I've returned...well, sort of
@CRK109 (14556)
United States
March 11, 2017 10:47am CST
I received an email that some of you were concerned about my absence, so I thought I should come back to visit and try to explain what's been going on. Those of you who are friends with me on FB should already have some idea of the problems I've had.
Oh, it's nothing new. I have some pretty major sleep problems and they affect just about everything in my life. Some days I get only a couple of hours of sleep. Other days I sleep all day and I'm awake all night. Friends on FB have tried to help me in just about every way possible.
Last night, I got lucky. The medication my doctor gave me to help me sleep actually worked and I got up at 10am today. I have company coming for the day, so I really need to be relatively awake. I'll be cooking and visiting until probably about 8pm tonight. And then we'll see how I sleep going forward.
Last weekend, my niece came for a "visit". I hadn't seen her in over a year, although she lives about a mile away. She's always "too busy". I invited her here for dinner. She arrived around 6pm and left at 2am! I had really expected her to leave around 9pm or 10pm, and as the night wore on, I began to think she was planning to stay the night. After her visit, I was so overtired that I couldn't sleep for hours, and that began another week of very restless and sleepless nights.
Sleep problems trigger my depression, and depression stops me from doing much of anything. And that's why it's been hard to come here and write. Sometimes it's hard to put a cohesive sentence together.
I will do my best to visit a bit here until my doorbell rings and then I will come back as I can. Thanks for the concern. You've touched my heart.
Claudia
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@Morleyhunt (21744)
• Canada
11 Mar 17
I was wondering why we hadn't seen you. My sister and I were discussing absent Mylotters and your name was one of the first that came up. I hope that you can get your sleep sorted out and then have your life fall into a routine.
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@MarshaMusselman (38865)
• Midland, Michigan
11 Mar 17
@CRK109 I'm alone most of the day right now too. When my husband get home from work he can't figure out why I'm so chatty and goes to hide on his computer. My daughter straightened him out, but he doesn't like listening to me too long.
I used to have a problem leaving the homes of people I'd visit with years ago when I was in my twenties. I just didn't know what to say to get myself out of the house. Eventually, I would get going though and then wonder why I just didn't do that earlier.
If your niece comes again, just let her know ahead of time or as the evening progresses that you need to be in bed by ten or it throws off your whole schedule. If need be, you can gather her belongings while walking toward the door and encourage her to come more often so it doesn't take so long to catch up. Had my friends helped me out in that way it would have been so much easier and not all on me to figure out what to say.
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@Morleyhunt (21744)
• Canada
11 Mar 17
@CRK109 I seem to always have people around....but I know how awkward it is when guests overstay their welcome. When our first baby was born....the day I came home from the hospital we had friends come for a visit. They were not planning on leaving until they had seen the baby awake. She was still sleeping at 11:00PM. Newborns wake up when they want...lot when you want. My husband finally went to get the sleeping baby out of bed to try to wake her. Needless to say. After our guests left....baby did not want to sleep.
I hope I have never been that inconsiderate.
@CRK109 (14556)
• United States
11 Mar 17
It seems that every time I get my sleep sorted out, after a week or so, things fall out of routine again. One of the reasons I'd asked my doctor for sleep medication was to sort this all out. I'll be seeing him again soon and I'll have to ask him about it again. This is no way to live, believe me! And thanks so much for thinking of me. It gets lonely when I don't have people to talk with.
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@marlina (154131)
• Canada
11 Mar 17
So glad that you had a bit of sleep. Not easy to spend sleepless nights. I have some of them sometimes because of health problems.
I hope that you can fix this and come back more often and enjoy writing again and visiting.\
Sending you a virtual flower.
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@CRK109 (14556)
• United States
13 Mar 17
And what a beautiful flower it is! Thank you so much! I sure hope my sleep works itself out soon. I don't enjoy living like this.
@allknowing (137781)
• India
12 Mar 17
Why can't these guests know their limits. I had a guest the other day. I took her out for heavy snacks and asked if she could be dropped. She preferred to come back with me and spend some time with me. I was tired after that trip and threw hints here and there but she stayed on until I had to make it clear she should leave (lol)
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@allknowing (137781)
• India
13 Mar 17
@CRK109 I like here too but there are times we need the 'me' time.
@CRK109 (14556)
• United States
20 Mar 17
@LadyDuck According to the calendar, spring has arrived here. Unfortunately, it is still too cold for us to see spring in any fashion. Little bits of snow are still on the ground. But hopefully it will begin warming up soon so we'll start to have flowers and leaves on the trees again!
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@Tampa_girl7 (50526)
• United States
19 Mar 17
I didn't realize you were back. It's good to see you.
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@GardenGerty (160949)
• United States
15 Mar 17
Oh man, when I first was married to my first husband, who was in the Navy, we had visitors like that. They all wanted places to go to get away from the ship, but did not necessarily involve getting drunk or gambling, etc. It is exhausting. I hope you get your sleep regulated again.
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@CRK109 (14556)
• United States
16 Mar 17
I wish we hadn't had the time change on top of that. It made things a lot harder for me. So, it's going to take some time. But I'll get there.
