Drunken thoughts are sober truths

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So I wouldn't say that I'm "drunk" but I certainly have a buzz going. So I do apologize ahead for my ramblings. This is when thoughts cave my mind in the most. I've spent a long time feeling different than everyone else... most guys feel that finding a woman is an essential step in life. But I never quite understood this. As an artist, I know that conventionalism is the exact opposite of what I desire in the long run of my life. Having a wife, kids, a medium sized home with a white picket fence and a lawn to mow weekly and a boring trade job that I can't stand is selling myself short and is basically a hell filled with mediocrity. It's essentially steering myself away from my true purpose and causes me to tie myself to a life as an average joe. For some people that is the perfect set up. For me, it is a living hell. So this begs to question... what do all of you perceive out of all of this? Should I make my life worth living and risk the unlikely? Or should I conform to the system that everyone labels as "The American dream"? One will leave me living without true purpose and letting myself down, the other contains risk, and may be a battle I'll fight alone for the rest of my life, but will give me a true feeling of success if I manage to succeed.