My First Love is Getting Married...
@LetranKnight25 (33121)
Philippines
February 6, 2011 10:37pm CST
He Lotters
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Time really does fly and when you have not been with the person that has been part of your life, you will be surprise with the changes that happens to them. I remember this one person that first inspired me to be good in my studies way way back, but it was me drop it because I got so busy with my studies that she and I decided to be friends again.
I haven't seen her for a while and shocked to find out that she's getting married. things are going too well in her career, now she's getting ready to tie the knot. but as try to have a little chat she seemed to be avoiding me and i felt sad about that.
. but am happy that i have present friends now, sometimes it's cool to just forget the past but sometimes it's depressing to remember the emotion of it.
I hope to GET A "REAL" Life someday after this events, I don't feel my life is my own...though am really happy for her but seeing these makes me feel lonely, and i can't help it.
Have a great day.
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Time really does fly and when you have not been with the person that has been part of your life, you will be surprise with the changes that happens to them. I remember this one person that first inspired me to be good in my studies way way back, but it was me drop it because I got so busy with my studies that she and I decided to be friends again.
I haven't seen her for a while and shocked to find out that she's getting married. things are going too well in her career, now she's getting ready to tie the knot. but as try to have a little chat she seemed to be avoiding me and i felt sad about that.. but am happy that i have present friends now, sometimes it's cool to just forget the past but sometimes it's depressing to remember the emotion of it.
I hope to GET A "REAL" Life someday after this events, I don't feel my life is my own...though am really happy for her but seeing these makes me feel lonely, and i can't help it.
Have a great day.7 people like this
20 responses
@eLsMarie (4345)
• Philippines
7 Feb 11
It seemed like you're having regrets.
I think that's practically normal Letran. Finding out that the love of your life in the past is planning to get married is a shocking thing. Through it, you'll get to the point of experiencing some sort of recall and the emotion that most likely changed your life so much will also come back - I'm not saying it should happen to all.
I hope one day you'll find somebody who'll inspire you and help you see reality. 
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@LetranKnight25 (33121)
• Philippines
13 Feb 11
the last time i predicted my faith i end up the way i am now
@LetranKnight25 (33121)
• Philippines
13 Feb 11
Hello ElseMarie,
Yeah, it's pretty much normal to me, but i hope i can be inspired with out involving a girl since i seriously don't want to have a relationship in my mind and prefers to be and want to be happy in my single life to the end. frankly, i need to do something that would make me completely forget about this uhm...emotional recall
Yeah, it's pretty much normal to me, but i hope i can be inspired with out involving a girl since i seriously don't want to have a relationship in my mind and prefers to be and want to be happy in my single life to the end. frankly, i need to do something that would make me completely forget about this uhm...emotional recall
@mythociate (21432)
• Oklahoma City, Oklahoma
7 Feb 11
I know how you feel.
Being disabled like I am, it gives me time to think about what could happen if people looked after 'the will of God for me' (rather than just 'God's will for themselves').
It's God's will that every man be perfected (made whole) by a mate made of a part that he is missing (and thus it is God's will for every woman that she be the missing part to a man).
So why is it that married ministers (of most Protestant & Non-Denominational Christian churches) don't see to it that all their single parishioners get married?
If you knew you had people working on 'getting you hitched,' maybe you wouldn't see past-loves as 'missed opportunities' but as 'insufficient options' ...
(i.e. So the girl you're talking about was not 'enough' to complete you--making you too-much/not-enough to keep her busy--but her design will help the ministers find a perfect fit when you are ready.)
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@LetranKnight25 (33121)
• Philippines
12 Feb 11
Hello Mythociate,
No, it was more of a lack of options, probably i wasn't aggressive enough to be challenged with other women. in doing so i went to those whom i am comfortable with anyways but probably i am not ready and i think for now i won't be ready for such relationship again. some people are already on that other chapter, and am not.
@rsa101 (38166)
• Philippines
7 Feb 11
So sad to know that little romantic side of you there. Well I guess it just means you and her is not meant for each other. I think you will find that special someone somewhere soon. Just do not lose hope for that and soon you will realized that you have found your partner. I think for your kind of type you need to go out and explore I noticed that you seemed to be a home buddy since I can always see your posts here in mylot.
Maybe you can use these Mylot Group Rberon has formed here in mylot and find your special someone. I read here rberon's post that he found someone special here in this site. So why not you finding her here in Mylot.
Maybe you can use these Mylot Group Rberon has formed here in mylot and find your special someone. I read here rberon's post that he found someone special here in this site. So why not you finding her here in Mylot.1 person likes this
@LetranKnight25 (33121)
• Philippines
13 Feb 11
Hello Rsa,
No, i know it was never meant to be but when i feel in love "the first time" it seemed i was motivated enough to do the impossible. but it seemed that it's not that enough yet. as for rberon, that was just for fun, the guy is committed to some one already. honestly, i wanted to be happily single for the next ten years of my life
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No, i know it was never meant to be but when i feel in love "the first time" it seemed i was motivated enough to do the impossible. but it seemed that it's not that enough yet. as for rberon, that was just for fun, the guy is committed to some one already. honestly, i wanted to be happily single for the next ten years of my life
@doryvien (2284)
• United States
7 Feb 11
Hi Letran,
Are you sad because she's getting married, or is it because she's getting married ahead of you? Just a thought. Don't worry, there is someone out there who is meant for you, she maybe there already, or she may be coming your way in the near future. As to this girl, all you can do now is wish her the best.
