Survivors Do

I have always been attached to the ones that have been through it. And I never go in to fix them. I don't even expect a relationship out of it. I expect a friend. And it is great just to make them happy. When it blossoms to something more it is beautiful. When they become a much better person it is the best feeling in the world because you were apart of the journey.

It is really painful to experience like this. It takes time to heal one's heart.

Being attracted to the broken isn't because you feel you can fix them, it is because you are support for each other. You understand what each is going through and help them any way you can. As hard as it is, reaching out to others in pain is in a way, helping you to heal yourself. I have been working through horrible pain, shutting out the world because of the pain. Being afraid to allow the world and people into your life because the fear that the horrific pain will be brought back into your life again by someone or something. I am going through not buying things I need because I figure a fire will come and take it from me again...like it did October second last year. After the fire all I had left was my purse and the clothes on my back. I don't want to replace anything because it'll just be burned up again. I still have to pretend to be happy and put that fake smile pon to greet people. It's what survivor's do to keep from losing their minds and keep their strength to continue each day. I hope for two things, one that you will stay in touch with me, and two that you will share your pain so maybe one day you'll find that there is a real smile on your face.