A Fight With My Own Self... I Will BeVictorious

Hi thesids I am on a daily battle with me. Yes, you read that right. I have many offline issues that I do not divulge easily, all I can say is that although it is truly difficult to be someday, the mere fact that I am allowed to awake the next day is a true sign of positive blessings! Once I realize I am alive again today it helps me to remember that perhaps it may be my last. Feeling it may be my last I do all I can to muddle through my negative feelings. I do well the early part of the day and as the day lingers I am brought down by my vicious thoughts. However thesids, nightfall's and I cannot help but wonder if perhaps I will be blessed tomorrow. So far thesids I awake the next day blessed again! Having said that my dear friend let us both continue to remember that positive energy is what continues to allow us to thrive and look forward to another blessed day.

hello thesids! It's good to hear that you are trying your best to get back on your track. My advice is never give up on life, always have inspirations to continue in life like your family, friends, etc. because it will boost up your motivation in life. At my early age, I've experienced lot of trials in life, that made me more strong and better person. My formula? Always think positive and don't give up. If you know the law of attraction, it will help you a lot. Try to read "The Secret".

Hello Sid, i am a fighter too it is good that you can beat that weakly. Now i had a fight with my self, to be a mother or leaving my family and be a career woman. it is hard to do both since i am only human. my body is as weak as you. i ever try to do that two things, but then i am sick. so i have to choose which one is the best for me. still in dilemma right now

Hi Sid, Dude! Even when I disagree with you, I can't help smiling! :O) You have such a wonderful sense of humor, which makes reading your posts such a pleasure. I only wish to add that your tongue-in-cheek approach doesn't worry me, because I know you understand that the real you is an awesome infinite being of unlimited wisdom and power. That's who you are, Sid. That's who we all are, but that part's not important, right now. That's who you are. The laziness you observe is merely an illusion with which you entertain yourself. As a magician, I remember an effect in which a red box is introduced. Out of the red box, a white box is removed. Then, the red box is closed and placed within the white box, which is now closed with what seems to be a larger box inside it. :P Do you understand how entertaining it must be for an infinite being to see the illusion of itself being stuck in a limited (even lazy) form? You are an infinite creator, Sid. So fighting with yourself is not necessary. An illusion cannot fight itself. And an infinite being has no need to fight against a limited illusion. And, surely, a limited illusion cannot fight a real infininte being. Rather, remember who you really are and allow your illusive finite mundane self to harmonize with the infinite power of who you really are. Your expanded self enjoys everything about your life. Your mundane self is of great worth, actually, as it is the Explorer Self who dives into the complexity of the illusion to declare preferences, which your expanded self then enjoys to the fullest. Your tiny Explorer Self is always invited to join in this party of its own making. So appreciate the wonderful things about yourself, about your world. Like your Expanded Self, always approve of yourself and of all. I met a wonderful old woman at a job who said, "I love everything," about food and "I love everybody" about people. Light shone from this beautiful plump woman's eyes. I look forward to seeing her again. What a magnificent spirit! You are just as abundant a spirit, Sid! Celebrate your awesomeness! It is an excellent game to play. :O) Sunshine & Blessings, Giovani

I am also a person like you sids. I always have things to fight with me. i am a cool and loving person for others. But, I doubt am I good for me. No. never I am not good for me. My laziness makes me bad.

That's the best fight of all. Seriously, I am fighting with myself everyday to stay positive and to look at brighter side of things. It is so difficult in today's world to stay cheerful and happy at all times. Don't give up the fight. If it looks like you are losing, remember we are all here to pick you up.

hello dear sids, There is always a reason to fight for (in this life) There was a time in my life that i felt all alone. But my kids gives me enough reason to live. They are my booster,my guide and my light (thu sometimes gives me headache ) Just look at your wife,isn't she fighting for you? Always consider her,she never gave up and always stays by your side. She's worth enough, for you to love and fight for whatever spider web's in your head (wake up dear bhai) keep smiling...

That's been a lifelong endeavor. Of late moreso. Last year I went through congestive heart failure which left me quite weak and tired regularly and, for a short (very) I gave in to the po' little boy attitude that was handed to me until I decided that the stubborn that had brought the condition about in the first place would be the stubborn that got me beyond it..Its not so easy all the time. The depression is persistent in the wake of an inability to do even simple work and produce income, which makes things rather difficult for Liz and, in its turn, for me to see the stress she contends with too regularly..On the positive side, because of that stubborn I've exceeded expectations in my physical comeback, surprising the doctors as to the level of progress but, as my grandma used to say, 'There's the good days and then there's the other ones.'. There's a lot of the other ones. Sometimes I breach them. Sometimes I don't and the depression starts again. Luckily, the stubborn won't let i ty win as often as it had over the last months..Progress!! Enjoy!