. Don't worry, there is someone out there who is meant for you, she maybe there already, or she may be coming your way in the near future. As to this girl, all you can do now is wish her the best. @LetranKnight25 (33121)
• Philippines
12 Feb 11
Hello Doryvien,
I was depressed only and probably she did reached the next chapter of her life so fast that i didn't think it would be too soon but maybe i wasn't busy that much to begin with. yes, i did and she thanked me for it. have a nice day
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I was depressed only and probably she did reached the next chapter of her life so fast that i didn't think it would be too soon but maybe i wasn't busy that much to begin with. yes, i did and she thanked me for it. have a nice day
@LetranKnight25 (33121)
• Philippines
11 Feb 11
Hello Jennyze,
Yeah, you're right probably if I start earning serious money or playing freaking good games again then why not am sure things would really get cool from there. Being lonely for most guys are normal am sure I can get over this thing one day. Thank you for the response and have a great day to you.
Jennyze,
Yeah, you're right probably if I start earning serious money or playing freaking good games again then why not am sure things would really get cool from there. Being lonely for most guys are normal am sure I can get over this thing one day. Thank you for the response and have a great day to you.
@LetranKnight25 (33121)
• Philippines
12 Feb 11
Hello katie,
nope am nto feeling bad, though i was a bit depressed but am sure alright now. i can't advice you since i have in NO condition to think otherwise, not to mention you end up with some one else. that's something you need to decide on your own
@stephcjh (38473)
• United States
7 Feb 11
I am sorry that you are feeling this way right now. Sometimes it is just not to be when it comes to the right time and the right person to be married to. You will be married to a great woman and be happy in life too when your time comes. Hang in there.
@LetranKnight25 (33121)
• Philippines
11 Feb 11
Hello Stephcjh,
I am not sure about that, relationship is sharing of lives, I don't know what can I share and if the person likes the one am sharing with. Am not open minded to my life being open book to others that risk being rumored or gossiped at. I hope to be happy one day even though it's not always about getting married or having children. Have a nice day.
I am not sure about that, relationship is sharing of lives, I don't know what can I share and if the person likes the one am sharing with. Am not open minded to my life being open book to others that risk being rumored or gossiped at. I hope to be happy one day even though it's not always about getting married or having children. Have a nice day.
@sid556 (30960)
• United States
8 Feb 11
Hi Letran,
Sounds like your time with her happened a long time ago and she moved on but you have not. That happens sometimes. It could be that she is avoiding you because she knows how you feel and does not want to make you sadder. You do have a REAL life, letran...you just have to realize it and embrace it.
@LetranKnight25 (33121)
• Philippines
12 Feb 11
Heloo Sid,
Well, it was a long time ago. there was a point where i have move on but probably because i got better things to do during those times. no, probably i need to do something that can make me happy and realized that it is my life., hope it would be better than the one i imagined.
, hope it would be better than the one i imagined.
@jaiho2009 (39141)
• Philippines
7 Feb 11
hello LK,
Yayyy, ouch i hope you are not singing the lines of "you're getting married,leaving me alone " (ikakasal ka na,iiwan mo akong nag-iisa) uhuhmnnn...just kidding my dear brother.
Love will find a way,love is not to search,it will come flying to you when the right time comes.
You've got to believe in magic...how two people find each other,in a world that's full of stranger 
(hehehe)
Just to make you smile...cheerssssss lil' brother
i hope you are not singing the lines of "you're getting married,leaving me alone " (ikakasal ka na,iiwan mo akong nag-iisa) uhuhmnnn...just kidding my dear brother.
Love will find a way,love is not to search,it will come flying to you when the right time comes.
You've got to believe in magic...how two people find each other,in a world that's full of stranger (hehehe)
Just to make you smile...cheerssssss lil' brother@LetranKnight25 (33121)
• Philippines
11 Feb 11
Hello Sis Jaiho,
Actually I did listen to that song in my head but the only feeling I had was sadness that she's so successful that she doesn't even want to chat me around any more. But maybe I guess she has been busy a bit lately. Well, magic is one thing that will happen once in a life time, I could get a girl friend some day but I doubt I can have that girl forever. Who knows? Thanks I really need some cheering.
. I can't blame the girl if she's indifferent, you dumped her in the first place @LetranKnight25 (33121)
• Philippines
11 Feb 11
Hello Ybong,
Yeah, maybe am one of those late bloomers, but not because I got too busy but I was too slow to help my self grow even further for the next step to happen. It's hard though that things went on it and not like the way I dreamed about years ago but at least they are happy at some point, I just couldn't understand why I couldn't afford to be happy with them right away.
