I am feeling really low today.

Everyone experience hardships. Please don't be sad. I know you can make your poem. You just have to think something that really affect you. Views aren't that but how you express yourself. About your bys, why not call them to show how you miss them, tell them that your very sorry that you can't visit them. Maybe it is a good idea for you to visit them, being with someone you love lessens depression. You get to see the people you love. Think positive on your book. Don't thing that it would suck. You have not started yet, so why come into a conclusion? You would never know if you would not try. Well, if you feel that no one would read what you wrote then I'd read your work. Just make it free for me. :D hope for you to be okay soon.

Dude the rest of mainstream society call it challenges. It happens to everyone and even the best of us. I call it survival. For the rest of us we work what we can and survive even in a modern society that has about everything for us. But in order to avail of what society gives us, we have to earn currency to get them. All I know from experience if we let it get to us we stop. The more we are immobile we stop, if we stop we can't move forward. I ain't pulling your leg or anything. I am probably the most laziest stinker on this planet. As much as I want to just sit around and do nothing for the rest of my life, nothing is ever gonna happen for me. Been there done that, I have probably hit a brick wall so many times I lost count. I go down like a sack of bricks. So depressed I thought what's the point of all this anyway. But then I get back up fueled with fury. Which is what I am so thankful for that got me rolling every time I fall on my face. As a writer, it's only your mind that plays tricks on you, don't lose focus. Star Wars has a phrase for it. May be force be with you. But I have only one belief. My temper and adrenalin. Smash! Smash! The madder hulk gets the stronger he gets. Dude it works for me. Use your temper to fuel and move you forward and be happy when it does (a way to be so positive about it). People think anger and temper is a negative thing. Then how come I have used it productively? I hope it does for you. In closing, again I am pursuing another business venture with some friend here. I'm likely to fall flat on my face again if it doesn't fly. Yet I will always have that positiveness to push as hard as I did 20 years ago even in so many defeat. Yeah, and I'll still be my old temperament fueled self and get up and smash again.

I think you must find work that is next to writing as your goal and try to work things out in a different perspective. I think you just lack of experience and you can write again if you have gained that level of life experience. At least you can write and work at the same time. I understand that your passion is really writing but like what you have said, if its affecting your budget and family then you need to set aside it. But again, you can set again writing as your goal if the talent and your passion is ready enough to face the world

Just like you, I am a writer and I find that one of my biggest struggles as a writer is the fact that I have a lot of self doubt. Yes, I will admit that I am having a lot of fun writing my novel, but I am just afraid that there will never be anyone that will want to read my book and having that fear keeps me from writing as often as I would like to write. That said, I think that we all struggle from self-doubt and depression from time to time. Keep pushing forward and you will make it.

I can relate very well to what you are feeling now. I am too a struggling writer now. You maybe can find freelance writing jobs that can earn you a little to keep up with what you have now. I do almost everything now to get money. I just want to prove to my family that I can be successful with my writings. My family don't support my writing career at all. I am doing my first book now. It is in the process. I am thinking as long as we believe in ourselves. Everything is possible. What I can say, stay positive (though it is hard when we are at our lowest point) and keep praying. Never give up, we never know when we are at the state of "almost there" About your boys, try to talk to them. Explain to them so they understand. Good luck friend.. :)

Here is the deal man, your book doesn't suck. I too am trying to make it as a writer. I am about 180 pages in to my first novel, and the biggest problem I have faced is exactly what you are talking about. Self doubt, fear that it may just be wasted effort. 'Fear is the mind-killer' to quote a Sci-fi novel. Push forward and tell all those inner-doubts to begone. Perserverance pays off.