BestFriend or Lover?

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This is my friends story and I have her permission to write about this and I used single person as how she narrated it to me. We've been bestfriends for like more than 11 yrs. He told me before I was his fantasy girl, though he doesn't want to ruin the friendship. He knows I am a single mom, I know he is a divorcee and we are like thousand miles apart. He is my daughter's godfather,always there like he is the father( my daughter's father is not in the picture, left when i was pregnant). He is mean in way that he corrects me all the time but he is always there. He travels all the way to our far place just to visit us and told me, this should not be a pressure between us like to have sex or anything. But we did, the feeling of not having man for like 12 years ignited and something happen. We had sex. But we kept telling each other, we don't want to be in a relationship because it ruin the friendship, I'm afraid to commit and he doesn't want a failed relationship but he keeps telling me if i wont marry, he will take care of us forever. He is coming again to visit and again we decided, we should not pressure ourselves to have sex but i bet of we won't. He is not really good in bed because he is diabetic but he got ways to please me. I don't know if I should continue this or what? He wants us to continue being like this but sometimes I am thinking of trying to be in a relationship. What do you think guys? I can't give her an advice because I'm afraid it might be wrong and she might blame me. Have a great day to all