments with her family so cant ask her also. I asked my friends ( only few 1 or 2). And they gave some money too but it was not enough and I gave it back. Now I cant ask them either.
I have 2 home loans (From my parents), 3 Personal Loans, 1 Auto Loan, 1 Credit Card.
On top of all these I have made some investments at the early stages which I have to pay half yearly or yearly.
I have no idea what I did in my life and what I am doing now to resolve them. Thats why I just want 2012 come to true only for me. :(
@sid556 (30959)
• United States
18 Dec 09
Hi mstriguna,
Well wanting the whole world to die along with you probably isn't the best answer. I think all of us have money troubles lately. The economy is horrible and for those of us that were already struggling, it can be really stressful. You can't let it get to you. I think you realize that which is why you are on here venting, right? Sometimes just talking about it helps. I hope it helps you.
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@mstriguna (418)
• India
20 Dec 09
Most of the posts here really a positive one and it really helped me. Thanks to you and all mylotters who tried to help me.
@sweetyethot (1737)
• China
18 Dec 09
You are very interesting.I have many problems and one of them is money ,money,money.lol I dont want to die and I dont wish 2012 is true.Im too young to die.I enjoy life a lot.Is that you in the avatar?You look really nice.lol Cheer up!Life is not as bad as you think.
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@mstriguna (418)
• India
20 Dec 09
Common man. I am good in programming but not in modeling. hmm Anyways I am adding you as friend. Please send me any such links.
@celebratelifeh (1142)
• China
18 Dec 09
though i do not want it to be ture but that's out of our control if it destined to be .right? i also have lots of problems on my life and especially for the lack of money really troubled me alot. i'm supposed to earn much more money to support the family and relize my dreams but that's really hard. though this is annoy i'm still want to have another chance to try and not let the year of 2012destroied us.
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@mstriguna (418)
• India
20 Dec 09
ClassyCat, that remembers me one thing, previous to one year I use to help others a lot now I am not helping anyone. I use to give whatever change leftover in my pocket to someone who is begging in front me. I never use to think how much I gave them or how much I lost. I never use to think that I am helping them I use to think i had debt with them in my previous janma (a life before birth) and I use to give them.
But now I dont even give 1 paise to them and now I have become like this. I guess I should again start clearing of my debt so that I can save some money for myself. Thanks for your comments..
@ClassyCat (1214)
• United States
18 Dec 09
2012 isn’t going to change anything. Remember the y2k thing? Same situation – different year. Life will go on, and so will the planet.
There may be some strange changes in weather, and who knows - - maybe a volcanoe will blow - - but everything else will go on, and you need to plan to do the same.
I agree that it wouldn’t hurt to pray and ask God for help. He loves you, and is waiting for you to look to Him as your “way-maker.”
Folks here are caring and will give you some things to think about, that may help you.
Try to start doing something for someone – anyone who you can, and get your focus off of yourself, and the lack of money. As you help others in even small ways – God will cause blessings to come your way too.
You have nothing to lose by trying that, and when you help someone else, it’ll make you feel good too.
God bless
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@starsailover (7829)
• Mexico
17 Dec 09
Hi mstriguna: don't say that, that's a very horrible way of think, don't be a coward man, everything has a solution and life it's a gift. You know that you will die someday so why are you so impatient. Hey you can do your life better, there's always something to do for it and what's worst it's that all of your problems are about money, thats not a reason to die. Try to change some things in your life to heal your home economics and don't forget your friends and family, they usually makes us appreciate how beautiful life is. Hope you think about it. And even with that there still two years you'll have to wait for, so maybe you'll fell better in 2012. Lol. XD. God bless you.
-Alvaro.
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@mstriguna (418)
• India
20 Dec 09
Thanks for your comments Starsailover and WillowGirl. Hope I find a way to resolve them. Your comments would really help me. Thanks for that.
@selina0625 (1379)
• Philippines
18 Dec 09
That's really sad that from what you're saying there's no more hope left for you. I think everyone has problems with money but it is just how we look at life that makes the difference. The fact that you can post here that means you have a computer, which a lot of people don't have, you have electricity which makes you very lucky because a lot of people in my country don't have the capacity to pay for electricty..... you should learn to count you're blessings and be contented with what you have .... live life simply...and don't spend more than what you earn.... i hope you cna change your view about life......and i really hope 2012 is not going to happen, i have kids and they have the right to live their lives too.
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@mstriguna (418)
• India
20 Dec 09
After your comments I just thought for while. Aiyla what am I thinking. There are a lot of things I got and because I got so many things I made so many mistakes. If I had not earned that much money I never be in this situation. Why should I think that I am earning more and I can spend more. I should think I am not earning more and then I can surely do whatever you told to me. Yes 2012 should not happen.
@sincere4frdship (2228)
• India
18 Dec 09
Well, if I would go to think like you ...then I also wish if it could true then it would be so nice ...but I hope it won't happen because I never loose my hope from my fighting with everything included life ...
Thanks ... :)
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@grecychunny26 (9483)
• Philippines
18 Dec 09
What if on the last day of 2012 you have lots of money and you have a very happy life, happy family, you are rich, you can afford all what you want, what will be your reaction if that is the situation? When you wish 2012 is true, you are just being selfish of what you wants in your life. Some people is at the peak of their career, and they would want to end the world just like that.But what can we do if the ending is near anyway, as if we can stop it. About your money problem, don't you think you are the only one having the same problems? all of us. there are two type of people, who complain and who work for the solution of the problem. If we just continue to complain, can we start something? no. If we will do something, we are going on the process of having something as a solution. all of us have money problems, why not work for it. On the other hand, problems have no ending. Problems is there as we are breathing but there is always a way to solve it.
