i wonder how long i can endure

trials like this do make one tough and quite honestly i can say i am tougher now than before.

stary1, thank you for your kind words. You are so right, it is important that I care for myself too and I do try! I have two brothers and and an aunt who are 4 and 5 hours away and an uncle who's about 8 hours away so I'm all alone in caring for my mom. My middle brother helps monetary wise and so do I but I do all the physical work while my husband takes care of cutting the grass (5 acres of it). The past 4 weeks have been hell, to say the least. I mean there were some good times too but mostly hard times because mom was so sick. In fact, I didn't know whether or not she'd make it and it really scared me. My husband wanted to come up and be with me for moral support but I told him no because he has a bad attitude with mom because of how she treated me in the past. I didn't need such negativity so I told him to stay home that I'd deal with it, what ever it came to be. Mom treats me so much better now thanks to my middle brother giving her a 'pep' talk and now she realizes that I only mean the best for her and nothing less than that which is such a huge relief for me although it's still hard for me to really be close to her out of fear she'll change and be nasty to me again but still, all in all, I want the best for her because I do love her very much. She won't come live with me because she likes having a place of her own so now I'm looking for someone to live with her and care for her rent free but there are somethings the person will need to commit to before we decide on who will get the 'job'. It's just too much and too hard for one person to do alone. Anyway, thank you so much for your kind words! May God bless you too!

Somehow your words guys comfort me, it is comforting to know also that faith works, somehow it comforts me that i know God will also not forsake me too...

CatsandDogs...It is difficult to take care of a parent that way. I had my mother move in with us when she began having problems. I understand the 24/7 concern and I just pray you find some relief at times and take care of yourself too. It is a trememdous benefit that you have a strong faith, but you must still think of yourself and take care of yourself! God Bless you both

Yes, sad to say purple, that our hospitals here are not all equipped for that unless i go our capital city, Manila where all tests like that are available. but i do not have the money for it right now.

I hope so topffer but since our local hospital is not that equipped to find out the true allergen, i sure hope i could find it on my own but right now i am taking preventions, like stay away from smoke, dust, pollen... even nuts.

it is quite impossible for him to be allergic to cats as we do not have cats at home, we have a dog but he stays outside... and my kids do not touch them

It is quite impossible to find by yourself if it is a pollen -- and there is very little to do against a pollen --, but you should also think at dog and cat hairs : it seems weird, but many people are allergic at cats.

thank you for the prayers stary1, i really hope he would grow out of it so i do not have to worry all the time, yesterday when i was at the office, he called me on my phone and was crying and wants me to go home as he was not feeling well..it is heartbreaking and feels like i want to jump from here to there!

at times like this, it is better to be humble enough to ask help from God rather than keeping the pride..

Pride can be something we need to swallow. God is good all the time. He has his reasons. No question about it. Just stay Happy OK

I truly feel it all now, i used to just ignore my mother and now i am experiencing it all today..

Thank you my friend, it is hard to keep that patience i tell you, it takes all of me not to breakdown as well.. i am still glad somehow that my husband was with me, we try our best to be strong for each other.

This is really helpful Ms.Jai, some of my office mates did say that i should "sell" my son, like to my mom or to my dad, in that way he will avoid getting sick..it is a belief but then my parents are away so it is hard to do that.. I do know that napkin you are referring to, we have that here but another brand i did forgot, i will try that again if it will work, i hope so. I am now avoiding junks for him as he is fond of those sometimes i am now giving fruits for his baon in school and though he complains, i understand now after we went to the doctor as he heard what the doctor said. I really hope he gets well and yes nebulizer, how come i should i avoid it? but then my pediatrician did told me not to use it anymore..so i guess so he wont be dependent on it.

Bronchitis Letran, yes i am keeping some strength here so as not to loose hope.

i hope so too shylade, thank you for the prayers..

It is hard to find the true allergen as our hospitals here are not equipped, i could though find it out if i bring him to another city where they are more equipped..well i hope so soon when i have the money

I hope so too wonderboy, i left him at home now with the nanny and so far he is doing great after the medications..all new ones.

I hope so my friend, i am planning on bringing him to the sea by the weekend carnival.. or maybe tomorrow morning as it is saturday

I am trying to be strong my friend and yes i have faith...