I'm not a very friendly person.

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As I grew older, I refrain from taking s*** from other people regardless of what they are going through in their lives. To me, I'm kind of the worst person you can get stuck with a room. I can keep quiet for the entire day and I won't even look at the person I'm with (my mother-in-law hates this about me.) It's not that I don't want to talk it's just I don't like gossip (which btw, is most often the bait people use to get you interested in them) or to talk about problems, etc. Hearing people talk about these things make me sad and at the same time, it also makes me realize something - if this person can talk about someone else this way, what is this person saying about me when I'm not around? Don't get me wrong, I know how to empathize more than sympathize. I'd rather throw my thoughts and pieces of advice out there rather than say "A sorry to hear that." I guess I started not caring at all about a couple of years ago. I don't really remember how it started but I simply lost interest in people who come my way. So most of them think I'm a snob while others are too curious to get to know me. In my mind, the lesser people in my life the lesser trouble and the lesser problems I have or will be having. I was right on that one because I seem to only attract people who genuinely want to be friends with me. The thing about not being friendly is that people tend to respect you because they are cautious when they are around you. But the downside of it is they often interpret your words to their liking. Although what others think is something which bothers me only on rare occasions, I sometimes, find myself lonely since I only have a few friends (best ones) and I don't get to be with them as often as I like. I'm good in small talks. I'm also great in entertaining people when I want to. But I simply want to keep it that way. I don't really like getting to know the new neighbor or hanging out with a new co-worker or making friends with my boss. Life is easier that way for me. Sounds sad, right? I don't really know if this is a bad thing or not. And I haven't met anyone who's the same as me.