Going as planned
By dreamertink
@dfollin (25351)
United States
October 23, 2012 10:21am CST
I did not plan my life to be this way.I remember when I was little I dreamed of growing up,getting married and having six kids!Was I nuts!
And being a kindergarten teacher.
I was in high school intending to graduate and go to college.When I was starting 11th grade the school messed up my records and I ended up back in 9th grade.Offered me a program to put me back in the 11th grade.And after 8 months of being in this program the cancelled it,so I could not become a teacher,as planned.
I worked as a substitute preschool teachers aide and later homeschooled my daughter for elementary school.That's the closest I got to that proposed career.
Well alright I grew up had two kids and neither of those suspected lifetime relationships worked out.Had some unexpected medical problems,ugh!Then I did finally get married and had a third child.Life was going well,then my husband was diagnosed with cancer and he died after seven and a half years of a great marriage.Now all of the sudden I am a partly handicapped,widowed single mom!
Yesterday my plan was to see how much money I could make online if I constantly worked at it from 7:00 AM.At 7:15 my daughter called me from school and said she needed me to bring her lunch because what they were having was going to bother her stomach.So,I stopped working,fixed her a lunch and walked to her school.Walked all the way back home to find I had left my keys inside and our roomate had already left for workSo,back to the school I walked and checked in.They have a very high security system,takes 10 minutes to check in.Then I go to the other office where they emailed the teacher to let my daughter bring me her key.Then,I walk back home,go in trying to start typing again and my roomates cat,will not leave me alone and my computer is not old and slow.Then my daughter comes home,she wants me to take a walk with her.Then I get back and fix dinner.Then the landlord comes home and wants to talk.Now it is time for the TV show that I want to watch.....not on,it's the presidential debates.So,I get to work online for a half an hour and then I remember I hadn't taken my meds yet.Then,I am exhausted and have a migraine!
Why did I even bother to get up.Has your life gone as planned? Do you ever have days like I had yesterday?
And being a kindergarten teacher.
I was in high school intending to graduate and go to college.When I was starting 11th grade the school messed up my records and I ended up back in 9th grade.Offered me a program to put me back in the 11th grade.And after 8 months of being in this program the cancelled it,so I could not become a teacher,as planned.I worked as a substitute preschool teachers aide and later homeschooled my daughter for elementary school.That's the closest I got to that proposed career.
Well alright I grew up had two kids and neither of those suspected lifetime relationships worked out.Had some unexpected medical problems,ugh!Then I did finally get married and had a third child.Life was going well,then my husband was diagnosed with cancer and he died after seven and a half years of a great marriage.Now all of the sudden I am a partly handicapped,widowed single mom!
Yesterday my plan was to see how much money I could make online if I constantly worked at it from 7:00 AM.At 7:15 my daughter called me from school and said she needed me to bring her lunch because what they were having was going to bother her stomach.So,I stopped working,fixed her a lunch and walked to her school.Walked all the way back home to find I had left my keys inside and our roomate had already left for workSo,back to the school I walked and checked in.They have a very high security system,takes 10 minutes to check in.Then I go to the other office where they emailed the teacher to let my daughter bring me her key.Then,I walk back home,go in trying to start typing again and my roomates cat,will not leave me alone and my computer is not old and slow.Then my daughter comes home,she wants me to take a walk with her.Then I get back and fix dinner.Then the landlord comes home and wants to talk.Now it is time for the TV show that I want to watch.....not on,it's the presidential debates.So,I get to work online for a half an hour and then I remember I hadn't taken my meds yet.Then,I am exhausted and have a migraine!
Why did I even bother to get up.Has your life gone as planned? Do you ever have days like I had yesterday?1 person likes this
6 responses
@julyteen (13252)
• Davao, Philippines
23 Oct 12
We are trying to plan our life but sometimes it won't follow what we have plan. Although the write ups we made is a simple guide for us to follow but at the end we will wonder why it happen to us this way which are not in our plan.
So the best thing we can do now is to follow the flow of life rather than we make our way that will against our will.
So the best thing we can do now is to follow the flow of life rather than we make our way that will against our will.@dfollin (25351)
• United States
23 Oct 12
Hi julyteen,It doesn't seem to matter how much we write a plan if God wants it to go another way then it will.
