confessions part 2

I think you just as normal as me, when you find the right person you will be just fine. I think you had some bumpy rides and just need to wait for the right guy instead of just taken second hand goods.

I do not know who you are and I'm not sure what you have been through in the past or what kind of life you are living right now. What I can see is that your situation can be normal (because you are not the only one experiencing this) but you need help. There must be certain experiences that you have that triggered such feeling of aloofness. Something happened that made you scared to trust and let someone comes closer to you. There's no remedy for that but to heal the 'you' inside. Yes, you need counselling. You have to figure out why. And when you do, you'll know that it is not scary to trust and let someone bring down your defenses.\ God bless and all the best.

I'm betting that it's normal for somebody who's been abused. Actually I'm like that somewhat myself. And yes, definitely, counseling (with the right counselor) will help.

I don't believe your mentally have this problem. For me, I have problem with other people too. Maybe my way of behave, or my speech just turn people off. I may not be the perfect guy or good boyfriend type to any girl. My ex just broke up with me, maybe I am too annoying to her. Well, screw her then. I am who I am. So, you don't have problem yourself. It was your past experience that freak you out. If you feel like it, you can go see a counselor.

The fact that you're opening up yourself and your world here in myLot is already one way of giving yourself a chance in trying to reciprocate whatever feelings other might have for you. This is already a good step that you should continue to tread on. When you want to acquaint with others, try to think less of yourself and what others might think about you so that you'll be able to respond to them normally. You worry much and you're probably filled with fear of rejection and of hurt. On the other hand, love for yourself still reigns in your heart since you're not closing the doors to others totally. Just bear in mind that when you deal with the world, you can't please all so try to be with people who can accept you as who you really are. Don't force people to like you. In this way, you can move on a step forward till you totally open your world to them and be in their world as well. Exploring friendship means taking risk of being hurt as well. In this way, you'll be able to find out who your true friends are and who are not.