i hate myself for loving him too much eventhough it's time for me to move on!

i don't know why you decided to go back with your first bf just to forget him, you used other people and now your in pain, would you ever realize what will be the reaction of your first boyfriend if he finds out this thing. and now you have your baby still thinking of other man instead of your baby's father.... how selfish can you get... i'm really sorry for a harsh comment, but i guess you've done a huge mistake for yourself the father of your child and also for your child.... move on live at present and not on the past

It is not easy to let go of the one you love so dearly, don't beat upon yourself, just take your time and move on with your life. It not easy, but you can make it.

So sorry, it is so hard to love and not receive it back. I believe you might love him today but you will love even more the right guy for you. The right guy always will love you back. But give it time to your self, we can't move on so fast but also need to keep that in mind.

awwww that is really a bad situation just recently my boyfriend and i were like in a very very rocky situation, he broke up with me but i was able to convince him to take me back because we cant just throw 7 years of being together away i was very sad and i just could not accept it. i have been crying all day and night. my eyes are still swollen right because of too much crying. we just got back earlier today and now i am trying really hard to work things out. i love him so much to just give up on him. are you and your first boyfriend still together now? i hope you feel better soon. just think about your baby. i know it is not that easy especially being left without any reason at all or even just because of a very small argument or fight :( you can talk it out here and some mylot users are willing to respond :) or you can talk it out to your friends so you wont have so much burden in your heart and so you can finally get over him. take care of yourself and your baby

Hi! jen, I know your in great pain and moving on is hard to do. But don't take it all on yourself. The only mistake you've done is that you loved a person more than yourself... They say its not how many times you fall that matters but the way you stand up and not giving up the fight....and that's how you'll turn into a better person...Goodluck!

You must learn to forget everything you had or everything about him. You must go on with your life without him.

If he broke up with you, it's his loss. I could never love a guy who broke up with me, because I would know that he was not deserving of my love, and if someone does not deserve my love, they are not going to get it. Don't waste your time loving someone who is not worth a pinch of $h!t in the snow.

Hello jenniferyvette, I am so sorry to hear that, dear. You really need to hold on to yourself. That guy doesn't deserve your love at all. You need to talk to your friends and try not to think about him at all. I can understand, even i had a break up this last sunday and i am trying to get over it, and i can say my friends have helped me a real great deal. You have to make up your mind.... You are a worth lot more than he can ever do in his best... Your love is true, it's real and it's time someone much better deserved your love and it's time you had found that person who loves you as much too. I don't know how is it between your first boyfriend and you but if you believe it is going to work out then it's fine, otherwise you really need to make yourself strong.. Start believing in yourself, and starting finding the person who actually deserves your love. You can't always keep someone happy by sacrificing so much.. That person was selfish and really need to let go of him, dear. Start doing things that will keep you busy. Pray, meet friends, do something fruitful, please try.. I am sure, with time everything is going to get well. Don't ever give your love to someone who doesn't deserve it... Take care, Jenniferyvette.

hello jen, I understand what you feel. It maybe because you never had the chance of getting him out of your life. You keep loving him that is the reason why you felt that way when you see him after a long time. But you must go on with your new life. It won't help you to move on. Try to get him our of your system. Think about it before you fall into him once again.

Hi, You should let your past relationship go off and concentrate on your current life. He is your past and there is no point to keep think of him anymore. It is glad that your 1st boyfriend want to patch back with you and you did mentioned that you have a baby,is this baby belong to your ex or your 1st boyfriend? You should try to forget your ex by now and love your current man with your whole heart.

loving too much is not a sin but a painstaking act of being unconditionally giving your whole self... to be in love is yet but a chance when it comes, to fall out of love is a choice when one realizes how much you are on the losing end. Don't get frustrated on someone who broke your heart. Count on the blessings you have since he was out of your life as it is the best way of moving on without him. you have your husband and a baby to look forward of living your life with.

You made your decision to get back with your first boyfriend and have a child with him. I think you should try to make this relationship work for you. It would not easy, but if you try time will help you forgetting your love (at least dull the emotion that you would not have to feel the pain).

Hi jenniferyvette and a warm welcome to myLot! Don't hate yourself because you need to be strong for your baby. Life at times is filled with disappointments. We cannot change our past but we can improve our present and future. Do not keep in because this will future anger and depress you and you need to move on and say to yourself you know what it all happened and now it is done. Think about a brighter future for you and your child. Do not allow anyone to make you feel like you have made mistakes, you have a child now who needs your strength and love. I wish you well and it is good to vent and doing so on myLot will see you through some of it. Best of luck to you and your baby.

I feel sorry for you and hope you can take something positive in this situation. you have your baby to cheer you up and I'm sure time will heal. fill your day with activities and take care of your baby will probably help you to move on and start a new love...