ahh! not again:'(
@night01watcher (259)
Italy
September 21, 2012 1:37pm CST
I was raped a few weeks ago by my ex. Me n my boyfriend filed a case against him. Yesterday, I was going to market, I was alone, I had to meet my boyfriend at a diner. I had to cross through a park which is usually deserted. And it was deserted that day too. When I was in the middle of my route through park, my ex appeared out of no where . I was shocked, I screamed when I saw him advancing towards me. He was saying no one will hear you, and that he us gonna teach me a lesson for filing a case against him. I tried to run, but was caught by another guy, who was there with him. And then you guys can imagine what happened. They were three. I was helpless. They jumped on me like animals, they mounted me as animals. Anyways when u didn't appear at diner for an hour and didn't attend my bf's calls. He got curious and he found me in the middle of park unconscios and dripping in blood, half naked and scarred. I am unable to walk sit or lay. Every bit of me is hurting. I am in a bad mood. I am angry at everyone. I don't know what am I feeling. I have started hating men. I dont even wanna look at my bf these days. He is torn too. I know. But I cant get rid of the way I am feeling right now
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@WakeUpKitty (8694)
• Netherlands
21 Sep 12
So if I understand it well it's your ex doing this to you? Even find other men willing to help him? How come the police is not looking for him as you turned him in? Sorry but it beats me. Since you are still there I advice you to fight back. If necessary go to the newspaper, shout it out at those (family?) dinners. There is no need to cover his back. What he did, what his friends did is against the law! There is no excuse for it. I do understand you start hating men (who wouldn't) although it's the same guy doing this to you. Your bf can't help. Try to talk to him, also about your feelings. You both have to talk to give this all a place and to know it's not your fault or his (for not protecting you).
I don't know if you will ever get rid of the feeling but for sure is that you have to give it (sooner or later) a place in your life. It's a part of you, it's a life experience you can not deny. You are still there, so you are a survivor, a strong person. Don't let it break you, fight back! It's for your own sake, it's your life your future! Remember: you can't change or help what people do to you but how you handle it is in your own hands.
@night01watcher (259)
• Italy
21 Sep 12
Well yes my ex has been arrested now. But I want revenge. I want to see him in the pain he put me through. I wanna torture him like he tortured me. I want to beat him like he did. I am not angry with my boyfriend. I don't know what the hel& m feeling right now. I wish I can make my ex suffer
@asliah (11137)
• Philippines
26 Apr 13
oh my,there are people who have been close to you for a long time is the one who will do bad things to you,that behavior of your ex was really disappointed,and that was right what you did to filed a case against to him because it was still a crime.
@kedralynn (980)
• United States
25 Sep 12
First off, let me say that I am sorry this happened to you. I had an abusive ex and he hurt me a lot after we broke up. I filed a restraining order against him and eventually moved away. I worry about running into him still.
It took a long time for me to get over my fears after him. I had a hard time trusting my new bf even tho years had passed.
I can understand you not wanting to look at your bf. But is it his fault? I pray you filed another report against your ex and that he winds up in jail where he can be beat and raped himself.
I don't want to sound cliche, but it gets easier. One day the pain lessens a little and you can kinda breathe again. That's when you start making steps towards healing. It's not easy and you'll have set backs, but I pray you heal.
@inertia4 (27960)
• United States
4 Oct 12
Well, that is a horrible story. I feel so bad for you. I hope you went to the hospital. Now if I were you I would file charges against your ex as well as the other two guys that did this to you. They should not get away with this. They need to be put away in jail. Tell your boyfriend not to retaliate. Thats what they want him to do. Get the police involved, you can prove rape since you are the victim. Do not let these @ssholes get away with this. Right now, call the police, and get the medical treatment you need.
@paopaotang (54)
• China
1 Oct 12
your ex really hateful. I believe you're a strong girl. Spend more time with your friends, trust me, everything will be ok:)
@zurichann (235)
• Philippines
15 Dec 12
I can't help crying after hearing this story. What kind of human can do that to a helpless woman. To think that he was your ex boyfriend. I can feel my heart pounding right now with anger. I can understand you. Having them in prison is not enough, but don't let them ruin you totally. A paper bill will never loose its value even it was stepped on or crumpled. It will remain a paper bill. Pull yourself together. I know that you are a strong woman.
@ARIES1973 (11426)
• Legaspi, Philippines
22 Sep 12
I can't imagine what kind of person you ex is. Oh, well, be strong and fight.
@watchamacallitz (1171)
• Philippines
21 Sep 12
You better report this to the authorities, that would be an additional charge against him. And please avoid going out alone and so should be the case with your boyfriend. Take extra care for you wouldn't know what your ex is up to the next time.
