Crying Again....

Banks, Oregon
June 16, 2017 10:25pm CST
So here i am crying once again, i just want to curse this freaking day.... Not only did the money get taken from my account today, now my friends whom said they we're going our backing out. I just feel like breaking down, it's always one thing or another and now it's like i am just being told not to go.... Chris you have no money don't go.... Chris you're friends are not going don't go.... Chris horrible stuff is happening everyday in Portland don't go.... So i guess Chris will just sit at home and do what he does any other day.... just so tired of being tired....
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@andriaperry (116936)
• Anniston, Alabama
17 Jun 17
I am sorry, I know how you feel. Not having a car is hard and I know what being broke is too. You cant hide because bad things happen, because you would never get out.
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• Banks, Oregon
18 Jun 17
It's not even so much the not driving as not having anyone who wants to do what i want to.
@RubyHawk (99405)
• Atlanta, Georgia
17 Jun 17
I'm so sorry you can't go but don't sit home and do nothing. It's easy for me to say, but please try something fun to do or failing that, do something to help someone. That always makes you feel good about yourself. And put your money back in the bank.
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• Banks, Oregon
18 Jun 17
Thanks Ruby, i really tried to find something fun to do i thought maybe a family BBQ, my out of state uncle visiting, i thought maybe we'd go shopping in town, but nothing came of it so i am just sitting around.
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@RubyHawk (99405)
• Atlanta, Georgia
19 Jun 17
@chrissbergstrom Do you like to work cross word puzzles or word games?I can get so absorbed in those that I don't know what's going on around me.
@sissy15 (12297)
• United States
18 Jun 17
Sorry that you were unable to go. Honestly, I'm terrified to go to any big gatherings anymore. I just don't trust people and my anxiety gets the better of me when things like that are going on. Hopefully, your day gets better.
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@sissy15 (12297)
• United States
20 Jun 17
@chrissbergstrom That's too bad.
• Banks, Oregon
18 Jun 17
So far it has sucked
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@jstory07 (139816)
• Roseburg, Oregon
17 Jun 17
Maybe you can make arrangements to go again with someone who will not back out on you. Net week I am going to Wilsonville , Oregon. The town named after my Great grand father. I hope nothing come up.
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• Banks, Oregon
18 Jun 17
I think next year i am just going by myself regardless i am done even asking friends....
@teamfreak16 (43418)
• Denver, Colorado
17 Jun 17
Well, I hope it all works out. It often does.
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• Banks, Oregon
18 Jun 17
i keep hoping
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@Happy2BeMe (99380)
• Canada
17 Jun 17
I am so sorry to hear this Chris. I can only imagine how you feel.
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• Banks, Oregon
18 Jun 17
just feels like crap
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@Happy2BeMe (99380)
• Canada
18 Jun 17
@dragon54u (31634)
• United States
17 Jun 17
You should not sit at home being sad. If it is that important to you (I read you comments why it is important and I agree) you just find a way to go or at least try. I don't know how far you are from Portland but is anyone in your town going there for that or another reason? Plus, you have friends there. Can someone come and pick you up? If you have to stay at home, at least make it a festive day. If you have friends where you live, have your own little celebration. I know how awful it feels to not be able to go somewhere that means so much to you and all because you're broke. I can't tell you how often that's happened to me and worse, when I had to tell my kids we could not follow our plans. It's frustrating and you feel like things are bleak and will never get better, you'll never dig yourself out of the financial hole. But you can, and you will if you set a goal and take positive steps to achieve it. This time next year you could be going to the Pride Day with plenty to spare. Make a plan, work that plan, and enjoy reaching your goal--start today. I hope you will feel better soon.
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• Banks, Oregon
18 Jun 17
I tried to find others that we're going and no one was.
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@annierose (21583)
• Philippines
17 Jun 17
I am very sorry about this. It breaks my heart when I see or hear someone cries. I hope that you will be able to overcome your sadness.
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@annierose (21583)
• Philippines
19 Jun 17
@chrissbergstrom How are you?
• Banks, Oregon
18 Jun 17
thanks i hope so to
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@crossbones27 (49491)
• Mojave, California
17 Jun 17
Know the feeling, love dogs better. We just do dog things and all is alright. Screw people, disappoint you every time.
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• Banks, Oregon
18 Jun 17
I am so over people disapointing me its true dog never disapoints
@Shavkat (140024)
• Philippines
17 Jun 17
I know where it is coming from. Don't feel blue, my friend. There will be more blessings to come after having this kind of situation.
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@Shavkat (140024)
• Philippines
19 Jun 17
• Banks, Oregon
18 Jun 17
thank you
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@silvermist (19702)
• India
18 Jun 17
Well,that is a huge disappointment.It is not the money part but those friends backing out is so unfortunate.Now you will have to watch the pride on the TV or online.
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• Banks, Oregon
18 Jun 17
I am not even going to watch it just not feling it now
@Srbageldog (7716)
• United States
17 Jun 17
Maybe it's a sign not to go. I know you were looking forward to going, but could you do something to celebrate at home instead? And plan on going next year. Maybe there won't be as much violence and craziness going on then (we can hope, anyway.)
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• United States
19 Jun 17
@chrissbergstrom That's good. Hopefully you'll have some money saved up next year and will be able to go and enjoy yourself. I'm sorry you had to miss out this year.
• Banks, Oregon
18 Jun 17
I plan to go next year, i am just staying home today for multiple reasons.
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@Courtlynn (67083)
• United States
17 Jun 17
I'm so sorry!! I hate that you aren't having the fun you want to have!
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@Courtlynn (67083)
• United States
18 Jun 17
@chrissbergstrom but to one person, all the time. Nope not buying it.
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• Banks, Oregon
18 Jun 17
it happens its life
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@JohnRoberts (109846)
• Los Angeles, California
17 Jun 17
You should pour your energies in something constructive to take your mind off things.
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• Banks, Oregon
18 Jun 17
easy to say harder to do sometimes
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@JohnRoberts (109846)
• Los Angeles, California
18 Jun 17
@chrissbergstrom I know but you have to try. Nothing can be accomplished by wallowing.
@jujunme (2501)
• United States
18 Jun 17
I know from your posts how much you were looking forward to attend the celebration and now this sometimes life is just full of disappointments and all we can do is roll with the punches, so, try doing something you enjoy and try not to dwell on the negative.
@jujunme (2501)
• United States
19 Jun 17
@chrissbergstrom Of course it's hard to do and i won't lie, i would be very disappointed if i was looking forward to doing something or going somewhere and it all fell through. but,letting it get the best of you will only make things worse.
• Banks, Oregon
18 Jun 17
Thanks trying not to dwell, trying to distract myself its hard to do
@Tampa_girl7 (50317)
• United States
20 Jun 17
I hope that today was a better day for you
@sallypup (61221)
• Centralia, Washington
17 Jun 17
I'm sorry. You are in a hard place. I wish you a good place in your heart.
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• Banks, Oregon
18 Jun 17
Thank you lenore
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@byAlana (25)
17 Jun 17
Hi Chris, you might hear this a lot, but, dont be sad, i understand that you really want to go to pride, for what i`ve been reading, those two reasons are not enough. look, im from a third world country, thing are really, really, really hard here, violence here is horrible, people get killed every day like flies. and because the economy, at least the 80 percent of the population are poor. and non of those things haven't stoping us from living our lives. doesn't matter if you have no money, you'll watch the parade and have fun, and doesn't matter if youre alone, you'll find someone. dont let little things ruin your happiness and peace. I wish the best, and take my advise.
• Banks, Oregon
18 Jun 17
thank you adrian and i think i need to realize some have it much worse then me