I feel abit...
By vivamir
@vivamir (671)
September 18, 2011 12:30pm CST
Hey fellow MYLOTTERS..
Well its Sunday 18th September, and it will be one month tomorrow- that I made one of the hardest decisions in my life.. the decision was easy, it was the way I carried it out...
Anyway, I left someone.. a man who relied upon me heavily for everything.. and I quite literally mean everything.. thing is.. its been a month and I although I know for me, I am slightly happier.. *until I get everything sorted in the meantime* I just wonder...
How is he?. Does he even think of me.. I mean I have not even had one message or phone call.. Is it because he is angry?. Maybe so.. but seriously if someone you say you really love just left *with no explanation* wouldnt you want to find out?.
This is why I am glad, I did do what I did.. I mean, at the end of the day, this was my problem in the first place- he NEVER showed any love... even when we 'tried' talking about it.. it was like he knew how I felt but there was nothing he was going to do about it... you know what I mean?.
I just couldnt deal with another man, watching and allowing me to do all that I do with so much love, for them to turn round and be so cold towards me.. He was a fabulous man, dont get me wrong, and Ill always miss some of the little things but in the end I realized it was not worth me giving up my life for him..
All in all..no man/woman is.. unless feeling and participation is equal from both parties LOL.. *but its true*
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6 responses
@PointlessQuestions (15397)
• United States
18 Sep 11
Hmmmm.... I'm hearing a couple of things here. It makes me wonder if you want him to notice that you are gone. Well, you left him for a reason. If you weren't getting what you need from him and you left...then don't look back. Don't worry whether he thinks about you. Just move on.
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@deedee328 (1122)
• United States
19 Sep 11
It is perfectly natural to want to know that we are loved and missed. I think that the fact that you have not heard from this man in the last month, says pretty clearly that he does not miss you. I am sorry if that is harsh and hurts your feelings, but you need to continue to move forward with your own life.
Even if he were just staying out of touch because he was angry or hurt himself, you would have heard something either directly from him or from somebody he had talked to.
The way you describe life with him, he wasn't that big of a loss. It seems to me that if he knew how you felt, he would be willing to have made some little changes to show you he cared enough about you to want to keep you around.
You have the right idea. Find someone who is willing to share everything equally.
@ANTIQUELADY (36440)
• United States
18 Sep 11
I think u did yourself a big favor. He sounds VERY selfish.
@GemmaR (8517)
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18 Sep 11
I don't think that you should be with a man who relies on you for everything. I moved in with my partner just over a year ago, and I was the one who had to do all of the cooking and the cleaning around the flat because he just assumes that I would do everything and leave him to spend his whole life relaxing and doing whatever he wanted to do. I spoke to him about it and said to him that unless he started to do more around the house, I would leave him. It woke him up and he started to really think about what he was doing. Now, he does a lot more work because he just didn't want to lose me.
@sswallace21 (1824)
• United States
18 Sep 11
I think you made a good decision. I believe things will get better. It takes time to get everything square away and get back on your feet. Best Wishes!
@lilbabycatapillar (497)
• United States
18 Sep 11
Many times, people feel as though if they are the first to break the silence, they lose. Just be sure that you do not contact him, for any reason, unless you do feel you want to reconcile, but I think it is best if you do not. Once you get things sorted out, and everything is completely fine, you will feel even better.