@wolfie34 (26771)
• United Kingdom
23 Oct 12
No way has my life gone to plan, you know it's true what they say becareful what you wish for it might come true and it did and the wish became an utter nightmare. I was bullied for most of my childhood, by my father and by the kids and even the teachers at school, I was nothing, worthless, the brunt of the school jokes and I came away with a mediocre education. No one wanted me and I was always the outcast. But I was a hard worker and I worked hard at work, again I was bullied at work, and in 2002 I had a mental breakdown, I was diagnozed with clinical depression, I was in an abusive relationship, bearing in mind when I was younger I dreamt of having a loving partner and someone who would truly love me for who I was. It got so desperate that I 'vanished' from my partner who has never found me fortunately. I am now paranoid, suffer with anxiety, and depression, seeing a therapist once a week and I am on antis. Now I live for today, I don't think about tomorrow. I have accepted that I will be single for the rest of my life, I am 41 years of age. I see how other people's lives have turned out and compare it to mine. Life sucks.
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@dfollin (25351)
• United States
23 Oct 12
Hi Wolfie,I did not say that life sucks,I said things don't always go as planned.I am sorry you have gone through all this and am still going through rough times.Those people that bullied you were adults and should of known better! Your father bullied you!And teachers are trained not to bully!
If you ever just need to talk to someone,please IM me.
Those people that bullied you were adults and should of known better! Your father bullied you!And teachers are trained not to bully! If you ever just need to talk to someone,please IM me.@wolfie34 (26771)
• United Kingdom
23 Oct 12
Thank you for your kindness, sorry I just offloaded, I appreciated your discussion for me to do that, I was just feeling sorry for myself, I guess what doesn't kill us makes us stronger eh. For the rest of my life I hope to be able to get a place that I can my own and find happiness and enjoy life on my own.
@GardenGerty (160665)
• United States
23 Oct 12
No, my life has not gone as planned, and sometimes I do not plan. Of course neither you nor I planned to become widows. Some days certainly do not go as planned. I would say that you are certainly getting your walking done, and that must be healthy. I have to hide from the cats to get anything done at all.
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@dfollin (25351)
• United States
23 Oct 12
Hi GardenGerty,"Everything Happens for a Reason....Gods Reason" So,we shouldn't even make plans because it is not up to us anyway.
Some walking is healthy,but as the weather gets colder it is harder on my body.I am not a cat person,but this cat is pretty good.And I feel sorry for her because my roomate is not here very much.
Some walking is healthy,but as the weather gets colder it is harder on my body.I am not a cat person,but this cat is pretty good.And I feel sorry for her because my roomate is not here very much.
@lilybug (21107)
• United States
23 Oct 12
I never really had a set plan for my life. I never knew what I wanted to be when I grew up. Is my life heading in a direction I want it to be heading? NO! I am a single mom with 2 kids. Neither of my kids have a relationship with their father. I don't have any friends. I am constantly behind on my bills. My last job was driving me so nuts that I up and walked out and quit last week and I now have no income. I am renting a house that I could barely afford before I left my job. Now I have to figure out how I am going to be able to afford to stay here. I get one last paycheck tomorrow and then I am out of money till I find something else. I may have not had a set plan for my life, but this sure as heck is not the way I would have wanted it to go.
@romzee (937)
• Philippines
24 Oct 12
Life is not always as we plan it to be because if that will be the case,
life will start to be boring. Expect the unexpected, we never knows what life brings and this gives life to our lives...
@jessielee72 (37)
• United States
24 Oct 12
Nope, and thank God it didn't go as planned!! I think the big man up stairs has lots of plans for us. I know it seems like your life is haywire, but I think it's a test to see how tough you are. You are obviously a lucky woman to have a great daughter that enjoys walking with you, just like I walk with my daughter everyday. If that was the only enjoyment I could have out of life, it would be just fine with me. I am 40 years old and about 7 years ago I began to get really sick. I was working full time, exercising, going out and dancing with my husband..just enjoying life, like finally everything was coming together..but I also drank and I do mean drank a lot. I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia, then lupus, then they told me it was rheumatoid arthritis and osteoarthritis. It took over 5 years to finally get it right. I can no longer work as a barber any more because I cannot stand very long and I can't sit for very long either because of arthritis in my back. Sitting puts too much pressure on my spine..the most comfortable I am is laying on the floor..and even then I have to arrange my self to where it doesn't hurt. I just wanted to say that my illnesses and the way my life is now I would take it before I would when I wasn't sick. I have learned to appreciate the little things in life..especially walking with my daughter or just sitting outside and enjoying nature. I also have been sober for over 5 years now..I don't know if my illness helped with me quitting or if I just got tired of it..but I have drank heavily since I was 17 and I am so thankful that I am able to wake up in the morning and see my families face. I just wanted to say the hard bumps you are dealing with now are leading to smooth paths towards the future..keep you chin up everything will be great! I promise you that!
