might as well earn a buck while at it.
By jolope
@jolope (987)
Philippines
December 11, 2010 9:47am CST
i've been itching to write about something since yesterday.
i have this strong want to just complain and shout about things that i dont like but then when i stop to think about it, its gonna be a total waste of time.
busy.yeah..that's what i've been lately. and i guess i love it.
lack of sleep, unhealthy meals. im not really sure of what is there to love but im liking the setup.
lately ive been using this busy status as an escape.
a reason for me to function properly everyday.
i honestly find no reason to genuinely smile nowadays but i try to. im trying not to look tired and old anyway. but really. i am clueless of what to feel.
well i know im feeling something.
worry, dismay, hint of anger perhaps?just to name a few..
i worry about how my siblings would turnout to be.
hopefully not like me. :P
dismayed of crappy decisions some old people i know make and how they act like crazy irrational kids.
and the anger part. i guess thats for myself.
for letting things be the way they are.
the thing is, i dont want to even try to change it. i hate that i am powerless.
i hope this writing thing helped my.
thank goodness for mylot and the cooperative keyboard i have.
now i can fake a smile :)
2 responses
@buggles64 (2709)
• United States
15 Dec 10
Today, I learned that at least it is better to show anger than sadness...because when you are sad, that means you have "given up!" I think we all have those mixed emotions once in awhile and it's perfectly normal! I get to fake a smile sometimes too, and if you're lucky, you might get a glimpse of the real thing every now and again.
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@jolope (987)
• Philippines
19 Dec 10
hey there buggles64..thanks for your response..and i am glad to know that im still normal..lol :P
i pray to be calm in all situations..i guess writing calms me..
thats why i like this site so much. it give me some extra just to calm down.. :)
btw, i hope its ok if i give the best response to my 1st response.. :)
thanks for your help..appreciate it :)
@wonga94 (218)
• Singapore
11 Dec 10
Hi jolope! Just wanted to tell you to forget about your problems and smile. This is life, you know. Life isn't always fair. There will be times when you're feeling depressed but try to get over it because no matter what happens, life goes on. Try to talk to someone you trust and is willing to be a listener because it isn't healthy to keep problems or emotions to yourself.
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@jolope (987)
• Philippines
19 Dec 10
i've got two great responses right here..
now im torn between who to give the best one to.
you're right wonga94..life is unfair and it does go on..as for me, i should do the same..the go on part i mean :)
and i really thank those people who are willing to listen to me rant about random things..i get to breathe properly afterwards..
i've just been trying to be less responsive to anger, and sadness..and things of the sort..i find no benefit in feeling such thing..but you know sometimes people snap!
thanks for the kind advice :)
have a good day!
