Bad Luck

@MoonGypsy (4606)
United States
August 29, 2010 8:08pm CST
all my life i have watch others have good things happen to them around me, while i watch i shear misery. not at the fact that others have good fortune. it's just that i feel like i didn't have bad luck, i wouldn't have any luck at all. i don't believe in the supernatural or anything, but lately, i am starting to wonder if someone put a hex on me or something. let me give you an example. my sister is the millionth person in my family to get social security money on a fraud. nothing is wrong with any of them, except one. i know this for a fact because they told me that they were going to fake something to get the money. someone in my family just recently got a whole bunch of money from social security and back pay. for...eh-hem..."crones disease" and "bi-polar" because she says it's "easy to fake being crazy". no take me... I REALLY have been diagnosed with something that i should be getting paid for, but the only way out of this financial hell hole i am in is to try to take my agoraphobic behind to someone's job and have panic attacks so bad that i end up in the hospital for the hundredth time, loose the job, and be broke...cycle after cycle. to make it worse, another relative of mine, who is going for social security for, "mulitple sclerosis" (she hasn't gotten diagnosed she just goes around telling free health clinic doctors that she has it and got diagnosed way way back in the day and just forgot where she got diagnosed and just went on in denial. she knows if she builds a case for it and enough people write down what she says, she will have a social security case). well, anyway...this other relative came by the other day to brag on how her daughter got alot of money. everything new thing that she has gotten so far, i get first hand reports of it. for instance, the fam member who just got the money, got a new phone. her mom (the one with the "multiple sclerosis", tries to give me the one who just got the money's phone number. it's like, what would i do with her number and i don't even have a phone? she knows i can't even afford one. i wasn't about that though, it was a way to rub it in my face. i feel sooo bad right now. i wasn't thinking this way until her mom and her started pulling this showing off and rubbing it my face...smirking and laughing at me.. LITERALLY...no imagination...out right rubbing in my face. it only once again reminds me what a rodney dangerfield reincarnate i am. i just can't get no respect at all. frankly, sometime i don't even want to be on this planet anymore. i am just stuck here on this miserable planet where the more miserable you get the happy everyone else becomes, is because i have to be here for a couple of reasons. if not for those reasons, life would be worthless. i still wish i had the freedom to check out of her. i am happy everyone around me is so fortunate all the time and the UNIVERSE keeps having favor on them. i just wish it could love me a little too. know what i mean? am i a bad person for wishing that for myself and my own personal family? should i have just taken it as a joke, all that catty rubbing things in my face, flashing wads of money around, bringing back and reporting, flaunting new items each time i see them? why do you think they like messing with me like this. are they just trying to hurt me on purpose, don't they know i am dying inside without their help?
2 responses
@Sha033 (29)
• United States
30 Aug 10
Yeah sometimes i feel like if it wasn't for bad luck i wouldn't have any luck at all too. For instance i filled out an application for my sister and for myself at the same company that needed 10 people, my sister got the job and not me. I have years more experience than her and her resume was all lies. My sister fraudelantly applied for the $8000 that Obama was giving people towards buying a house and she is on section 8 and she got the money. I did the same thing and did not get the money. They said i had to purchase the house first. Why didn't she have to do the same thing? Or show proof that she purchased that house? She can't buy a section 8 house. But i realized that people who do things fraudulently will have to pay for it later in life, they are not getting away with anything they just have not got caught yet. We people who try to do things honestly don't reap the benefits as quickly or maybe not at all for the things we want, but god has something instore for all of us we just have to be patient.
@Graceekwenx (3160)
• Philippines
30 Aug 10
i for one, do not believe in luck. I wouldnt want to claim that anyone who has gotten lotsa cash is lucky for all you know... having lotsa cash would mean dilemma. Ignore those people who likes to rub things on your face. You can have your own share of good times when your time comes. Think positive and pray harder.