I was seriously depressed in the past week, a new experience.
By dragon54u
@dragon54u (31634)
United States
December 27, 2017 4:03pm CST
The Christmas season has never depressed me, it was always a joyous time even if I was alone. This year was very different. My son's heroin addiction got out of his control and he was often in the hospital with MRSA infections. Then he stole about $4k of valuables from me--guitars, coins, his daughter's guitar I was saving for her (she's only 4), and some items including my mom's class ring--and I told him to take his wife and get out. He threatened me so I took out an order of protection. That was in October.
It's been awful, wondering if he's alright, if he has enough to eat, if he's cold at night, what he's doing. I think that's what got me. From the week before Christmas till yesterday the only time I stopped crying for more than a few minutes was when I was sleeping.
It's better today, thank goodness, I almost feel normal again. I've never had that happen to me before. I have always been able to talk myself through a bad mood or minor depression but this was different.
Has this ever happened to you? I hope it will never happen to me again!
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@dragon54u (31634)
• United States
27 Dec 17
They have to want help. Every time we've put him through rehab--once an inpatient type for 8 months!--he went right back to it. BernieZ said that addicts must change their mindset and that is so true. I can only hope he succeeds one day in attaining his freedom.
@cintol (11261)
• United States
1 Feb 18
I am sorry you experienced that, addiction is such a hard thing to go through. When my son was younger I battled that with him and even had him arrested one night because he was out of control. He cleaned himself up but it was a hard battle. Sometimes as hard as it is for a parent, you have to let them hit rock bottom before they see the problem. I hope you don't have to go through that again.
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@dragon54u (31634)
• United States
3 Feb 18
Thank you so much for sharing your own pain and experience. It's so sad that so many of us are going through this.
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@cintol (11261)
• United States
3 Feb 18
@dragon54u I know, seems to be a lot more now then it was in the past. Good luck, I hope things get better
@dragon54u (31634)
• United States
21 Feb 18
Definitely! I can deal with anything if I know what it is I'm dealing with and what to expect.
@dragon54u (31634)
• United States
27 Dec 17
Thank you, Patsie. They are better today, I woke up and the depression was just gone. The situation remains but I think maybe I was just tired of being strong for so long. I'm going to find a way to deal with it better so this doesn't happen again.
@Hatley (163776)
• Garden Grove, California
27 Dec 17
@dragon54u I a glad o hear that take c are now
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@bagarad (14283)
• Paso Robles, California
28 Dec 17
It's no wonder you were crying. You were betrayed by your own child, and that hurts. Don't ask how I know that.One of my children did steal from me, but nothing with real monetary value -- just family heirlooms and such with mostly sentimental value. Never give up hope that your child can be healed of this addiction. I thought my sister-in-law's case was hopeless, but the Lord still found her and helped her overcome many years of heroin addiction.
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@dragon54u (31634)
• United States
30 Dec 17
I'm very happy that you have seen a miracle in your family! I'm hoping for one and there are so many people praying for him. Thank you for kind words and your encouragement!
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@bagarad (14283)
• Paso Robles, California
6 Jan 18
@dragon54u I hope God will give you your miracle.
@dragon54u (31634)
• United States
27 Dec 17
Thank you! I have always been strong but I guess I just lost it this past week. It's very upsetting when your child is suffering.
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@KrauseHome (36447)
• United States
28 Dec 17
From time to time, I experience those days and they are not Fun. Today would have been my Moms 74th birthday so it has been a little depressing. I am keeping busy here posting trying to keep my mind off it,
Take time, read a Good book, listen to some good uplifting music and Pray if you believe in that. Those usually are some of the things that help me.
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@dragon54u (31634)
• United States
28 Dec 17
I'm getting there, thank you. I guess everything that's gone wrong the past few years just hit me all at once. Thank you!
