Deepest Darkest Secret

True, that person wont hurt because they dont know. But its the inner self that is hurting because you know it was not right or it isnt right. Well I wont burden my mother, I think she will be proud of I told her. After all she is the one who brought me into this world, she is the one who knows me truly inside and out.. And I really dont think I want to die without having to let it out! I dont want God questioning me.. So hopefully my mother will understand.. I just hope that your burden is lessen somehow, and God helps u through it :) Cheers my friend.

Hello Shin. I am glad that you have left the past behind and your moving on, starting fresh and new. Well there are many good people in this world who can really help you and guide you to to a better life. I know many people tend to judge when you tell them about your darkest secrets, but there are many who shed so much light you way, that you feel so free from those secrets that you wish you could fly!! I am glad you found happiness, and you found your way through the darkness. May God always bless and guide you, surrounding you with people you really trust. Cheers. Thanks for your response.

well in this day and age, its very difficult to find true people who will support you in the darkest of times. I wish that nobody in this world has to go through it alone, its very painful. Cheers.

Thank you for your kind words. :) Yes, being near people you can trust is a great pleasure to behold. It means there are those there to comfort you in the darkest of times. Always great to have friends and family there for you. :) God bless you as well! And you are welcome!

Hehe, I guess Mom's are the best to tell a secret :D Sometimes no, lol they end up killing u! haha - but I am glad my mommy is not like that and so is not yours! Well, its good not to have a secret that is killing u from within. Because the feeling is very horrible. almost it feels like it will take ur life over. Thanks for sharing. God Bless u!

I also have very few friends Bamboee But we try to communicate as often as possible. If I cannot keep it anymore I tell it to my friend and my mother. Yes you have to tell it as the only way to free yourself from that heavy feeling is your mother.

Thank you enelym, you are right, I have to. I am just waiting for my mother to come back from her trip. The first thing I will do is talk to her about it. She some how knew it, when I spoke to her today on the phone she asked me out of the blue.. "is there something u want to tell me?", something bothering u dear?" Gosh I was shocked.. How does she always know... I told her no mother, (i dont want her to be worried).. Just asked her to come back safely.. Take care dear. God Bless u and ur friends & family.

Hello enelym! That is really nice enelym, that you have so many trusted people around you. well I dont have many friends. A very close one she is far away in Canada and we barely talk because of our busy lives. My husband I am not so open with him because he always tends to judge the book by its cover rather than knowing the whole thing around. Where as if I go around the world, there is only my mother who knows all about me, every bits and pieces and she has never once judged me. So I guess I will be telling her :)!! Its too hard to carry the burden on your shoulders, you cant stop thinking about it. So its better if its out and you feel so light..and can sleep peacefully. Cheers. Thanks alot for comment. I hope u'll always be surrounded by loved ones. God bless.

zaahro, your response causes me concern and sadness. It saddens me to think anyone wishes they were not alive. We are all here at God's choosing,love. If you have asked God's forgiveness, and were sincere in doing so, then He has forgiven you and you should forgive yourself. Everyday that God allows us to remain alive is a second chance. At this point, all you can do is just live every day to do better than you did before. Keep the faith my friend. As they say, "let go and let God" Life is much easier when you do. bamboee; what i said goes for you too, dear. When we ask for God's forgiveness, we have to trust that it is done. As for me, of course there are things from my past that I am not very proud of all. I too, have made many mistakes. I have confessed my sins to God and therefore feel that there is no need for me to carry those burdens any longer. I now strive very hard to make sure that I do not do anything that I would be ashamed to tell my mother or my God about.

Yeah, It is killing1 me slowly :( hope God will forgive me. He has been very good to us and we have to be a good creature. Let's fix ourself and be better. These secrets are an expensive experience. We need to learn from it and don't make the second stupid mistakes :( Amen. Thank you Bamboee.

Hello dear, Please dear dont feel so bad about whatever the secret is about. We all are humans and we make really bad mistakes. I myself the secret I hold, I really feel so bad about it. Sometimes I really wish I was not born because of it. It really hurts me and makes me feel I am such a bad person. But its gone now and it needs to be out of my heart because its slowly killing me.. I hope that you find someone who you can really trust and let this secret out. So that you feel light and better. I pray that God forgives all of us and shows us some mercy, Amen. Take care dear, God Bless u always.

Hello, thanks for your response. You are right, I also had many thoughts about who should I disclose it to. Because I really cant keep it any longer with me. the only person came to my mind is my mother, I know that if the world will be against me, she will stand by my side.. So at the right time, right place, I shall tell her what has been a burden on my heart and soul! i hope that u find someone u can truly trust and release ur burden.. And God is a good secret keeper too.. He has kept our secrets for so long, I guess he is our best friend in disguise. Cheers.

Hello Kumar, Well I just cant keep mine any longer :) Thanks for ur response.

Hello Fannitia, I am glad that you dont have burden on your shoulders. Well you have the right to keep things to yourself, and that is a right that every human holds. But there are certain things which need to be shared because their burden is too heavy to be carried around. Thanks for ur response. God Bless u.

Hello queen, I am glad its not a burden to you, that is a good thing !! Because trust me a burden on the heart is very difficult to carry around. I wish u all the luck :) Cheers.