@marguicha (223795)
• Chile
11 Mar 17
I´m so sorry! I have sleep problems once in a while now that I live alone and it is not nice.
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@marguicha (223795)
• Chile
11 Mar 17
@CRK109 I didn´t have those problems while my husband was alive. But being alone and old age don´t help.
@BelleStarr (61101)
• United States
11 Mar 17
I have been following you on Facebook and have been concerned that you are suffering so much. Sleep is so important and I know how hard it is when it is illusive. My mom has had sleep issues since menopause.
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@BelleStarr (61101)
• United States
13 Mar 17
@CRK109 Melatonin is supposed to help when you have your days and nights reversed, it helps adjust your internal clock so it might help, it doesn't make you fall asleep but it helps get the clock reset. I hope you get it straightened out, but at least you did sleep even if it was in the daytime. prayers coming our way and a hug!!
@CRK109 (14556)
• United States
13 Mar 17
Things have gotten so much worse for me since Britt passed away. So many of my FB friends have had advice for me, but none of it works. Last night, I went to bed at 9:30pm, completely exhausted after my nephew's visit. I woke up, refreshed and ready for action at....1am. *sigh* And then I was awake until 6am. I set my alarm but slept right through it, and slept most of the day away. I'm living a real nightmare right now.
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@Marilynda1225 (83109)
• United States
11 Mar 17
Glad to see you back and that things are relatively okay. See your myLot family misses you when you aren't here for awhile Hope you'll continue to check in with us even if you don't have much to say
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@Marilynda1225 (83109)
• United States
13 Mar 17
@CRK109 I'm stuck in the house alot of the time too and it can be frustrating. I think I have nothing to say but then I whine about the weather or something 
trival. I always found your posts interesting and I think it's not so much that you have to find something earth shattering to talk about but that we just like you and miss you when you aren't here. Hope you can get through your depression
trival. I always found your posts interesting and I think it's not so much that you have to find something earth shattering to talk about but that we just like you and miss you when you aren't here. Hope you can get through your depression@CRK109 (14556)
• United States
13 Mar 17
I'm definitely going to try! I don't want to be the one complaining all the time, so I need to find other things to write about. If I could get out of this place once in a while, that would be great! I'd come up with lots of things! So maybe I should work on getting out more!
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@Happy2BeMe (99380)
• Canada
11 Mar 17
Sorry to hear about your sleep problems and your depression. It is nice to see you posting again.
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@amitkokiladitya (171927)
• Agra, India
11 Mar 17
Take care. I hope you are able to sleep well
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@LovingMyBabies (85288)
• Valdosta, Georgia
11 Mar 17
I'm sorry to hear about your sleeping problems. I know how bad it can affect you. Thank God mine is only temporary though. With having a newborn I usually only sleep 2-3 hours per night.
I hope you can sleep good tonight.
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@CRK109 (14556)
• United States
13 Mar 17
Oh I'd be perfect to be someone's nanny right now! lol I can sleep pretty well when the sun is out, but when the sun goes down? Wide awake. ugh. Can't even go downstairs to do laundry because they close up the room at 10pm. So I go on FB and play games.
@PatZAnthony (14749)
• Charlotte, North Carolina
11 Mar 17
Nice to 'see' you here! Thought about looking at your Facebook page after sending a message here. Yes, many here were wondering about YOU and how you are doing.
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@CRK109 (14556)
• United States
13 Mar 17
I sometimes park myself on FB and play games to try and forget my problems. A few people know to message me there when they can't find me! lol I'll really try to get here on a more regular basis. *hugs*
@CRK109 (14556)
• United States
13 Mar 17
You betcha. I'm not coping well with it because I just want to sleep at night and be awake during the day. But I guess, right now, that's too much to ask. Even my sleep medication isn't cooperating.
@MarshaMusselman (38865)
• Midland, Michigan
11 Mar 17
It was me that began all of that and mostly because you'd written about a good dream and that was all you did from then forward as far as it appears here. It was the first time you'd not replied to a response you got although I'm not around all the time either and I don't know how quick you are or aren't to reply.
We never connected on FB so I couldn't check you out there.
I just had surgery, finally, on my knee the end of February and I know what it's like to have our sleep messed up. In the beginning I'd nap in the day and sleep fairly well at night, but now I try to get my ankle above my knee at least once a day as it's been swollen and aches and invariably I'll fall asleep. Then I can barely sleep through the night. I was awake almost the whole night through this past thursday. Yesterday, I got another small nap but probably I was still so tired from being awake the other night that I did fine sleeping last night.
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@CRK109 (14556)
• United States
13 Mar 17
If you are on FB, I'll have to come and find you so we're connected if I disappear from mylot again. I'd love to be able to keep in touch one way or the other, although I am going to try very hard not to disappear again! xoxo
@CRK109 (14556)
• United States
13 Mar 17
Sleep problems are the worst. I used to be able to lay my head on my pillow and go right out. Now I generally lay there for hours waiting for sleep to come and get me. And if I get up again, I'm still waiting hours. Fixing this has become a full time job.
