SAD TIMES :(

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What can i say really apart from i know myself, and 9 years on and still sadness. I do know that nothing will change no matter how much i try to win them, which i had gave up 9 years ago. My husbands family and relatives will never accept me and i will never be good enough for my husband either in their eyes too. I dont know any reason at all thats why its bugging me for all these years. I tell my husband to ask his family what their problem is but because of different culture and he said forget it and he is not bothered what they think as he has his own life and dont listen. Yes thats true, but i believe he cant question them, i dont know. Maybe because they are old fashioned minds and because im British and the first outcast to the family. i dont know. All i remember was 5 years ago was his mum pleading and crying to her son to finish the relationship with me and that im not good enough. Yet they have never met me before and straight away they judge me!! Next we got the rest of the relatives that are weird with me too and dont speak or smile at me or even my son Callum anymore! But my daughter yes obviously because she is half English and half Cypriot. It brakes my heart to see that they have stopped talking or smiling to my son even though hes says he is not bothered. When my hubby comes home with a gift for my daughter Meliz who is only 3 years old, i ask him who its from and he says relatives and did Callum get anything? Obviously not because he is not blood! i new this from the beginning! So i say from now on please dont not bring anymore gifts home for meliz. Not fair that 1 child can recieve and our other child gets nothing! To me this would cause jelousy and problem between brother and sister later. Its pure selfishness!! I have alot of anger and sadness about many things that has happened in the last 9 years since leaving the UK as my mum divorced my dad after 31 years of marriage and told me the first weekend i arrived with my son that their marriage was all over and my dad will be going back to the UK 2 weeks later. I was shocked!! i gave everything up in the UK to come to Cyprus to be with my mum and dad as a single parent to have their only grandchild close to them. Anyway so my dad went back to the UK and waited for the house to be sold in Cyprus and have his half and after 3 months it finally happened and then my mum who had met somebody 1 month before house went through and they made plan together after 5 months in total to move to Turkey to where he is from and live happily ever after! Her new man is ok i guess and its her life but he is so much younger than she is. But her life.. Now to this day i dont hear from my mum at all for the last 3 years as she has changed her brain and i washed my hands with her for other reasons too. I hear off my dad 3 lines on a email a month or every 2 months. I dont hear from my brother and sister as they have their own lives and my 33 yr old brother has never spoken with my mum since my dad returning to the UK alone with 1 suitcase and my 26 year old sister needs her when is ok for her. but i understand her because she is going through remission for the 2nd time and sometimes needs her mum but my mum dont go back to the UK!. (im sorry this is an extremley long discussion but i have been aching to speak out for 9 years in total now and having no family of my own here is sad and lonely. Not one email did me or the kids get for Christmas either