How do you not give up on life??

I can agree with that. Sometimes it does get overwhelming though to the point where it's hard to be positive. But, I find now here recently that praying works wonders. I am a religious, God-fearing person.. don't get me wrong. But, I never really prayed enough.. and I think that God brought me to prayer through my recent trials and tribulations.. and I thank Him for that. I know that in the end all of this is just making me a stronger person for what the future may hold. Thanks for commenting!!

So true, at times our situations can be so overwhelming and hard to deal with. That's why I find the following Scripture so encouraging. 1 Corinthians 10:13 (New Living Translation) "The temptations in your life are no different from what others experience. And God is faithful. He will not allow the temptation to be more than you can stand. When you are tempted, he will show you a way out so that you can endure." God does keep an eye on us and sends the help we need at the right time.

I may need the prozac. I think it's great that your children are such an inspiration in your life that they lift you up during your times when you're down. My daughter does too... in a sense... but when I sit and think of how I may not be able to provide for her and how she would suffer... she might be better off without me. That's how I honestly feel most days. Thanks for sharing!

Believe me I've been there. Not too long ago, I was working two jobs to support my three boys 10,2, and 1. My boyfriend was unemployed and we were barely making ends meet. Those same thoughts went through my head every day and I was always depressed. Every month was a constant debate..."cable or electric this week?" "Food or insurance payment?". I got sick of living like that. I borrowed $500 and started a business out of my home. I can't live on it solely yet. I still have one job, but the money coming in from that has allowed us some spending freedom, more time with my kids, and in a couple of years, business should be booming. It's already more than I can keep up with at times. As for your daughter being better off without you, consider the consequences of that. Where would she go? Who would she be with? You hear the horror stories every day of kids in foster care, adoptive families, and even within a nuclear family being abused or killed. Take your worries and be productive with it. I went through some hard times growing up as well. I can remember times where we were without electric for months. Made regular visits to the church for food donations. We stuck together as a family and made it through. Don't despair. It will get better.

O wow.. yes I can definitely understand the job situation. I am going through that as well... it is a true blessing to feel optimistic even during the darkest of hours. I wish that could be enough for me to grasp, hold on to and keep moving. I am happy to be here on MyLot... but I had taken a long break from being here before today... I hadn't been here in maybe a month or more. I didn't want to make posts like this... that is why. I hate to seem down.... I hate to bring others down... so I think a lot of my recent depression comes from keeping things bottled in... I am still a work in progress... Thanks for sharing!!

I understand. Believe me, writing on MyLot helps tremendously and don't worry if you think you are bringing others down, because you're not. We are all here to help, no matter what. I keep a diary too (have done for years) and that helps also. An online diary isn't the same, it has to be a written version.

That sounds like a good tactic. And I hope that it has proven to be very effective for you. Everyone should have a game plan! Thanks for commenting!!

You sound like my grandmother (which isn't bad at all). Whenever I am feeling at my lowest, she always says that people in the hospital would love to trade lives with me. People that can't walk. People whom are fatally sick. I do take some small things for granted... but it's not that I'm unappreciative or anything like that. I just want sooo much more out of life than what I have right now. And I intend to get it by any means necessary!!

I think everyone wants that. Everyone wants to be successful, happy, loved and money... but everyone doesn't make it to that point. What differentiates one from the next?? I'll never know. Thanks for commenting!!

I, too, have dreams... who doesn't? I guess. I used to could maybe use those dreams as a crutch to feeling happier... but now the mere thought of my dreams and how they have been crushed just sends me further into a downward spiraling depression. I hate being bored, too. My grandmother always said... that the bible says that "an idle mind is the devil's workshop"... maybe I need to just find a hobby that I truly enjoy and maybe I won't sulk like I've been doing for the past month or so. Thanks for sharing your experience!!

I know that's right!! I'm glad those methods have been proven to be effective for you. I am in the process of finding what comforts me during those dark hours and with God's help, I know I will succeed! Thanks for commenting!!

Let me ask you this... what do you hope for? What is it that you are hoping to expect in the future? Is it clearly set and already planned for... or is it cloudy and still in the works? What doesn't kill you ... makes you stronger, they say. I am just hoping that "they" are right. Thanks for your kind words.. Thanks for commenting!!

Jobs can put a lot of stress on your life, too. Especially if you spend most of your time there. Fighting your way up through that career ladder can make or break some people. I am glad to hear that it didn't break you!! Thanks for sharing your experience!!

You are right! And I definitely agree with that. There is nothing more fulfilling than taking care of your family and ensuring their happiness. Thanks for commenting!!