For me it is worse very so sad to think but be careful you must love your self.

My friend,you are that kind of person that is strict in dissecting himself ideologically.Here there is a old saying, one who knows other people is a wise person;one who know himself is a sensible person.There is some reason in what It said.In fact,easier said than done,It is difficult for us to know ourself.

I adore you for being a fighter. It seems I am not like that much. But I strive to fight for life's challenges. Keep up the good works and be positive always!

boredom draws us back but will to survive definitely holds us firmly to stand against all odds. These two fight deep within me.

Life = fightinig - winning - losing fighting is more important rather than winning and losing... One should immediatly perform or act rather than taking decision to get out of all lazzyness... And last important to have one Teacher in life...we call GURU

Today I feel like fighting.Not sure if it's also a fight with myself. I do not really go into fight with someone in physical, though I do with words (if provoked) and thoughts. I feel like fighting to wade off the bad influences into my system.Those influences are mainstream and all around me, many times I just decide that I can't trust anyone. I know it's wrong, but they are not showing me the light. I am not really confident that I can do it on my own, but I'd rather be alone. Perhaps it's because I am weak. I do not know how to handle people, much more to be tasked to educate people...I myself need to be educated, and to look back and straighten up things where they are not straight. And I cannot do it with them, it's painful, it's more than what is necessary. I do not deserve this.

Me too!!! To clue you in on me: I was dx'd with multiple sclerosis June 1998. After a couple months of feeling sorry for myself, I decided I wanted to beat it and I've been fighting it ever since. I was SO made when I had a relapse in September 2008--after ten years without a significant relapse, I was considered to be in remission and when it ended, I was MAD! When the recession AND my relapse hit me at once, I hit rock bottom. I had the worst year of my life so far (2008), one that saw me begging for food and money from family and friends, rely on my dad to house me for a time, and to live in fear my transportation would be taken from me. I was hospitalized that fall briefly and almost wanted to stay because I actually had healthier food to eat (and more!) than I had at home! I even got a call about a job while I was admitted! Things were looking up... I was forced to move in January 2009 and my job was already not working well--the manager cut my hours from 25 to 4 before I got a new supervisor who 'found' 10 hours a week for me. But I noticed a sign for jobs closer to my home and I applied right away. I got it and gave my employer a week's notice--just before I was to work two full-time weeks. But it was still a job for significantly less pay then I was used to. I switched positions there, and the second job I loved--I even started to get stronger. But it STILL wasn't enough money to live off of. Then my roommate's girlfriend wrote me a bad check, so I began to look for a new job AND a new place to live. I found both, although it took two jobs before I found my current position. I also found someone to love me and began my new life in December 2010. I haven't given up yet, nor will I. When I look at how hard my life is now compared to where I was two years ago, I'm grateful. It's not perfect but I'm on easy street now! Keep fighting Sid!

There is always a fight with the Self, but many people are not aware of it. I have practiced meditation for the past 30+ years and through a developing awareness manage to transcend the fight with the Self that comes form the condition ego-mind that takes on society's shoulds and should-nots. _Derek

Good on you...thesids! I'm sure you will be victorious! I myself always been an up and go person...but now I Am retired from work I find my self getting lazy...also I have a lot to do some times I just procrastinate and leave things for tomorrow...but then I thought I was never this way before so why now? so I had a very good look at my self and gave my self a kick in the backside [ literally of course] and say get going woman age is not going to catch up with you!. Cheers and good luck

Hi thesids! I have been in constant battle with myself..LOL..I am a hand full. I am pretty spontanous and I have really had to take control of that. I am also very spirited and that can be an issue if it's not controlled. I am very honest and I have had to learn to be careful about the way I say things depending on my time and place. Good luck with your fight...you can do it..

I never experience that events into my life. You must trust yourself to do something that even impossible can do... Life really full of wonderful thing. I don't know what the real explanation why all those things happen to every individuals but at the end we can find answers...

Hi mamu.. Nice to hear that yoou have a fighting spirit. For me, no. I am highly adamant and desperate. I dont care whats wrong or right around me and i am sure, i have the abilities to overcome it except my drinking habit. lol. If you are energetic from mind and brain, then need not to fight back. Most often, we become desperate by some stuffs and at that situation i take them easily which help me to take a decision quickly. have a nice day.