Others see me as successful and happy but they do not really know I cry at night.
By Curlann
@annierose (21571)
Philippines
December 9, 2018 5:55am CST
One of my friends told me that what I have now is what she has been dreaming of and she has been jealous of my present condition. I have my stable job which gives me decent amount of money. We have our own house and I have gadgets and nice clothes. On the other hand, I still feel incomplete. Every night loneliness visit me and makes me cry. My boyfriend for many years suddenly turned cold and without any words at all left me. Since we are in a long distance relationship, it is not easy for me to travel to his place to know what really happened. I am a cross enrollee student as well which makes me too busy to book a flight to another destination.
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@annierose (21571)
• Philippines
10 Dec 18
It is such a nightmare and it is tormenting me too much.
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@annierose (21571)
• Philippines
10 Dec 18
@Nevena83 Are you on the same situation , right now?
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@annierose (21571)
• Philippines
10 Dec 18
Thank you Courage! I hope you also attain happiness.
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@annierose (21571)
• Philippines
11 Dec 18
@Courage7 Its life's realities, right?
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@Courage7 (19633)
• United States
10 Dec 18
@annierose Not likely but I know this and have accepted it Curlann. There are factors that are not going to change. Sadly. Thanks
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@rsa101 (38166)
• Philippines
10 Dec 18
Well it is you choice if you want to stay sad and lonely. But if I were you, you should look what others see in you and be happy about that since they see you as successful and happy in life. Why not emulate what they see in you instead of you seeing yourself sad and loveless and desperate. I think its just perspectives we have to see. If you really have a sad life no one would be jealous about what you achieve in life. That is a sign that you just forgot to see that side of you that your life is not as sad as it looked to be. It is you alone who is making it sad despite the fact that others see otherwise.
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@annierose (21571)
• Philippines
10 Dec 18
I agree with you. That is true but I hope it is as easy as that. Its like getting a wound that you would try to heal as fast as it can but only magic can automatically heal it on the spot, and there is no such thing as pixie dust or fairy grandmother to grant those wishes.
@maximax8 (31046)
• United Kingdom
9 Dec 18
She should not be jealous and maybe it is your job that she is impressed with. You have your own house and some don't have this. Some of them aspire to get a house in the future. She might wish to have similar gadgets and nice clothes. You feel lonely since things aren't working out with your long distance relationship. With a long distance relationship the people share visits and it can take too much time. Depending on the distance it can be expensive. Think of all you have and feel proud. Try to feel strong about your love life. You might meet someone else near you that is a much better boyfriend. Good luck.
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@maximax8 (31046)
• United Kingdom
9 Dec 18
@annierose I had a long distance relationship with a gorgeous man I met on a long distance walk. So we began a long distance relationship that lasted 8 months. Yes, you find it difficult to love again after 5 years. Maybe in time you will meet the right man.
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@annierose (21571)
• Philippines
9 Dec 18
Thank you! Yes, there are some guys around but its difficult to love again after my past relationship with my boyfriend for 5 years.
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@annierose (21571)
• Philippines
9 Dec 18
Thank you Kenya! Yes, I have been trying to move on and I hope one day I can no longer feel the sadness.
@aureliah (24322)
• Kenya
9 Dec 18
@annierose It happens slowly but don't lock yourself in the house. Go out and have fun
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@annierose (21571)
• Philippines
9 Dec 18
@aureliah Thanks. That is what I have been trying to do. I am extremely busy person but right now, all I want is to find a way to release my emotions somehow.
@annierose (21571)
• Philippines
10 Dec 18
I hope so that it is not his intention to leave me. I hope so one day he will show up and explain things to me.
@annierose (21571)
• Philippines
10 Dec 18
Of all the man I have loved, his the one I liked the most. Just so sad that I am left alone and he did not give any reason for such a very long silence.
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@almostoveryou (4805)
• Philippines
10 Dec 18
I tend to believe that we are all blessed in different ways. That there's always something and someone to be thankful for despite the adversities we face in life. Your friend probably sees the many blessings you have in your life.
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@annierose (21571)
• Philippines
10 Dec 18
I think so. On the other hand, she has a daughter and I don't have. She also have the man who loves him and I don't have. 
@annierose (21571)
• Philippines
10 Dec 18
I hope so too that things will be fine. We did not fight. Yes, he left without a word.
@annierose (21571)
• Philippines
9 Dec 18
Thanks Nasrudheen! I have been busy. There are so many things to do but this day, mom reminded me of my boyfriend that I felt sad again.
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