Out of Place

Philippines
July 6, 2012 10:16pm CST
Although everyone in my school talks to me, even though everyone is kind towards me, I still have this strong feeling of a distance between me and them. Maybe because of my not opening up towards them. I'm not really sad about it but i'm bothered about it. I just feel that whenever i do the tiniest bit of mistake, everybody will come to hate me. It's also as if i'm invisible to them and can only be seen when i do something that would really catch attention. Otherwise, I'm nothing.
3 responses
@sharksfin (1091)
• Philippines
7 Jul 12
What makes you feel that way? You have to ask yourself questions. What validates that feeling? You know, often times, what we believe in is what ends up happening. What we are expecting to see is what we really see. But, truth is, it could be a matter of perspective. I think it roots from this inexplicable fear of rejection. Why would you think they will hate you for the pettiest mistake? We all make mistake. Maybe you aren't as forgiving to yourself that's why you think that others will be more harsh to you than you are to yourself...think about it. Believe that people have good in them. We only have to focus on that. Cheers! ^_^
• Philippines
7 Jul 12
Thank you, this comment kind of cheered me up ^^ I'm starting to feel you are truly right. I'll keep on thinking positively despite of my being a certified pessimist.
@theguy03 (185)
• United States
7 Jul 12
Dont worry, your going to be out of that school in a few years. Taking some risk is natural, just be yourself and everyone else will be themselves. Being fake isnt worth it, just be you. :D
• Philippines
7 Jul 12
Thank you. That is what i keep on telling myself. At first, i was telling myself that it is nothing but i've started thinking that it was something about myself keeping my distance.
• United States
13 Aug 12
I felt that way before. However, when I found a great group of friends, I opened up to them. In return, they opened up to me and we all trusted each other. I make mistakes all the time. My friends get annoyed sometimes, but they don't take it to heart. If people condemn you or hate you because of a tiny mistake, they're not really people who want to get to know you. I felt invisible a lot sometimes. Even now. However, I feel worse that other people feel more invisible than me. So I try my best to talk to them and connect them to other people. I wish somebody did this to me when I was in high school. You're never invisible if you introduce people to each other. When they say "how did you meet ____?", they'll say YOU introduced them. I'm sure you're a nice person. Don't be afraid to open up.