@mstriguna (418)
• India
20 Dec 09
:)
Thanks for your comments. I have mentioned in one of my comments that 2012 should come to true only for me as I dont want anybody else to die because of my wish. I have been thinking about myself whenever it comes to problem. Because I never use to share my problems as I hardly had any. But now I posted this message as I really like mylot and treated it as my counterpart. So I posted them.
We have to work for money problems and thats true. But the way which we have to work is the question. Doing multiple jobs surely solves the problem but having time is the problem. Saving money is surely going to solve the problem but having no debts or earning lot of money is the problem.
There is always a problem when we go to find solutions. :(
@ayumeimigumi (49)
• Brunei Darussalam
18 Dec 09
if you have a lot of problem in your life i because you made that by your self. . get lost. . just kill your self put a bullet in your brainless head. .
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@mstriguna (418)
• India
20 Dec 09
Truth always hurts and you are true that the problem which I am in today is because of me itself. Thanks for your comments.
@bhav27 (442)
• India
18 Dec 09
Hi my dear friend , you know the same problem is in my life also and i also joined my lot to earn some money from here but i am not losing hope and i am doing hard work to earn more money from my lot , i post unlimited post to get few dollars each day and if you also want to earn money then put some efforts and post responses as much as you can and even post discussions which are useful to other members and you will find that you are also earning good , i can just advice you , it's only you who have to work hard , trust me my lot will earn you good money if you put a bit hard work.
@mstriguna (418)
• India
20 Dec 09
Thanks for your comments. I will put effort to solve my problems.
@maria1081 (1251)
• Philippines
22 Dec 09
I havent watch 2012 yet but I heard from a friend that its a story which has something to do with the end of the world. Be careful what you wish for because you just might get it and then realize that its too late to change it. All of us have the same common problem which is money, you are not alone and I assure you. But come to think of it a lot of people are less fortunate than you. Many people has the difficulty in eating three meals a day but still they are striving for survival. Are you aware of that? Some people are sick with terminal illnesses but are grateful to see the sunshine when they wake up each morning. Do you know that? We shouldnt be slave by money. Money shouldnt be the reason for our existence. Money can give us material things but money dont give us real happiness. My happiness are the people I love and they give me a reason to live. Seek and you shall find, knock and the door shall be open. Godbless to all of us.
@mstriguna (418)
• India
23 Dec 09
hmmm.. Thanks for your post. You are right but since I already have all of them just to make them more happy I made mistakes. And still not recovered from those mistakes. The mistake I did is to spend money without even thinking what I am suppose to do tomorrow. So for the yesterdays happiness and tomorrows happiness I forgot today.
@andryan7legends (1297)
• Indonesia
22 Dec 09
Just solve your life problem and take it easy, buddy! Money always cause trouble. That's why I don't really like have much money and don't really like have less money. Just enjoy your life before God call you. But, I hope... You can solve your problem. I wish 2012 is true that you will be rich man! n_n
@mstriguna (418)
• India
22 Dec 09
:) Thanks for your wishes. I use to believe in enjoying life everyday and I never use to think about future. That is the reason I did not thought about myself when I started doing my loans or using my credit cards. hmm. I enjoyed too much and now I have to pay for it. If I would have thought about today then I never would have seen today and would not have got you guys to see this discussion and I never use to get you friends to give me suggestions. I always thought whatever happens happens for good only. But this time I was too much tensed and frustrated. hmm. But this discussion is really helping me. Thanks to all you guys.
@Java09 (3075)
• United States
17 Dec 09
You probably should get a bible and search it for answers.This book is positive it tells you,that you have hope.I'm just giving you some good advice.I have clinical depression and I like reading scriptures in the bible,it helps give me hope,when I read the New Testament about Jesus.God does answer prayers,I want you to know that.If you pray over your problems in faith,He'll answer and help you.I have money troubles at this time,I can't find a job because there are none.I feel depressed over it,but I think God can make things happen the very last moment.It's good you come on mylot here,maybe starting and answering discussions can make you feel better.Well I hope I helped some.
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@mstriguna (418)
• India
20 Dec 09
Starting and answering dicussions here in mylot does that but it can contribute to small part of my big problem. I also agree that every drop of water makes a ocean.
Last week I got a call to start a new business but when I went there it was nothing but amway products and its business. I really dont know if I can make that. But the people there were trying to brain wash me wherin I am not interested. I did not like that way. I then thought its not my way. But still I kept that option open.
About god, I have always been a lucky guy to get whatever I wanted. But I dont know why god is testing me so much in this matter. I use to not to believe in god as I thought whatever you want you have to do to get it. But it so happened that whatever I wanted I use to get before me asking for it. Even my father says you have to do 90% of the work and leave 10% to god. But I always did or put 100% effort without even thinking I need to get that. But I got it. This time I guess I am behind something and may be I am not trying 100%. :(
@itzmee1009 (362)
• Australia
18 Dec 09
hi friend,no one in this world is without the problem.only God might be free from that :-)...to be frank..even i am being in trouble with money...its really hard to survive for me too...struggle very hard...i am not having nay jobs..searching for 6 months...we could not able to mamnage with my hubby income..i sold out some of my jewelries...still my hubby have lot of credit bills...but dont lose hope my friend..see every one wants money in this world..but have hope that one day your problem might solved..keep working hard...do want ever you can do..apart from mylot..join in some other sites which are legit too...see my profiles for some program...but dont lose hope my friend..keep confidence in you...
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@mstriguna (418)
• India
20 Dec 09
I do join programs in your profile. Hope your words come true. Thanks for your comments.