@deriellevc73 (982)
• Philippines
7 Feb 11
hello LetranKnight!
Sometimes, we could get so engrossed with our life that it takes others to make us realize how much we are missing on life. We thought we are quite satisfied with the way our life is turning out then suddenly something happened to a person we were quite close to and it suddenly dawned on us that life had evolved for them, without us really taking real notice. Being married could not be more real with the kind of life that any single person is living. Although it could get lonely but life still is as real as it gets.
@LetranKnight25 (33121)
• Philippines
11 Feb 11
Hello Deriellevc,
Yeah, that is very true, I just didn't realize how time flies by and am eating my own time and though such can last forever. But realistically speaking, am not ready for it, I haven't really found the one or probably I might be find undesirable in the end, that's one thing I am really avoiding now a days. But since there's people regret having a married settled life, I guess I can still considered myself lucky.
@hardworkinggurl (37063)
• United States
7 Feb 11
It is always sort of happy news to hear of past loves are doing great in their lives. It does however sort of make us reflect on our endeavors and perhaps wished we had more.
Perhaps she is not intentionally avoiding you and is quite busy with her career and or now with wedding plans. Don't feel sad as I am sure at some point she will reflect and recall you as a good friend.
I do know what you mean about getting a "Real Life" as sometimes looking in from the eyes of other we tend to think that we have lost perspective with our lives, but don't worry Letran your day with hope, persistence and prayer your day too will come.
@LetranKnight25 (33121)
• Philippines
11 Feb 11
Hello Hardworkinggurl,
Maybe you're right, she is indeed busy with her work though. That's why she didn't talked to me that much but probably I was asking much personal to her wedding and the future hubby. I hope the day does come indeed I miss having a good life but I guess for now, with this development, it won't be far off before I find some one good in my life.
Hardworkinggurl,
Maybe you're right, she is indeed busy with her work though. That's why she didn't talked to me that much but probably I was asking much personal to her wedding and the future hubby. I hope the day does come indeed I miss having a good life but I guess for now, with this development, it won't be far off before I find some one good in my life.
@raj7shot (838)
• India
7 Feb 11
Really very sorry to hear that tough situation.
But at the same time i will really appreciate you for your confidence and self belief on your own life.Its awesome
and something challenging for someone like you.
I wish you all the best for your feature.May your all wish come true.@LetranKnight25 (33121)
• Philippines
11 Feb 11
Hello Rai7shot,
I agree that I can have my own self belief, but probably and only when I have the chance to know and see how good things are. Thank you for your encouragement, have a nice day to you.
Rai7shot,
I agree that I can have my own self belief, but probably and only when I have the chance to know and see how good things are. Thank you for your encouragement, have a nice day to you.
@totallyundecided (3190)
• Philippines
9 Feb 11
Just be happy for her, LK. I know you will have your turn someday with the love of your life.
Be hopeful for the world is kind as well as Him.
Don't worry, you're not alone with your single life. Appreciate it for now.
@Hatley (163776)
• Garden Grove, California
8 Feb 11
hi letran sorry to hear your first love is getting married but again life does keep right on moving on no matter what we do or do not
do.But you sound like it was not ongoing and you are happy she has
found someone and is now happ.I think you will find someone really
great one of these days for yourself.You will have a real life soon
for yourself but it sounds like to me you have a pretty nice life
as in rescueing lost kittens for instance.
rescueing lost kittens for instance.
@paula27661 (15811)
• Australia
10 Feb 11
I think that it is normal to feel like that when we hear an ex is moving on. I believe it is natural to wonder what may have been in situations like this and just because we know it is all for the best doesn’t mean we are not going to feel a little lonely or dejected. Everything happens for a reason and you need to envision yourself happy like she is and, if you stay positive it will probably come to pass when you least expect it.
@JewelLong (108)
• China
7 Feb 11
sorry to hear that.just forget it to rest yourself.i have a similar experience,but he haven't married.he has a girlfriend and regards me as his closest friend,he really love his gf,so i decide to forget the past and to have a new start being his friend.sometimes,i also feel lonely,and i'll pay all my attention to other things to solve the pain,now i'll make it.hope you are well.
@LetranKnight25 (33121)
• Philippines
11 Feb 11
Hello Jewel,
yeah, you're right but i am happy for her. probably i just got a bit sad that i didn't expect this to happen, but i must admit i haven't seen her for a long time i guess
@CaptAlbertWhisker (32695)
• Calgary, Alberta
8 Feb 11
one of my exes, I dont know what happened to her and a lot of them have been married i think. In my case, I dont think I'm mature enough to tie the knot and have kids, I know how you feel though.But there is only one thing in my mind that makes me smile about my exes,I'm their first kiss and I have the honor to open the tunnels. Its not a bad consolation price I think.
I do remember though I have a huge crush and infatuation to my sophomore History teacher, I heard she is married now, and I felt hurt a bit.
